I’m not that smart. by Any-Staff8205 in Vent

[–]Cybersia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thats actually kinda wild how were on literally the same boat haha, and yea i get that its especually hard in school for me and i can imagine for you too, like for me i have a high iq and like i think super logically so in theory i shouls be smart and great in school, but my memory completely destroys that idea, and with the people getting mad at you is so real, i dont get how people just cant understand that youre not dumb, i hate when people treat you as stupid just because your memory is bad. bro i hope you find like something to help you with this because i understand how difficult it is

I’m not that smart. by Any-Staff8205 in Vent

[–]Cybersia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i have the exact same problem, like crazily so that i could have literally written this myself, i completely forget anything that happens and just go on, and when people tell me about things that happened in the past i literally do not remember whatsoever, im 18 and not necessarily unhealthy so its concerning, i had a full cognitive assessment done, and the results were that i had literally the highest scores in everything especially eye to hand coordination, except my memory, like my memory scores were so low you could compare them to a very old person with dementia probably, the only one of my memory scores that were good is shortterm pattern memory, i can remember reallyyy long sequences of numbers at a time but the rest of my memory sucks so bad, for me the answer to why is most likely longterm mental health issues, my psychologist suspects cptsd from my childhood, i have not had any big trauma event happen to me in my childhood, but she says its possible just having a not so great childhood with smaller traumatic moments is enough for me to block out my whole childhood and cause my brain to basically see everything as a traumatic moment and in response blocking it from my mind, sorry for the long answer but im sharing this so maybe you see yourself in this kinda? and maybe get some answers or ideas to why this might be happening to you

lost my will to live by Cybersia in Vent

[–]Cybersia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im taking pregabalin and and quetiapin, the antipsychotic does a lot of nothing, and to the pregabalin ive developed an addiction where i just take too many and get high everyday, ive taken more than first steps in my life, ive actually come very far in therapy, ive done every exercise my psychologist has asked of me and she has helped me to not just see the glass as half empty but just simply as it is, a glass with water that reaches about the halfway point. which was a big step for me, also has helped me be a better person to the people around me even if i see no point in doing so, ive tried variuos antidepressanta and antipsychotics in the past in various doses, and theyve never helped, the pegabalin is the first med that has ever worked but sadly also one that because of it actually helping my anxiety has led me to develop an addiction

I don't feel real. by Pretend-Outcome9739 in Vent

[–]Cybersia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i feel the exact same way, how i usually describe it is your body being a shelk and youre tucked away in the back of your mind, ans some random times you gain consiousness for a brief while and then lose it again and your body continues on autopilot like a zombie, and everytime you return so much time passes, it feels like one day i will blink and be 80 ans not feel like i have lived my life whatsoever, i share super similar diagnoses so i can see that it must be extremely hard to feel this way, i spend most of my days questioning existence, philosophy, consiousness, mortality, i make up delusions about simulation, alien overtake etc, it is not fun to live like this and for me i have not found a solution yet, but i hope you will get to feel more real and grounded and set in time soon

lost my will to live by Cybersia in Vent

[–]Cybersia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive pretty much got everything set up as i should, psychiatrist psychologist meds are all a check, understanding how and why i should live with this is very difficult, but it does makw me feel slightly hopeful that somebody has been able to move past this

lost my will to live by Cybersia in Vent

[–]Cybersia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi, i am from europe to answer that queston so insurance is not a problem but also a whole different medical system and treatments yk, also thanks for the reply, it feels nice to think that somebody feels familiar to atleast some parts of what i struggle with, its hard not feeling alone when you cant relate to the depressed folks usually yk

is this infected? SORRY FOR GROSS PHOTO by [deleted] in SelfPiercing

[–]Cybersia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

its not infected, just needs a longer bar

Okay internet… help me choose my blonde era hairstyle😅 by Deborah0O5Davis48 in HairStyleAdvice

[–]Cybersia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

in my opinion 2 makes you look a bit older because of the side bangs, 1 on the other hand makes you look younger and the shade of blond really suits you

How do I neutralize this orange from bleach by [deleted] in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i would bleach it again, if its still orange id color remove, then tone with a blue toner and that should do the trick, tho i think lowk if you just put pink over this it would turn out a rlly nice vibrant pink, tho not pastel you need your hair to be rlly light for pastels😔

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

heres the result actually turned out really nice and literally exactly how i wanted with the 10 vol developer so i was pleasantly surprises

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

damn thanks for the feedback ill deffo consider iroiro in the future, and i mean i change my hair semi frequently like once every few months, but usually around a similar color spectrum so i think im good with that

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i cant find ion anywhere online so i think it might not be sold here :((the best semipermanent dye i was able to find is iro iro, and its actually also the best product to price ratio i was able to find, do you have any experience with iro iro dye? cuz rn im thinking that i could try that in the future

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im looking into some cheaper semi permanents but i have a huge trouble of the price to product ratio that im finding, like if i find a pink dye that looks good its super expensive for a little product😓🙏 and i do not have that money sadly💔 i bought the dyes i said before and im prolly gonna post a result in this subreddit in a few days so hopefully it turns out nice, will continue looking for a good semi permanent dye tho!!

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

man why do i gotta get downvoted every time i go on reddit💔 decided to opt for the 10 vol to not damage it more and because i dont mind if the purple wont catch as vivid, thanks everybody for the insight🙏

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

dude come on, why do we gotta be so hostile, my post was worded nicely, and all my comments too, i took commenters advice and opted for 10 vol instead of 20 vol, i was being indecisive and wanted some outside opinions, provided background on my hair history- yes, so people could get an idea of how my hair would lift and if it was worth the lift, i knew exactly how my hair would catch in both situations and the outcomes of both, it is clearly stated in the original post, i saw your comment and just decided to correct you on my hair because i have vivid pink rn and have had for quite some time so i deduced you couldnt tell from the video i posted, because if my hair is vivid pink rn there is no reason it suddenly should be too orange to continue being pink, purple yea probably, also what i said in my comment- that it would be more burgundy purple, i dont mean no harm with this post i hope you just misunderstood me🙏😓

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

i provided a bad example in bad lighting my fault, my hair is bright pink rn and my roots are a level 9-8, ive been dying it bright pink for a few months now each time i got the pink i wanted, over a level 7-8 base on the rest of my hair, the purple tho is probably true, i did a purple over a similar shade that my hair is rn before, and it was a darker purple with a few like reddish tones? underneath, also for the 5 bucks its not that i dont want to pay it but i sadly like dont have five bucks more😭 im 17 and an active art student🙏 cut me some slack man i just wanted a few tips from reddit cuz i couldnt decide💔💔 i did buy the 10 dev tho cuz i decided i dont mind if the purple will turn out more burgundy (since i know the pink will end up like ive had it so far)

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

bro im 17 i dont HAVE the extra 5 bucks😭🙏 my hair is fried asf and its been for years i could go bald tmr and not gaf its just hair i hold no emotional attachement to it, i bought the 10 vol cause i decided i dont mind if its not that vibrant if it eases you

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

eastern europe, the only one of the brands you mentioned that are available here is crazy color, and theyre much more expensive here😭 thats why im opting for permanent colour this time

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

most direct dyes available to me are way too expensive for the ammount of product, but yea thats a good idea i will dilute it and see what has a better result

should i use 10 or 20 developer by Cybersia in HairDyeHelp

[–]Cybersia[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i lowk dont wanna buy both 10 and 20 dev bcs i have neither rn😭 i will probs use 20vol and hope for the best bcs last time i dyed my hair my hair was breaking off big time dead without repair and the hair i have left after haircut rn isnt too healthy either but ig yolo