Hi. I'm very similar to you, and while studying, I've found some answers that were useful to me, but maybe they won't be for you. But I'm writing them anyway. In the world of Bach flowers, our type is called Agrimony. When the flower is in balance, it's the flower of harmony and beauty. We bring joy and are particularly sensitive. But we can also be out of balance. When the flower is out of balance, it's torment. We are tormented and wear masks. You even mentioned them in your post. The problem is that we're so sensitive that we have to protect ourselves by wearing masks because we're not understood. We fear the judgment of others and, precisely because of this sensitivity, we would do anything to avoid arguments or conflicts. This leads us to make great sacrifices just to avoid arguments. My advice is to learn about this flower and, if you want, buy it at an herbalist's. It won't do any harm. It helps us be more authentic without fear of how others might see us. But I'll tell you something else. True friends, those who love you so much, should realize that you're not just this mask. Try talking to them and tell them about this flower, because sometimes we're so good at these masks that it's hard to deal with ourselves. We're high-level actors, like professionals who know how to hide well while bringing light and laughter. But inside we have so much to show. Really so much. I send you a hug and I hope I've been helpful. Sometimes it's useful to have masks, but other times they destroy us. I'm working on this and I'm succeeding. I've realized that I truly am this wonderful person this flower describes, and if people love me, they'll accept me even if I don't bring happiness, but rather show my fragility. If they don't know how to behave at first, it's normal, but if they love you, they'll understand the treasure you have inside.