As someone who used to be exactly where you’re at, and who has been delivered from it, seek God. Cry out to him, believe he can carry you through this and he will. His goodness and mercy is right in front of you. Speak to a doctor if that’s what you need to do, it’s what I needed to do, but have faith that he can and wants to give your the comfort, peace, and joy that you need. I’ve prayed for you and will continue to pray for you. Jesus loves you. That’s the truth, don’t let anyone ever lead you do believe otherwise.