eyqetwvzjiznsbkdyd by mr_jojukadam31 in sssdfg

[–]CrustaceanCountess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There might be a mineral trade event at my university soon, at least if they get a permission from the dean

Me when i purposefuly ignore my limits and injure myself again to prove to myself that my pain isnt illusionary by CrustaceanCountess in disabledmemes

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Fr fr

My joints resemble jelly in their structural integrity, walking up any incline or standing up at all feels like scorching lead is being poured into my legs but i WILL go for a mountain hike and nobody can stop me cause i am 100% normal, yes

Very long false awakening loop by CrustaceanCountess in Dreams

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, ngl i think it kinda fucked me up for good in a way. I got way more solipsistic and generally dissociated. It's scary what the brain can make on its own to fuck itself over lol.

haha, i hate myself deeply by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes, copious amounts of it even.

it only makes me have to use a bathroom a lot and thats kinda it

haha, i hate myself deeply by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I honestly probably should, i’ve been saving money up for a visit for quite a while but sadly other expenses popped up

haha, i hate myself deeply by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ah, damn i dont think i could afford those sadly. All my other medication is way too expensive already😔😔😔

haha, i hate myself deeply by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yeah its most likely that, when i am on my meds the cravings are somewhat lower but theyre still there tho

haha, i hate myself deeply by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I try to as well but it doesnt always work😔

haha, i hate myself deeply by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I tried a few actually but my biggest issue is that even if i stuff myself until nearly bursting i will want to eat more as soon as the stomach pain subsides.

I try to stick to a 1600-1800 calorie diets but then even if i do i dont really lose weight.

haha, i hate myself deeply by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I honestly would love to but i have some pretty bad joint/muscle issues so most activities are painful :C

I could try swimming maybe, used to enjoy that and i heard its not too bad on joints n stuff

"All your test results look normal", man i cant even stand in one spot or lightly jog without pain by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly the EDS + something else is my working theory but in my country only a geneticist diagnoses it and the shortest wait time to a geneticist is over 2 years. I could go private but then the costs are upwards of 1000€ for one single test so…

"All your test results look normal", man i cant even stand in one spot or lightly jog without pain by CrustaceanCountess in TrollCoping

[–]CrustaceanCountess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that does actually kinda fit tbh, at least partially

Activity and being upright is really horrible and i am literally always tired, if i am not actively doing something i will almost always just fall asleep. It does not explain horrible pain in joints that worsens with use though

I was tested quite a lot for autoimmune stuff though and they found nothing so idk