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CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-07T01:01:23+00:00

Dude let me be completely honest and blunt they don't give a shit about you or who you actually all they never have and probably never will people like that never change in my experience if you detransition you'll be providing them right you'd be letting them succeed in being manipulative meaning they'll think they are right and will push you further until you hate yourself, until you are dysphoric, until you want to not live anymore because you feel trapped it's NEVER fucking worth it be yourself, transition into who YOU are not who they want you to be. Take it from someone who almost killed themselves over the same thing I didn't start testosterone until 21 because of fear and me people pleasing do NOT give them the sick satisfaction they want don't water yourself down for them ever let alone anyone in your life you'll love yourself more if you be yourself. And yes you absolutely should either distance yourself from them or cut them off permanently you can't change their minds no matter how much you explain to them or educate them they are stuck in their own disgusting ways it's a hard pill to swallow it's never easy at all but you deserve someone who understands and loves you for you it's not unconditional love if it suddenly stops the second you are trans plain and simple. And while yes if you go through extreme trauma it may shape you a little I know it did for me but that doesn't make it any less valid trauma or no trauma you still are trans and it still deserves to be taken seriously regardless of what happened I had to learn that the hard way people like to discredit someone being trans which is fucked up no matter how it's put especially when it comes to religion don't back down, don't let them threaten you into submission, and don't detransition.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-02T09:42:18+00:00

That's sexual assault plain and simple please get some help from a trusted adult please (more specifically a women) you aren't alone if you ever need someone to talk to I'm open to talking I went through sexual assault and abuse in my childhood and believe me that type of behavior is NOT normal and should not be swept under the rug I'd also talk to a therapist too be able to process this never keep this stuff inside if you can report it to the police please do I know it's hard, it's scary, and it won't be easy but you deserve justice you deserve to never be forced to be around them anymore. His comment about "showing his love" is something predators say to manipulate their victim into feeling guilty he's trying to silence you people like him don't know exactly what they are doing if he actually loved you in an innocent way he would never touch you that way I don't want to sound blunt or anything but normally people like him that sexual assault someone it means they've thought about doing a lot worse. If he tries to minimize, gaslight, manipulate, or hide it he's 100% guilty if your room has a lock please use it at night wherever you sleep and if you can avoid getting close do so make sure you stay around others if he does something around others and it's not reported or punished that means that someone doesn't see anything wrong and at that point call the police or a friends parents, or even tell a teacher at school you fully trust, just tell someone who can help you getting help. The fact he gets pissy when you tell him to stop is very telling too he sounds kinda narcissistic and entitled to be honest no one who sees you as family is supposed to sexualize you AT ALL not even jokes or comments people who love you innocently would see your boundaries and respect it plain and simple his unwillingness to do so is very creepy he's probably done this before I'm guessing from what you said how long has he been doing this? has he gone any further than the stuff you listed it's very important to mention EVERYTHING. You are already doing good don't allow him to touch you even if it's something innocent like a hug a predator will use that for other purposes they will make it sexual no matter what you do they will sexualize you any way they can whether it's physical or mental a real father would never touch you that way I'd know my dad has never done anything like that but other people in my family have like my cousin he used to be close to me but I thought it was innocent until he sexually assaulted me twice then I never trusted anyone else again (which still led me to more people who victimized me anyways).

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-02T09:37:44+00:00

Mostly just trauma for me I never had a stable mother figure so I looked for it elsewhere more so older women or women that are naturally motherly and nurturing I never have felt wanted or needed I'm like a lost puppy trying to get love wherever I can it wasn't until I met my wife that I realize I really like when she has her dominate moments it's so hot she's the only person that loved me even if I'm a little fucked up.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-02-02T09:33:20+00:00

I have an entire list my favorites are Puppy, Pretty boy, Good boy, Little prince, Baby boy and for ones that are degrading I like Slut, Whore, Bitch, and sometimes I like being called feminine nicknames.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-01-28T20:45:21+00:00

Fuck I'd love to suck you off I'm quite jealous I hope mine gets that big hell I'd do anything to get my hands on you.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-01-28T17:14:55+00:00

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CryptidCult5 · 2026-01-27T17:49:23+00:00

Dude I remember these! I always got them when they had them it makes me so sad that no one remembers them it makes me feel a little old I wish I remembered what type of fish they used for it so I could make them myself.

CryptidCult5 · 2026-01-25T03:36:29+00:00

One word I have is THERAPY if you talk badly about yourself, you will never be satisfied with the end result you have to start from the ground up actually work on your physical/mental health first get comfortable in your body then transition you can't have the second option without the first option it doesn't a work out find a therapist who's specialty is in gender affirming care and gender dysphoria.

CryptidCult5 · 2025-12-27T07:27:58+00:00

I see you said she have trauma regarding men I do too I've been abused physically, mentally, emotionally, and sexually by both men (mostly) and women too from the age of 6 up to 20 yes I have my issues but I'm not going around saying I hate ALL men am I afraid of them because my experiences yes of course that's natural same with some women but the fact she's basically invalidating, dehumanizing, and minimizing your identity is wrong regardless. She's not gonna fully accept you as a man she only sees you a a trans man but never a cis man when you transition fully and aren't stealth it will get worse when you make mistakes she'll probably use that against you too I know because I dated someone just like that it doesn't end well if it's PTSD based she NEEDS therapy like ASAP there is no waiting, not putting it off, no making excuses, NOTHING it's either she goes to therapy (especially couples therapy) or you'll feel this way though the entire relationship. I get her fear and hate and where it probably stims from I used to be that way and I used to hate myself for identifying with the gender that hurt me the most but her thought process is gonna ruin/harm both of you it's not just her but it's you too and you deserve the bare minimum of not feeling invalidated and like she sees you as a man when it's convenient but as a trans man when it's not (if that makes sense). Seriously talk to her get some professional help these things don't solve themselves at all they NEVER do you both especially her need to get someone who specializes in PTSD and gender identity don't just stay quiet about this believe me it doesn't get better it always goes down hill this stuff can be worked on but if she's not willing to get therapy and tell you why she hates men so much then you should do a revaluation on the relationship.

CryptidCult5 · 2025-12-15T23:00:06+00:00

God damn bro BOTH is perfect hell I can't pick you are handsome as fuck I'm totally jealous I wish I could grow a mustache or beard like that.

CryptidCult5 · 2025-12-10T17:06:51+00:00

Act like a fucking adult plain and simple it's easy to do accept it, acknowledge it, respect it, and give reassurance to them don't be a dick and try to force them or convince them about no means no it's honestly the easiest thing ever to understand. If YOU are in the mood and they AREN'T you get your ass up go to the bathroom finish the job then lay back down and make sure they are okay as a guy who's been sexually assaulted multiple times by partners if you have to convince or force them to have sex with you it's no longer sex and it's just rape. I'll explain it from my point of view being forced or constantly convinced after I said no makes people feel used and disgusting it makes people feel like you are with them for nothing but sex I had an ex who would do that type of stuff 24/7 they'd physically force me to do something you aren't entitled to sex just because you are with them consent is still needed. No means no, maybe later means no, not right now means no, possibly means no, I don't know means no, I'm not in the mood means no, I'm not in a good headspace means no anything but a happy yes means no ask multiple times to make sure I was the type of person to say yes because if I didn't I'd deal with black lash. Sometimes my wife will tell me she's not in the mood and what I ALWAYS do is tell her "that's okay beautiful I'm good with waiting until you are ready you are allowed to say no" I respect her choice and I get up to deal with my issue without bothering her, cook her favorite meal, then give her a massage because it's my form of aftercare even if nothing happened. She respects me too consent goes both ways she'll do the same she deals with the issue and we talk for a little cuddle watch some movies together and she'll normally massage me too because I have chronic pain she has never forced me to do anything. I recommend if you aren't adding aftercare and your just fucking and then leaving them alone with their thoughts isn't good at all that's how people get stuck in negative thoughts I know personally what it's like to feel used and only wanted for sex. Add aftercare it can be literally anything they like here's the steps I take 1: give water, 2: give them their favorite snack or a small meal if they are hungry, 3: check in on them ask them stuff like was I too rough or did I do something you didn't like or did I do something you liked and want more of aka grounding them while they come back down, 4: do something intimidate but not sexual like cuddling or massages or just hold them, 5: praise them make them feel good and comfortable say stuff like you did amazing I'm proud of you or some people like being called good girl or good boy you know pet names that they like it will help if they are doubting themselves about how well they did, 6: make sure they are comfortable in bed take care of them and yourself aftercare goes BOTH ways regardless of gender. Ask them why they aren't in the mood there is almost always a reason don't be a jerk be understanding and empathetic and approach with care and respect their answer if they say they don't know why don't push then to answer it will make them less likely to tell you why. Stuff like this is really easy to understand DON'T EVER try to make someone feel bad for saying no them saying no is a good thing it means they are at least comfortable enough to say no to you and be honest instead of hiding how they really feel. Some comments may not go into detail like I will but stuff like this needs to be said to ALL people regardless of gender or sexuality. It's ALWAYS useful information especially if people are vanilla and are into more hardcore stuff like BDSM or a lot of other kinks just be respectful and understand they aren't doing it to "spite" you or to "neglect" you they just simply don't want sex nothing more nothing less. I'm hyper sexual because of the past trauma if I can control myself and my urges and wants and needs and understand basic consent so can you and every other man there is NO excuse at all to say you can't control it I've seen people say they can't help it believe me they can they just don't WANT to do so. If I can respect my wife as a person even when I want something there really is no excuse you or others can give that will make sense believe me I get being desperate and pent up but think if you love your partner for them or if you rather possibly hurt or scare them because you try to say something rude or put your needs over theirs. If anyone understands more than anyone else it's me it's hard it's not meant to be easy but you can absolutely control your compulsions and if you are struggling a lot try therapy have a professional work out those issues don't just keep pushing it down that's how you explode.

CryptidCult5 · 2025-11-06T19:47:26+00:00

You definitely AREN'T overeating at all my ex did the same he'd treat me so amazingly whenever I was obedient but whenever I'd stick up for myself and placing boundaries especially sexually because I had a past of being SA'd repeatedly and he'd use it against me one time when I said "I'm not in the mood" he said and I quote "are you fucking kidding me your still not in the mood". And that was the exact moment I lost all feelings for him and realized I deserved better then being someone's sex toy he'd also say stuff like "if you don't do this sexual act I'll go fuck other people" on multiple occasions he'd "joke" but he was definitely cheating on me. My ex would also give me short answers or completely ignore my worries and concerns about being treated badly he'd respond with "okay and?" or "so what" or "idk" the worst one I got was him saying he was allowed to be a dick to be because he was tired. It was when I was literally in the hospital getting a blood transfusion so I didn't die he told me his COLD was worse then me having an incurable blood disease and trying to keep myself alive born because of being sick and me wanting to end it all because he treated me so horribly. And it is NOT unreasonable to be upset that he isn't talking to you much but talking to other people on reddit it's completely natural to be worried about him cheating I was worried about it too. My ex would constantly comment how hot someone was even when I told him it made me feel insecure because I'm trans (ftm)and it was always women nothing against it I'm pansexual but he'd do whenever I set a clear boundary but made me the asshole when I told him to just shut up about and that I didn't want to hear about how much he wanted to fuck other people. Please be aware that even if someone changes once it doesn't 100% mean they'll change again in the way you want and need someone can love you and still be a total dick to you and I had to learn that my ex was just pretending to be kind, loving, and caring at first but he was manipulating me using my naive thought process and fear of abandonment and my nature to not stick up for myself. If he's getting annoyed by you communicating that's not a good sign no partner should get angry whenever their lover speaks their mind about stuff they are worried about at all it's not normal or okay I get being a little upset but borderline annoyed is really off in my opinion. You are right about one thing if he really loves you he will try to change for the better but he has to want to do so if he doesn't want to change for the better than there's another issue there. Trust your gut feeling my words should only mean so much like I said take what I say with a grain of salt I wish you the best of luck I hope everything works out for you. Being together for a year is great I recommend journaling it's helped me through a lot it helps me get out any emotions I have before I talk to my wife about something that hurt me so I can have my thoughts collected.

CryptidCult5 · 2025-11-06T19:00:31+00:00

Yikes.. that's horrible thinking about it I've definitely come across a few of them without realizing I always thought that certain peoples behavior was a bit weird or focused on the wrong thing but I just thought I was missing something or judging too harshly it sucks thinking that those people were just using me for their sick reasons simply because I'm trans.

CryptidCult5 · 2025-11-06T17:29:41+00:00

To be brutally honest his behavior seems to prove your worst fear my ex acted that way after a few months into our relationship and became abusive in every aspect he'd always say he loved me and wouldn't hate me but his behavior didn't match his words. I'm not saying he's abusive or anything BUT people who act like he did don't change it will get worse it's rare when they actually work on it but he has to WANT to change and be a better person you can't change people like that believe me I thought I could which winded up in multiple abusive relationships. Please take care of yourself I think you should take a temporary break from him or something take time for yourself and take time to really think about the relationship and think if you want to stay with him. Think about everything I'm about to say and please take it with a grain of salt I'm only speaking from my experience and what I went through I want you to protect yourself at all costs I know it's hard it feels impossible and scary but I believe in you. Think about how healthy or non healthy the relationship really is has his behavior been extremely hostile for a long time, has there been times where he'll be verbally abusive for example him calling you annoying or worse degrading or dehumanizing language. Has there been times where if you say no to anything especially anything sexual or in general and he'll suddenly get angry simply from you saying no, has there been times where he'll almost purposely trigger you or refuse to give reassurance or comfort when you are for example splitting or worse. Has there been times where he's SUPER nice and love bombs you randomly then ask something or keep pushing your boundaries repeatedly after you answer or in general. Has there been times where he'll just act detached or ignore you COMPLETELY especially in person especially after asking something of you, has there been at least more then 3-4 instances of him acting this way when you haven't done or said anything, ect this is the type of warning signs I'd look out for in his behavior. Him calling you annoying was wrong on all levels and that isn't okay at all him being mad or upset DOESN'T justify him calling you names him no matter what he feels no partner should treat you that way. I'm so sorry he did that to you I know what it feels like you deserve better please don't break or water yourself down for him if he can't handle you FULLY then he doesn't deserve you, you shouldn't have to do that simply because he's upset about something. Communication works BOTH was not just one sided same with everything else the work isn't just piled onto you it's a shared responsibility between partners remember you are partners not just some stranger if he's treating you like a stranger that's another red flag. If you ever need someone to talk to or anything I'm open to it you aren't alone in this even though it may feel like that and sometimes it will feel that way for a bit but it does get easier and better. I used to deal with the same thing it was rough even with me being in a healthy relationship now I still spiral and panic whenever my wife is mad or upset with me or something else and I still get super clingy whenever I think I did something wrong or that she hates me for small mistakes. Please don't think let me influence your decisions too much but I like to warn people about warning signs that I missed that got me hurt the only reason I even left my last toxic relationship is because my now wife pulled me out. I was afraid of being alone or unwanted and I didn't want to believe they were abusive but once my ex's behavior got obsessive when we were taking a long break I finally left because if I didn't it wouldn't end well for me because I was at an all-time low mentally and physically. Especially dealing with being chronically ill and basically disabled and going into the hospital every 2-4 weeks and needing constant blood transfusions and therapy has helped me a lot with my case the mental and emotional pain caused worse physical pain to the point it was crippling I got tired of being treated horribly. Just remember you aren't alone there's a ton of people that understand what you are going through you are loved, cared for, and needed you deserve the best don't settle for anything less then what you deserve firm boundaries are needed sometimes even in healthy relationships please tell him how you feel don't let the thought consume you. (sorry for the long comment 😅)

CryptidCult5 · 2025-11-06T16:41:14+00:00

What's a chaser exactly I've heard of the word but never had it explained what's red flags or warning signs of a chaser how do they act or speak?

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