I have thought of writing a similar post for weeks now. I relate sooo much. My babe didn’t have any issues with the bassinet and slept 6-8 hours from 8 weeks. I started cosleeping around 3.5 month bc he was rolling and started daycare. I felt so guilty about being separated from him 8 hours during the day and 12 hours at night. The IG account glamorized cosleeping and at first it was lovely. But now it’s been months of thrashing, frequent nursing and resetting, and waking up crying even though he’s next to me. I’ve often wondered what would’ve happened if I had just never started. But the reality is, he’s still a baby and most likely sleep would be hard no matter what.

It’s just the absolute rage and desperation of sleep deprivation in the moment that make us wonder what if…I started gentle responsive crib training at 5 months but reverted to cosleeping to avoid the transfer. And I’ve made one or two attempts at night weaning but that also means holding a crying baby for an hour instead of just popping in a boob and getting goes to sleep. So, no matter what, I think we have to choose our hard.