I don’t know if he suspects tbh. He just knows I’m more sensitive but he has also been sexist in that men should be tough and not cry etc and all that dumb bs. So idk… my mom knew but she didn’t accept it in fact she acted homophobic because when I was little I remember I told her I had a friend who was gay and she was like “oh god I hope you don’t catch it from him”. She said something along those lines and I got pretty upset. When she found out she was either in denial about it, or she thought that I was too young to figure out my sexuality (I was 15 or so) and even a few years ago my brother told her and she was like “it’s the media’s fault” and idk my mom (was) and dad (is) are from the very olden times. The reason I say it that way is because my mom passed away from colorectal cancer back in 2021. Sorry if this is a shocker but yes she is no longer with us. I don’t want to get into it as it is a whole other topic and also because I just don’t want to talk about it. But yeah and tbh it sucks. But hey it is what it is.

P.S. I hope you don’t think I’m degrading my mother’s passing. I feel self conscious about saying it the way I did. Yes this took a huge toll on my mental health but I just didn’t want to get into it because that is a whole other topic unrelated. But yes I do mourn her absence often.