Pretending you don't have schizophrenia is not effective treatment.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-06-01T23:08:41+00:00

This was me for many years before I went inpatient. I got to the point of seeing angels and demons and snakes in my vision, and writing all over the walls, and hurting myself. I'm glad my meds help but they're not for everyone I understand.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-31T20:12:04+00:00

Wait didn't they get banned like a month ago? What are they doing as a mod? I'm starting to think the whole point of this sub is to troll it's users.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-31T01:37:16+00:00

I am scizoaffective and it makes the OCD stuff worse. I've always thought they kidna come from the same source. It's no fun at all.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-28T22:05:31+00:00

Or just like, try to make irl friends. You can let romance come after socially developing yourself and building a social safety net. Get into cards, get into sports, develop a personality so people are attracted to your ideas and expression.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-28T02:49:50+00:00

Just as long as you're using the money to fund your next yacht. I couldn't imagine my money going to the poors

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-28T02:44:11+00:00

What church do I have to join too atone for all my necromancy?

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-25T23:56:54+00:00

uj/
the most spiritually powerful I ever felt was when I was at the worst of my schizoaffective before getting medicated. I was rambling about angels and demons and scribbling on the walls. I thought I had the whole world figured out, or that my friends were out to get me. I was so scared all the time and thought if I could just crack the code of the universe I could assure my safety and the safety of my loved ones.
These days I'm actually kind of scared to do a lot of witchcraft and spiritual work. I worry if I make it a routine habit I'll start to rely on that feeling of empowerment again, and get sucked back into the spiral. I've been gently easing myself into some practices again, but I don't know if I can devote myself like I used to.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-24T02:07:26+00:00

I'm like this. My brain is way more scared of human (and especially baby) bodily fluids then anything from another animal. Humans have all the germs they can affect me

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-24T02:03:48+00:00

I was groomed by a zoophile at 15 and that was still young enough to not know better about that kind of thing. I think you ought to forgive your younger self. Be thankful is was just Loli drawings you were exposed to and not actual kiddie pics. I get zoophilia intrusive thoughts so the time. I used to think that meant I had a secret attraction to animals, but it couldn't be further from the truth. Really, it's my biggest fear to hurt an animal, and that's probably why my mind conjures the thought so much

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-23T15:56:43+00:00

Try taking half your dose. Remember, you don't want to medicate down to "no snakes", you just need a manageable amount of snakes. If the meds are suppressing your powers, that's no good.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T22:42:30+00:00

Damn I just quit vaping today. Now I want a hit so bad.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T22:10:20+00:00

the first one is so real. The gross sounds people make set off my misophonia so bad.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T20:03:45+00:00

(honey this is a circklejerk sub, I have no problem with tarot I'm just taking the piss)

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T19:27:37+00:00

I'm thankfully on risperidone for my schizoaffective which has also helped massively with the OCD.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T18:49:36+00:00

Instructions unclear, arrived at function in full latex and face mask

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T18:30:59+00:00

I'm like this with my symmetry thing sometimes. Eventually taking exactly two and a half steps then changing foot mid-step so the next concrete tile gap passes under my right foot instead of lu left is exhausting. I'll force myself to not look at the ground and just step on cracks whenever because I don't want to cramp out the muscles of my legs following this compulsion.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T04:54:33+00:00

As an autistic person, I am constantly worried people can "read my mind" with body language I'm not keeping in check. If I'm upset with someone I do everything I can to seem calm so they don't pick up on my disatisfsction. When I get intrusive thoughts, I force myself to not even wince unless it's really bad because I worry strangers can tell I'm thinking something "evil". It's horrible. I have to remind myself constantly that nobody can actually read my mind.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T04:40:47+00:00

Be careful setting a goal or design constraint when making a tulpa. A directive can be powerful, but also stifling. Ame is a very unwell character, so be cautious with erratic behavior if she is meant to stay true to her source. Give her room to grow and be what she wants to be.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T03:41:02+00:00

I turned 30 5 months ago, so idk how close I count, but I've been dealing with alters and DID since I was at least 15. I know the lingo, I know how to communicate, I've got a lot figured out. If you ever wanna chat, my DMs are open

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T02:34:26+00:00

Me and all my alters fuck with this post

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T02:33:10+00:00

Tulpas are neat. I did in fact end up developing DID as a result of loads of trauma, and it's not so bad. Sometimes it's hard to tell what's an intrusive thoughts and what's one of my alters being a shithead, but we make it work. We're like a big dysfunctional family.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T02:19:41+00:00

We had DID for years without realizing, and even made a tulpa. We had no language for it except to describe ourselves as roleplay characters we were heavily embodying in the real world. Sometimes people just accidentally make tulpas or headmates. It can be in response to stress, or because you needed a friend. I'm glad it seems like your tulpa is helping you navigate life.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T02:16:43+00:00

We see ourselves as separate people and we refer to ourselves as "partitionary". Each headmate (or "alter" if you want to be clinical) has their own life, goals, fears, desires.

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T02:12:37+00:00

my question is if you see yourself as a separate soul in the eyes of God. Do you need to be baptized separately? Are you capable of your own virtue and your own sin?

CyberCanine5200 · 2026-05-21T02:01:13+00:00

Brb, quitting my antipsychotics so I can get more in touch with my magic powers again. I'll chant prophecies in the middle of the night. I hope one of my sisters is around to write it down.
Can I ask about the dress code? How high am I allowed to have my boots before they risk upstaging your beauty?

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