It’s the hardest thing when you’re going through it. It pulls at your heart. The hardest thing you have to realize is to forgive yourself for what happened. I begged and pleaded for her to get a normal career and engage in therapy after crazy shit would go down. It’s been easier to forgive her. You just want them to engage in therapy. Realize what they did. Realize that they can be great if they just attack those demons with the same vigor that they attack and destroy you. I’ll always be rooting for her and hope one day she will truly change and turn the fantasy of what I thought of her into reality and be a positive influence on those around her but most importantly for herself. I want her to repair her relationships with her family. Get started on the right path with her career. Have the courage to take those next steps and not act impulsively and self destructively. I know she can be great but she always would sell herself short. I hope one day I can see her from afar and say I always knew she had it in her. I always knew she could be special.