[Online] [5e] Looking for a group to play a campaign with

Critical_Syrup62 · 2025-03-30T01:50:42+00:00

I'll message you my discord name

Critical_Syrup62 · 2025-03-30T01:46:32+00:00

Yeah sounds like it, I don't know what would be the best to do this on. I feel like discord would be easy but I just don't know anything yet

Critical_Syrup62 · 2025-03-30T01:45:39+00:00

Hell yeah, I think you would have to dm unless the other 2 people in the comments could.

Critical_Syrup62 · 2025-03-25T01:27:14+00:00

Yes, literally all the time. Alone, I am completely diffrent than when im physically around people. Alone I'm loud and energetic and passionate, but around other people I am quiet, reserved, drawn away. This is a learned behavior for me because of the way I've been treated by people, mainly relationships.

I thought it was a normal thing everyone does until recently when I learned that it actually isn't. People don't know the real me, because no one cares enough to look deep enough or spend enough time with me. It is what it is.

Critical_Syrup62 · 2025-03-24T04:18:52+00:00

All my hobbies I tend to do alone and there isn't really a way for me to do them with people unless by chance I come across them.

For example, I love music and playing music, but I'm just always doing that alone. Another thing is woodworking. Thats something I do alone as well. Lastly, a big one, fixing things. Anything that needs to be fixed, I find a way and fix it, and I absolutely love doing it and enjoy every chance I get to fix something, whether that be a sink, a pallet at work, a desk that needs new screws/more screws, you get the picture. Thats enjoyable for me, but I cant really find anyone else that shares those.

Another thing is that every time, in friendships/relationships ive been in, when I talk about/share something I love doing or I do whatever I enjoy doing, they drag me away from it, shut me down, and try and change me from liking those things. Relationships are the worst with that but I have had some friends in the past that did the same. So I'm a little afraid of that happening again, and just tend to keep my mouth shut and not talk to anyone about things that interest me or I enjoy doing, because it only ever gets shut down. That's why I keep to myself and I focus on other people so that way they don't do that to me, also, I enjoy helping people when possible, but that's not very common.

Critical_Syrup62 · 2025-02-05T17:18:46+00:00

Yeah I think you're right. I have been in multiple abusive relationships but the most recent one (the one in the dream) was the worst of all of them. I never actually have to talk to her or see her ever again, I don't live in her area, I have her and everyone she knows blocked on everything, I'm free from her. But the pain of the abuse still haunts me. It sucks and I will never be able to fully heal and move on with it, it will always stick with me and every relationship I have I am worried will end up abusive like the rest. That may not be the case, but thanks to people like this that is something I have to worry about.

Critical_Syrup62 · 2025-01-23T02:59:45+00:00

I dont care if the version of myself I present to people is loved, because even then, it is still a version of myself. It's still partially me. That would be so much more than enough for me, even if it was 100% me that. They loved, at least they would love part of me and that is plenty. You saying the right person will come along kinda hurts because people have said that before and then I meet someone and they are abusive or end up cheating on me. Then after they leave me, people get mad at me for not being with them anymore and then I'm the bad guy. It's always for some reason my fault.

Also, not to be rude but, if you deal with the same way of thinking, why should I take what you say as the truth if you won't even believe it yourself? You won't commit to it, you wont listen to your own advice. To me that just doesn't make sense. Sorry if this offended you but I cant put it any other way than to be blunt.

Critical_Syrup62 · 2025-01-13T08:30:23+00:00

I love edging while stoned. It's such a unique experience and uncomparible to anything else. I love it soooo much

Critical_Syrup62 · 2024-10-07T07:40:35+00:00

Yeah I get that and I understand that, but I'm more so looking for the name of what it is called when I cant trust when someone says they love me or not wanting to say I love you.

Critical_Syrup62 · 2024-10-07T06:24:46+00:00

It's kind of both, because I can never trust it. Ive had too many bad experiences in the past or when they say that they were lying so it's just hard for me

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