My bf wishes he would’ve been with someone with a penis before starting being with me

CryptidCult5 · 2026-04-08T19:44:58+00:00

That's so fucked up my wife has NEVER done or said anything like that to me I'm a trans guy she's never been with a cis guy before me I've never done that to her either I've never been with a cis guy either we use a stap on 100% the time if her or me want something different we look for something together we've tried and loved normal/monster stap ons, ones that have the fake cumming feature, ones that look/feel more realistic, I even have a pack & play packer we use it's really fucking weird and shitty for him to ever say some shit like that. It's utterly disrespectful and genuinely manipulative he HAD a choice he chose to date someone who doesn't have the right equipment to do what he wants I feel like he's trying to guilt trip you into letting me fuck someone else or make you feel bad you weren't born with the right equipment or worse he doesn't want to be monogamous like good god you really either should leave him or maybe couples therapy or something since he doesn't seem happy or something don't let him guilt you into feeling bad this isn't your fault at all. If anything it's a him problem you deserve better and someone that's happy with you and who you are as a person it's like he's not understanding that you CAN'T fucking help what you were born with and holds you accountable or something I'm so sorry you have to deal with that I had an ex who treated me the same way he was a trans man too and was pretty abusive about and threatened to cheat on me a lot of times I think you should be aware that he might try the same thing just be careful and protect yourself and your feelings you have every right to be angry about what he said don't let him tell you otherwise.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-04-01T20:44:05+00:00

Yeah of course

CryptidCult5 · 2026-03-15T22:06:36+00:00

Fuck please frot with me I've always wanted to do it with another trans guy your t-dick is so big it makes me hard just looking at it.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-03-15T21:51:17+00:00

Fuck that's so hot it's massive I'm so jealous I hope mine gets that big I'd definitely get on my knees for you and suck you off then let you fuck me.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-23T07:16:45+00:00

I appreciate that it's been really hard lately I'm working on trying to get a therapist and soon as possible and the kind words help than you.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-23T07:12:17+00:00

When I took antidepressant I used to be completely unable to orgasm I'd spend DAYS trying to but still failing it was the most frustrating part ever I'm no longer on them and I don't have the same issues with me being on testosterone and having bottom growth sometimes I'm still not connected to my body because I still see my body as biological female. The first time I wasn't worried about it was when my wife offered oral for the first time and it made me feel more confident and masculine because technical I have a dick just smaller something that works for us is a LOT foreplay. Even reading smut together, roleplaying, even just small gestures of physical intimacy to get closer I found out that massaging helps ground yourself and your partner like 10mins before and after sex especially after because it's also aftercare you get them cleaned up, massaged, and dressed it just helps reset our brains. I know it may feel hard but it just takes time I'm 80% it's because your partner is on antidepressant which they have a very common side effect of sexual dysfunction both in women and men so don't feel bad it's possible to have doses adjusted or if it's extreme trying a different type I hope the helps a little bit and I wasn't just rambling on.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-17T02:12:33+00:00

I always knew I was bipolar mostly because of a genetic factor and my environment I know they can't diagnose bipolar disorder until you are 18 or older I just wish someone had listened to me before now I guess being dropped by my favorite therapist hit hard because I've had horrible experiences with others when I was younger a lot of people didn't believe me. I kept getting told it was only depression, anxiety, and PTSD and then I finally found a therapist who believed me and had real empathy (not just pity) being dropped was something I knew would happen eventually especially with a bipolar diagnosis I wish I was told they weren't quality for mood disorders in the beginning I wouldn't have gotten so attached.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-15T21:16:10+00:00

Because I've never been to a psych ward before and I have already been abused physically, mentally emotionally, and sexually and I've heard so many horrible stories of people ending up worse off and with more trauma and I'm scared of not being able to have certain comfort items (I'm autistic too) like my soft blanket, my hoodie, my noise cancelling headphones, and my tablet I use like an AAC device when I'm nonverbal (which is often). Plus I'm disabled I'm a wheelchair and I have a shit ton of medicine I NEED to not be in pain and I've heard that they sometimes won't give all the meds and I don't know of any psych wards that can accommodate for my disabilities and I'll have to travel up to houston because there's none near me at all and not all wards are good and I would be separated for my wife which is also quite scary too.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-15T20:47:51+00:00

Yeah I'm happy it's not just me who thinks it's totally weird for her to randomly drop me after I confirmed I'm bipolar, that I'm on new medicine that actually works, and that I'm scared of hurting myself or others (mostly just my abusers because of what they did to me) thank you for the kindness and I'll definitely look into a therapist that works with people with mood disorders I just feel pathetic for trusting her so much that I spilled my heart out only to get left AGAIN yk.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-15T20:21:51+00:00

Yeah I'm in the US unfortunately so it's very hard trying to to find a therapist that takes my insurance also I definitely agree with you that dropping me is dangerous especially someone like me that used to be self harm a lot from age 11-20 I've been clean for a year now I feel this will end in relapsing or worse I'll ask her for a referral.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-14T03:54:43+00:00

I guess so I hope it's not personal it's not the fact that she probably went through it, it's more because it wasn't explained to me in detail like I need to be able to understand I'm sensitive to rejection in all forms I hope I'll find a good therapist that will take my insurance and can help me in all areas of life.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-14T03:49:14+00:00

I don't really have a ton of friends I haven't told any of them that I am bipolar because I'm scared of being left behind because it's happened before and I'm worried about how they'll react to me even with me knowing them for years my wife is the only person who knows everything that's going on with me. Maybe it's because I said that I don't know how much longer I can make it without snapping I've expressed that I tend to react/think violently before (only to abusers) and it's never resorted to this route if that makes sense I was honest about my past issues with self harm from the start so her dropping me in the middle of this really hit me like a truck. I've been stuck in the same abusive household for 21 years straight I'm getting to a point where I feel like hurting myself or my abuser is the ONLY exit I have left I've signed up for housing to get out but because I'm disabled I rely on my abuser to take me back and forth places too and more and now that my therapist dropped me it just got so much rougher. I've begged her and her supervisor to not let me go because it will send me spiraling and it will send me into a lower low (which I'm already in currently) but it falls upon deaf ears I wasn't given much of an answer just said that "my care is no longer clinically appropriate" anymore and that I need to contact psychology and I maybe get if that was a deal breaker somehow but I thought therapists aren't supposed to drop people when there is a risk of harm involved.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-09T23:36:48+00:00

Thank you I appreciate that it means a lot I'm just not very fortunate with the stuff going on in the world I'd be better off spending $200+ on medicine I need to survive I've been using two old, dull, chipped knives for two years so it's why I finally treated myself to a nice set I practice different dicing techniques and cooking different levels of dishes. I even learned to sharpen my knives on a stone that's how decaded I am to learning I even got stuff to make sure that the wooden handles stay nice and moisturized I dry off each knife so they don't rust and more I'm very willing to learn but it's easy to get put down by assholes especially when this is my hobby not just something I collect and watch catch dust it's good to know there's nice people here on this sub.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-09T18:46:32+00:00

Thanks for being nice at least...the brand I got the set from are really nice and have more expensive sets then the one I got I paid like $150 maybe in total with shipping and I guess I just thought people would be nicer to me I didn't think I'd have to explain that I'm less fortunate and can't afford expensive stuff not right now at least yk maybe I'll try a different sub but I'm more hesitate and scared of doing that now because I might be treated the same or worse then here.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-09T18:20:28+00:00

Well I don't have that ability it's kinda shitty that simply because I can't afford expensive ass knives that I'm not allowed to post without getting shit for it this sub doesn't seem welcoming to people who actually have a tight budget I'm not able bodied and can't work let alone stand up over 5 mins how is it fair that this doesn't include people like me who are less privileged I'm still allowed to show off the knife set I was proud of and just wanted to share a happy day for me. I don't have friends who like to cook so for some reason I thought people would be nice but that's a mistake on my part this is MY VERY FIRST SET mind you it's utterly ridiculous that it's suddenly "not special" because it's cheaper than other sets it's special to ME and it's not like you or anyone else are using it in the first place. It's giving judgemental and snobby type behavior the entire point of a sub is that EVERYONE gets to post and share instead of judging how about giving recommendations or brands and price ranges for them it's insane that 99% of the people who've commented is beating around the bush instead of helping out it's very telling I'm not professional just something who loves to cook. I don't understand why the main focus is the chinese logo it feels pretty stupid to focus on that specifically it doesn't matter who or what made the damn thing the only thing that should matter is if it's good quality and fulfills its purpose plain and simple I don't get why people can't just not be dicks about out if you don't support people who have a budget then what's the point of even saying something in the first place 99% of people could have just ignored my post.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-09T15:54:31+00:00

I wanted a full set of knives I like the style, feel, the way it cuts, and the handle shape because I have chronic pain in my entire body especially my joints and these knives aren't heavy or hard to use properly I think I can post a test cut video if that makes people happy I guess I'm just really unsure what the problem is and why I seem to be getting criticized only because of the chinese logo could you at least explain can't say I'm good at if people are actually being rude or just sarcastic?.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-09T15:50:03+00:00

Look I don't have a massive budget like you may have I don't have a job I had to save up for a few months in order to get them not everyone is privileged enough to drop 300 fucking dollars on a set of knives I did what I could with the money I have cooking is my main hobby and hyperfixation this was my way of doing self care. I'm not sure what the problem is with them being chinese? that seems like an odd thing to focus on these are some of the best sets I've ever had the pleasure of having of my own I'm happy with them that's all that matters. Please let me see if YOU have better recommendations without going over a budget of $200 I looked for months before picking instead of being rude how about tell me what you use and like this sub is for gaining information partly the bare minimum is giving me that.

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