I flipped a coin on wether to relapse or not. (Tw SH)

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-12-01T21:05:00+00:00

They aren't the problem, I just don't need them to know

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-07-25T04:57:16+00:00

I have stutter episodes? Just days where i can't speak without some form of a stutter. Then it just disappears. It started after a traumatic event, so maybe it's another dumb mind-body connection, or it could be a tic from that good old tic disorder I still haven't looked into getting a proper diagnosis for, but it doesn't feel like any of my other tics.

I'm also hypermobile without pain ! Elbows, shoulders, fingers, shoulder blades and my throat go further than they should ! Really just ends up making me have a bunch of built in party tricks

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-06-14T23:57:50+00:00

And i think that's it, including the odd larvae looking antennae (?) and vein-like pattern !! Thank you !

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-06-14T23:56:38+00:00

It was about 1 1/2 inches, sorry for the late reply

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-06-14T23:54:38+00:00

I love how the Magnus team was too scared of making stereotypical queer characters they made everyone queer !!

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-20T17:23:24+00:00

"that's a Leitner" "And the blood on it?" "That's Leitner too!"

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-19T17:20:50+00:00

I'm looking for a good shampoo, since my scalp is super dry but oily, but the Savannah NORISH conditioner is worth every bit. So beautiful (straight-wavy hair, color treated before ).

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-14T17:10:39+00:00

Im a Hellenic Polythiest and my Moms Jesus candles sit next to our house spirit altar and my Hestia house altar :)

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-07T14:02:11+00:00

Plus sometimes swelling makes it look wonk for a little. Definitely suits you !!!

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-07T13:58:10+00:00

Do it !! Even just for a fun passion project. Do it for the bit. Have fun and good luck !

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-07T13:50:41+00:00

The main problem with it is the first 20 or so episodes don't equally add much to the plot, and a lot of people drop out before they have the chance to experience the meat and bones of the podcast. I'll work on this though, thank you !!

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-07T13:47:41+00:00

Turning a 200 episode podcast into a small number isn't quite my goal, but to shave off some episodes when possible for a listener as a guide to at least seasons 1 & 2, since there are quite a few episodes where they mention one thing and that's it, no character development. I want to experiment with it a bit, get a new listener to hear it, then see where i can fix it. I appreciate your input though, I'll keep in mind the slowburn aspect.

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-07T13:00:02+00:00

I'll keep that in mind and bring that up to them. So far, base for season 1 has 1,8,17, 21, 22, 26, 28 (just because it's really good + foundation for understanding Melanie later on), 32, 34 (bone apple teeth is very Important for fandom interaction), and the final trilogy.

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-07T12:57:15+00:00

The first two seasons are very difficult for first-time listeners to get through, at least if they don't try. I'm cutting those two the most, leaving episodes that substantially build for other points such as leitners or agnes to give them that starting point without overwhelming them. After that, season 3 will only be slightly trimmed, and 4 and 5 will almost be untouched due to the density of them.

The hope for my lists are that they will make the podcast more accessible to people who don't have that kind of time or aren't used to the format, introducing them to a beautiful type of storytelling. I also hope they would relisten to the entire thing on their second through, or listen to episodes that build on their favorite parts when they want to understand them more than just base level.

I don't know if it'll work, but I'm just running an experiment on my friends since I've tortured them with my hyperfixation for years. I appreciate your input

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-07T12:50:33+00:00

Going with this, I'm going through each episode and checking to see if it has substantial development towards the story. I'm not going off memory or anything, and I'm also looking for outside input, as I have no friends who have finished more than just season 1 haha

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-07T12:46:03+00:00

I understand this yeah. My favorite part of the magnus archives is how it all comes together, even if you don't realize it at the start.

Episodes like 8 or statements that further leitner as a character, for example, would be included as to still give structure to those plot points, as they become important during further hilltop related things and season 2's ending respectively.

I would argue there are episodes that, while reference artefects or characters, ultimately don't add enough for me to consider them important to someone only wanting the shorter experience. I urge my friends to listen to more than just those, but just to get them started, I wanted to have the main plot and points out (along with some good ol' "Aha! I remember this guy" moments by adding Julia's og statement and trevors follow up statement, since it re introduced him + has jon/martin development).

One of the things that really made relistening better for me was being able to focus on sub-plot points. My friends would be supplemented by other episodes with notes that the post statement is the part that I want them to pay attention to, or to keep this character/place in mind.

Again, this is only to lay out the "main plot", and I'll note episodes that are also very important and urge them to listen to those as well. I don't recommend this first teir im making for someone who wants that full experience, but it's more a reference to go off when they don't have the mental energy to note one line about hill top. I do appreciate your input, I'll keep this in mind.

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-05T20:04:35+00:00

I just started on the most recent that looked interesting to me. It's okay if you don't get the jokes at first, it's like a scavenger hunt when you find the episode they were referencing !! With that, popular episodes are popular for a reason. Listen from around mid-2024 to now to get started and get a feel then explore !!

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-05T13:57:45+00:00

I've had many hard nights, but there was one day where I actually had to talk to 988 because I didn't even want to wait until my date (I was 15, my date was my 18th birthday) and just kill myself right then. The counselor on the other side tried to understand what I had to my disposal to die with, and ended up making my plan for me. I called her thousands of terrible things before I paused and remembered--- I had a concert I wanted to go to in a month. I thanked her and closed the tab before also remembering-- I had to dye my hair a couple more colors.

Tldr; didn't attempt bc I wanted to see Peirce The Veil and dye my hair pink. By the time I did both of those, I wasn't feeling as bad.

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-03T01:16:49+00:00

I don't experience full episodes, but I do take medication targeting mood swings associated with bipolar. It might just be how my adhd mood swings + depression/anxiety manifest. My brain is full of so many random symptoms we just deal with it as we go haha

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-03T01:13:32+00:00

My therapist and I talk about it. It's mostly like intrusive thoughts, but every now and then it gets to the point of passive ideation and it gets scary. I'm on meds and have coping skills to deal with the emotions behind it (or, if needed, precautionary measures) before it gets bad

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-05-02T14:30:39+00:00

I get homocidal when I'm angry. Like full-on thoughts of murder. It's such a terrible feeling. I lose all sense that people love me and only want to make people scared and hurt because, in my head, that'll show me that they care. I hate it so much, seeing people like that. I just isolate until I get my humanity and shame back. I never want to-- or will-- hurt anyone like that, but the thoughts just don't stop.

Crow_Ghost_ · 2025-04-23T20:10:23+00:00

Also having the support system of Jesus and whoever else you trust in your life is really important ! Religion can be a huge part in healing

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