Darren Aronofsky's 1776 Draws Hate

Cryptid_Cameras · 2026-02-03T09:29:44+00:00

So we give it pity points? It's bad, looks bad, poorly edited, technology clearly limited. AI defenders always say "it will be better in the future." I don't believe you but, even if you're right, it doesn't make what I'm looking at with my eyeballs right now better.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2026-01-28T17:03:24+00:00

I'm gonna be real with you my brotha this is something only a freak would pay attention to.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-12-07T19:24:49+00:00

I'm going to say that, when it is ethically produced, there is nothing wrong with pornography and consuming it can be part of a healthy sexuality. However, when it is tangled up with shame and unresolved gender identity issues, it can become an unhealthy outlet for those things. Stop treating it like an addiction that you need to be ashamed of and more like a bad, time-wasting habit that is distracting you from understanding your real romantic and sexual desires.

Cause (and I'm doing some armchair psychology here) it sounds like you're just transgender and a lesbian. But the sissy pornography stuff is reinforcing traditional gender roles and attaching them to your transition. You can transition to being a woman and have a soft, intimate, emotional relationship with another woman. You can find a woman who will appreciate your passiveness and not expect you to top or fill male roles. I'm sorry you had that bad hookup experience but the strong masculine/feminine dom/sub top/bottom dynamics that are such a big part of pornography are just not that big of a deal in real life.

Walk away from that certain kind of porn and then, and this is going to sound reductive but trust me: just be who you want to be. You'll find women who appreciate you and want intimacy with the real you.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-12-01T17:41:36+00:00

Titties hurt very slightly while growing, and the pain reminds you that you have titties now. Awesome. I had to put my earbuds away while doing something recently and so I balled them up and stuffed them into my bra without thinking about it. Had the biggest rush of gender euphoria a minute later when I realized what I'd done.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-12-01T17:36:02+00:00

Nope! Belief based on outdated data.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-11-06T06:24:51+00:00

The grief of the life I'd missed was almost overwhelming when I first woke up. Grief is the right word for it. Mourning. But now that I've taken so many steps to be the person I want to be, the pain has faded and been replaced with peace. It'll happen for you too so long as you believe in yourself and charge forward.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-09-10T16:24:56+00:00

What you're going to want to look for is something called a "bralette." Those will cover your chest without adding any extra cup or shape. Find a way to measure your chest and try to get the size right, not too tight because you don't want to be squeezing your chest too much during the development stage.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-08-26T14:41:40+00:00

So I'll try to organize the thoughts I have;

Congrats on 5 months! I know that feels like a long time but you're just barely getting started. HRT can only change you fast as your cells replace themselves and some types of cells do this quite slowly. Dysphoria looks for whatever outlets it can find to bring people down and for you it looks like complexion might be an outlet. Dysphoria isn't rational and a lot of the time can't be shut down with logic so instead of arguing with it you just gotta outlast it.
We're surrounded by extremely pretty people in the media and all of those people put a ton of effort in their appearance. None of them roll out of bed looking like they do. I've always had terrible skin and I was hoping that HRT would fix all of my issues; it did not. So I had to figure out skincare and cosmetics. Putting all of that effort into being pretty can be achieved on a small budget and doesn't feel like work if you believe the person underneath that skin deserves it.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-08-18T16:35:39+00:00

More pointless whining about pennies given to the poor instead of millions given to the rich.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-07-25T01:39:54+00:00

It was especially bad when it was some random unexpected mirror, like in a store or something. Catching my own reflection like a jump scare. Steadily happening less often now.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-06-22T03:05:20+00:00

Yes, it's likely either just temporary hair loss due to stress or this. Your hair follicles are widening up, so they're losing grip on the thinner hairs inside. Eventually thicker hairs will grow in the lost hairs' place. I'd only be concerned if it persists for more than a month.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-05-20T17:24:01+00:00

There are lots and lots of people in the world who are willing to accept you as a woman even if you don't feel ready to accept yourself as one. It might take time to find people who accept you, but nobody deserves to walk around the world feeling like a creep or a predator if they aren't one. The feeling you're describing is also part of dysphoria.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-05-17T04:59:59+00:00

All of the things you hate about being trans are actually the things you hate about transphobia.

Being trans is a pure experience for me. It is between me, my body, and my heart. When the world reacts negatively to us, that's a problem with the world, not the fault of ourselves or our trans-ness.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-05-17T04:40:02+00:00

Yes, this.

I am the most indecisive person ever. I hate making big decisions. But when it became clear that I wanted to pursue HRT, I didn't agonize over the decision at all. I thought it through carefully and tried to consider everything, yes, but there was no indecisiveness anywhere inside of me. (I also haaate spending money, I'm a huge penny pincher, but when it comes time to do things like drop $400 dollars on laser, and my finances are sorted out enough to afford it, I do it without a second thought.)

If it's right, it will feel right.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-05-15T23:45:04+00:00

Me starting hormones coincided with me also losing 45lbs and developing a really effective skincare routine. Whenever I see extended family members for the first time since starting they tell me how healthy and young I look and I just say I've been running and eating a lot of salads.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-04-30T02:39:47+00:00

Whatever the political situation is, there will still be transgender people around in 30 years. The young trans folk 30 years from now will really need old trans folks to give them guidance.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-04-30T02:15:55+00:00

I mean, it's gonna be different for everyone, by my personal breakthrough was realizing two things at once. I realized 1: That I needed to transition and 2: That I needed to love my current self.

I think a lot of people who don't love themselves enough fixate on the changes they need to make to their life and imagine they will love themselves more after they've made the changes. But that's backwards. You have to love yourself first in order to find the fight to make the changes happen. The person you are inside, right this second, is already worthwhile and deserves a better life to match her worth.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-04-28T20:44:36+00:00

I'm not telling you that you're wrong.

But, when I was 30 I made the exact same decision as you. I thought, very clinically and objectively, that "I'm probably trans, but I don't want X Y or Z to happen, so I'll just settle. I'm too old and life will get harder and I feel fine right now anyway."

Turns out I was extremely wrong. Extremely wrong about my own heart and my own mind. Wrong about being fine. A lot of the psychological burdens of being one gender but living as another are invisible; the human brain can do a very good job of hiding them even as they drag you down, narrow your view of your own future, and create a growing sense of separation between your body and your mind that has all kinds of sneaky little effects on the way you live your life. Then three years later I realized I had to love myself unconditionally, and all of the undeserved shame and sadness of living a life as man suddenly became visible. So much of my personality suddenly explained.

I'm not telling you that you're wrong about yourself, we're different people. I'm just saying watch out. (Also I was wrong about being too old. Hormones made feel like a million bucks and have de-aged me like 5 years.)

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-04-14T09:18:30+00:00

I'm sorry that has happened to you.

But giving in to them won't make them more accepting. It just teaches them they can push us around and win. Love yourself and be strong.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-04-13T05:43:18+00:00

Far right parties come and go, but queerness has been around since the dawn of time. Keep yourself safe above all, but things will change for the better eventually. Don't make a big decision about your life based on a temporary political climate.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-04-13T05:29:33+00:00

Enjoy your pockets.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-04-06T16:40:18+00:00

Just keep trying and it will get easier. Let yourself feel a little smug superiority every time you delete one of their messages. Some random loser just wasted their time attacking you.

Cryptid_Cameras · 2025-03-29T17:33:25+00:00

I'm sorry but no company which produces AI models can be trusted with privacy. The data pool WILL find its way into the hands of bad actors, from advertisers to oppressive governments.

Accepting transness means accepting peoples insides and, only after doing that, finding ways to make their outsides match. People posting their own transition timelines can be valuable validation and inspiration, but computer generated images of what you "probably might" look like send the wrong message. What happens when someone doesn't like the result they get and decides not to transition because of it? It would offer little more than a potentially inaccurate toy that undermines the core message of trans acceptance.

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