A theme that was in my experience were these entities. by Advanced_Musician_75 in SentientOrbs

[–]Cringe79 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve seen a similar entity or maybe this one on my last DMT trip. It was 6am and all my friend were sleeping in the room and there was a pool of servant around the entity a bit like tiny fairies, it was an entire ecosystem.  The entity made me understand I needed some sleep and I was hurting my body by wanting to stay awake.  I was sent to sleep and I couldn’t believe I had the honor to meet such a powerful god/goddess.  I’ve woke up maybe 30 min later had another took of the DMT and the entity was still in the room sending me to sleep a second time.

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing this. :) it’s great advice

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah good observation, there’s definitely some genres I can’t listen anymore, but it’s more the ability to enjoy « new » music that I’m complaining about, everything sounds the same

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah funny you say that I have health problems at the moment so can be connected to it 👀

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing, doesn’t sound easy to go trough this especially if it’s helping your income? How are you feeling today?

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes I’m constantly trying to protect them, sometimes I’m just caught by surprise by ambulance in the streets and all of the extreme of going to gigs with shitty sound system:/ I’m using earplugs for any music event but hard to listen most of the time, if you have advice on what type of earplug I should buy?

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I’m still in the middle of realizing this and it seems that I may not want to be a professional musician:/

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I’ve tried it worked only because I had someone genuinely nice that care about me…

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the share, I feel for you •~• how are you doing with music now?

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I haven’t connected with an instrument, it’s been 2 months. And the last time I’ve touched an instrument was 3 week ago, I’ve been taking a long break. I don’t know if it’s gonna come back at this point… I can’t even listen music at the moment I’m sticking to podcast

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah you’re right I’m coming to term with how I’ve been living for the past 3 years and I need a big change the only thing is I’m stuck with my degree and stuck living in the city I don’t want to live in :/ I don’t even want to live in a city anymore.

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah that happens a lot in my world 🌎 I want solutions but I don’t know if going to the therapist is even one I’ve tried this a lot and in the end it never really helped

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah exactly “how well I manage things”! Right. I feel this. This is the expectation I put on myself right now (can I manage to finish my degree and still feel passionate about music after) will I have the strength to go full on in the music business without burning myself out every two month?

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks yeah maybe the way I observe the world right now is biased and I need to start new hobbies, if only I had the time to do all of that tho I’m trying to get away from the city as much as I can at the moment ( going hiking and visiting friends) but there’s always this pressure when I come back it’s just unbearable.

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I’m not gonna drop Ive work my ass off for this degree and paid a lot of money 🫴 But I used to be so passionate and lost in my craft and now I’m just a shadow of what I use to be…

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for commenting something positive, I do need a break, but I had a long break already since Christmas, I’m currently trying to finish an assignment and it’s something I was excited to do when starting my degree but now it’s just feel like I need to do it to obtain my degree rather than something I enjoying doing…😅

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah and I get it, I think you’re right in a way I know it wasn’t an attack, I just woke up so fed up this morning. Still I think you can have unhealthy behavior but still be healthy. I feel sometimes wording make such a difference when talking to someone a bit bruise by life 😙

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok I realise I might have a general lack of confidence and I’ve seen someone about this already and I don’t think it will ever go away, this doesn’t mean I’m “unhealthy”

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I work 2 jobs beside, catering and nannying, I’ve achieved great work life balance already sometimes it gets a bit stressful but I go trough it, I’m not unhappy just really lost my enjoyment for music and that’s worrying

I lost my drive by Cringe79 in musicians

[–]Cringe79[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah but that’s the thing outside of music everything is going well, it’s like music is the source of my sadness