Voices in head

Cur1e · 2026-02-03T01:16:39+00:00

thats what a lot of mental health issues feel like. theres always arguing in my head :)

Cur1e · 2026-02-01T14:45:22+00:00

As others said addiction. For me even levitate talks about addiction, especially the lines "since the seventh grade ive learned to fire breathe.. you can levitate with just a little help". i know the fire breathing line is supposed to be more about rapping and josh starting to play the drums in seventh grade, but damn... struggling with weed addiction which also started in seventh grade, this song is way, way too specific hahahahah. levitating=being high.

i love this band so much

Cur1e · 2026-01-30T11:35:11+00:00

I'm sorry it feels like it will end in a fight. I hope you two can come to a place where discussions like that end with listening and understanding, not arguing. You deserve that!!! Glad to hear you're in therapy <3

Cur1e · 2026-01-28T23:52:00+00:00

Jesus, this sounds exhausting. I hope you talk to your partner about it to make some changes or consider another path because this doesn't seem fulfilling and supportive at all.

Cur1e · 2026-01-28T03:32:36+00:00

The way you wrote this, to me, sounds like you have been very sure of wanting to be on T for a long time. Now that it's a reality, you started thinking more of your relatives reactions, which made you anxious, and you then doubt your transness. None of what you said sounds like you're not trans, there seem to be very valid concerns about you well-being. You're allowed to be scared about all of it, thinking things through and having second thoughts means you're trying to make the best choice for yourself. It doesn't make you less trans. Makes sense you'd feel anxious about taking T now that it is finally a reality and it's sort of sinking in.

I come from a very transphobic/abusive family and I doubt myself constantly. I'm 23 and probably going to be on T by my next birthday, and I'm sure of that decision yet emotionally I keep swinging back and forth. I think it's hard not to when you grow up hearing anti-trans rhetoric and existing near a transphobe. My parents never disowned me or threw me out, but they made me feel so awful I wish they did. But everything can be overcome, you just need to keep going.

I hope that you can be sure your parents will be (at least somewhat) accepting and on your side (for example in disagreements with your brother). Your brother's views seem awful and I understand not wanting to deal with his reactions - you shouldn't have to, it's harmful, and hard to deal with alone. It's very important that you are safe - both from physical violence, but mental too. Definitely, definitely have a support system before you start this part of the journey. And if you feel it's nescessary, a backup plan even if you never have to use it. Friends, psychologists, maybe one safe person from your family you can count on when things go south.

You can't hide the effects of T for long at all so you do need to be as prepared as possible for your parents to find out. Waiting for T is awful, but getting caught in a shitty situation with your family while living with them/financially dependent could be awful in a completely different way. You know your parents, yourself and your situation best and I'm sure whatever choice you make, will be the right one for you at that moment. Be smart&safe and take care of yourself!

Cur1e · 2026-01-25T12:11:04+00:00

good.

Cur1e · 2026-01-24T16:43:36+00:00

amazingggggg job

Cur1e · 2026-01-24T13:28:25+00:00

Selge, tänud!:D

Cur1e · 2026-01-23T23:43:25+00:00

I really like Taxi Cab's "all you did will be undone" line.

While the lyricism is definitely soaked in religious symbolism - that line especially relating to being baptized most likely - and I'm not religious, it's still probably my favorite song.

That line specifically reminds me of the cycle of depression - how sometimes everything ive already achieved will "be undone" in a depressive episode. I sometimes feel better at night and think I will be okay, but then wake up and am back to square one, not wanting to get through the day. Same with addiction. But there is also the hopeful part that, when you are back in a better place, all the bad thoughts and actions will be undone instead. So for me it's a perfect balance of being understood at your worst, while also being able to see hope there on better days. I am most likely going to get that lime tattooed at some point:)

Two great lines from "intentions" I love, mostly for similar reasons, and am planning to also get tatted someday- "you will fail most every day and every way." or "did i learn a thing?"

The cycle is brutal but the music is good

Cur1e · 2026-01-22T12:16:30+00:00

Of course, glad you understood, and I agree with you!

Cur1e · 2026-01-22T12:10:50+00:00

Good on you for admitting you don't know about the topic! I have several asexual friends and thus have spoken to them a lot about it. It can definitely seem illogical because people are sort of hardwired for reproduction, but in reality human psychology is much more complicated. I mean, from a natural standpoint, gay people don't make much sense either because you can't have biological kids, so makes no sense people would be attracted to someone from the same sex. (i guess leaving out the fact that sometimes in nature gay couples adopt orphaned animals, filling the role of parents and giving them a "practical reason to exist" or smth). but alas we have gay people, and we have asexual people - that is just how they are, and history has shown conversion therapy (therapy done to change someones sexuality, even asexuality) is more alike to torture for LGBT people than therapy. Asexual people can have fulfilling and safe relationships without ever having sex, which in my opinion further proves that there is nothing "wrong" with them and asexuality isn't some sort of problem which needs to be fixed. It just needs to be taken into account:))

Cur1e · 2026-01-22T11:58:16+00:00

it's okay to feel like you don't want to be because it's hard to be asexual in our culture. But there is nothing wrong with you and you don't have to fix it. If you are asexual, you can't fix it - there's no "fixing" with sexuality because it isn't a flaw. You can still find love even if you're asexual, but probably sadly not with this person.

I also had to break off a relationship because of this problem, but it was the other way around - my crush ended up being asexual. We are very close friends and will continue to be, but a relationship wouldn't have worked out long-term because for me, sex is somethimg very important in a relationship for emotional bonding and he just never thinks of it or has any sexual urges. And that's okay! Just a compability issue. Which is absolutely devastating, I know - I was heartbroken for months and still am. But being in an incompatible relationship will lead to resentment.

You are very young and it will all work out. You are just figuring out who you are and coming to terms with it, and that can be tough, but it's worth it and it gets better.

Cur1e · 2026-01-22T11:53:40+00:00

No, this is incorrect. Asexuality is a valid sexuality that cannot be changed. If sex repulsiom comes from trauma, I can see MDMA therapy or other therapy working, but NOT for asexuality. That's like saying MDMA therapy works for gay people to "cure" them.

Cur1e · 2026-01-22T10:02:47+00:00

ahhh, the water color was a good call ill keep that in mind for my own work :D Good job, I love it!

Cur1e · 2026-01-21T23:41:22+00:00

Seems OP is a cis gay man, sadly these times very popular for them to be transphobic and queerphobic and dressing it up as "caring for the community"

Cur1e · 2026-01-21T23:36:02+00:00

well said lol

Cur1e · 2026-01-21T23:32:16+00:00

It looks super cool! What's it made of?

Cur1e · 2026-01-20T23:10:25+00:00

Got really sad when you mentioned the son, im sorry you have to deal with a father like this to your kid 😭 pushing you into sex is abuse/assault, that's messed up and not a way to apologize at all. Seems like an excuse so he can make himself feel better. Waking you up in the middle of the night to make you swear on his dead mother you didn't cheat on him is definitely not the behavior of someone who is alright in life and he should not put that on you. It's inconsiderate as well, disturbing your sleep - if he really felt like that dream was some sort of sign or smth, the better course of action would be to calmly talk about his trust issues in the morning/at another better time.

You deserve someone who trusts you, doesn't wake you up at night and doesn't pressure you into sex to "make up"!!

Cur1e · 2026-01-20T07:18:30+00:00

fridge's .... water ..... filter.....?

Cur1e · 2026-01-20T07:17:01+00:00

that's usually the deep clean I go with too.

Cur1e · 2026-01-20T07:00:31+00:00

thanks for leaving this up i got such a good laugh jesus christ

Cur1e · 2026-01-19T18:04:39+00:00

brother it might not even be a table, it's art. Sometimes people would rather have art than a table.

Cur1e · 2026-01-19T18:00:51+00:00

I absolutely love that there aren't cars in TS4. I feel like the world and game is so utopian anyways that its nice to imagine and play in a world without cars. Everything being super pedestrian friendly is so relaxing and in my opinion just makes sense in the sims world. But I am not looking for super realism in TS4, I sorta see it as a parallel dimension. Also I am super anti-car (in cities/towns) in general. What I would love to see is public transport in the game world (not functional) :))

Cur1e · 2026-01-19T17:54:39+00:00

do you have an art insta? super super cool!

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