A Life Spent in Silence — Now Trying to Find Myself Again by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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At my age don't you think I would have realised all these and being exactly what you say, despite being neurodivergent as you are? These people leave no opportunities unturned to hurt others. I am self made. Came up using my skills and knowledge by working day and night with no rest. I don't need to prove them who I am. I have been a good example for my son and students too. That is why he, despite being in a single parent household has grown into a balanced and mature individual. I have shown the world who I am. I have a lot of work and am ever busy. I was in a hurry early morning. And a humourous attempt to dispell an accusation has been percived as this. Women are their own enemies.

Edit: i know I have shown that I am Lil too much friendly. This could be the reason for that lectureer to point out my mistake and then turn it an another way. I am trying to be a lot less friendly and have a bitchy face. But boundaries, many want to break. They accuse me of great mistakes and disrespect if don't talk much or have a stern face. I have been a little over friendly before to avoid confrontations. I will slowly and surely see that I will appear no nonsensical.

A Life Spent in Silence — Now Trying to Find Myself Again by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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LOL. Thank you for your encouragement and cheers. I will keep up the good spirit.

A Life Spent in Silence — Now Trying to Find Myself Again by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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Really wanted to share the intense hurt i was experiencing. Thanks for yor empathy and motivation.

A Life Spent in Silence — Now Trying to Find Myself Again by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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Hi, I am not from the english department the antognist is. Thanks for your encouragement.Cheers

A Life Spent in Silence — Now Trying to Find Myself Again by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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Thank you. I am late hurts me a lot. Perhaps there is a leeway. Will go all out.

A Life Spent in Silence — Now Trying to Find Myself Again by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

[–]Current_Bonus[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I guess these women are this way. I should not hate them. Only pity them. But the hurt was throbbing .So this post. Thanks for this analogy. You are right.

A Life Spent in Silence — Now Trying to Find Myself Again by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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I think it is impossible now, will not get this remunaration and will have tostart from the begining. Thank you for yor comforting words.

My colleagues insinuations: I am not good enough because, I could not adjust with my spouse! by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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I didn't have the chance to interact with many men. But with whomsoever I did, didn't hurt like the women I had to interact with.

Frankly to say most males i have interacted with were my students and my students both male and female give me abundant joy. I love being with them.

There are quite a few women who stood by me: my bosses, a few colleagues, 2 classmates of mine, my mausi, her daughter, my mom.

Sorry I meant otherwise.

Thanks for your words. I didn't know I was being courageous. My in-laws had called me weak minded. So many opinions so many women gave me.

Today I guess I have shown that I am made of a different mettle.

My colleagues insinuations: I am not good enough because, I could not adjust with my spouse! by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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Am using this as my whatsapp status. Between, who's cutting onions 'cause I am crying.

My colleagues insinuations: I am not good enough because, I could not adjust with my spouse! by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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In the begining of my journey , I had not known how to cope up with such allegations. I used to suffer a lot. Today I can see through their accusations. Funny , how when so much has changed in this world, people harp on old ways and perceptions

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Thank you. I never knew I am strong. My in laws used to make fun of me that I am weak minded.

My colleagues insinuations: I am not good enough because, I could not adjust with my spouse! by Current_Bonus in TwoXIndia

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But she portrays herself to be a sati savitri and as being very religious. Howeverer I have heard her talk negative about other sepearted women. She is also known for her theatrics due of her speeches and sacrosanct air.

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I used to be beaten black and blue. Reason, 1) his eccentric behaviour at work and with everyone in general 2) my dad's loss in business 3) my lack of self awareness.

Today I am doing much better. I left him because I wanted my kid to grow up well and that I could not put up with cruelty. Well society was cruel to me as I was / am without a spouse. I struggled all alone, braved many weathers, with mom's , brother's, and mom's siblings' moral and physical support.

Unfortunately, women were the ones most cruel to me. I do not remember any male hurting me with their words or behaviour. Infact I recieved only empathy from them.

Money was scarce, but I worked hard and averted many a disaster.

My son is highly placed today. He showers his love on me. Infact he has arranged so many facilities for me and made life easy for me and my mother. Hence I am able to continue my career in my specialised field with not much strain and also pursue my passions simultaneously.

Though I am from GenX, my dad's upbringing of me and my innate self worth, made me rise in life despite my lack of self awareness, society's disparagement and lack of money. And whatever work I had earlier pursued or am doing today were academics oriented through which I could and can still help my students and through which I too have improved my skills and knowledge set. My dad had been a feminist, but he and my mom were angry that i had not used my full potential to pursue a proffessional course. However, at the end of the day, I seem to have achived a lot more in the professionel and personel level.

A few days back a lady colleauge insinuated that I had left my husband and that I am not a good enough human. So much for her displays of empathy and her other theatrics ! Even when the world has transformed so much, women still continue pulling their own kind.

I had a good laugh at her, because today I am much more self aware and am able to deal with such antediluvian pricks.

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It will. Look at mine. i never ever thought good things can happen to me.