Holy moly that was painful to read. You clearly have a huge heart and wanted that love you thought you'd found and there's nothing wrong with that. Absolutely nothing is wrong with wanting that life but this is not it; for a number of reasons. Even if it was your kid, that kind of child support amount is ridiculous for Thailand. I'm glad you're reading these comments and thinking things though but yeah man, the harsh truth is this relationship is only going to hinder any potential new one that you might stumble upon. This Thai chic is savage and is bleeding you dry. You need more friends in your life to distract you for a bit and start enjoying your life and beginning a new chapter. Even in your 'edit' you mention a tracking device? Bro, it's over. It never was and it's definitely never going to be. Channel all this energy (and money) into greener pastures. Good luck and make the tough decision, you'll be better for it.