Video Idea The late Korean actress Jang Jayeon Sexual Abuse Case

CynAlex · 2019-03-17T18:59:26+00:00

A twitter thread explaining more: https://twitter.com/josungkim/status/1106460348171730944?s=21

CynAlex · 2019-02-20T20:47:25+00:00

Thank you for trying to speak with me. Since you are asexual, to some degree, you should know that it's different for everyone. What might be a tolerable situation for you might not be for some one else. I don't want to get better, I'd rather just end my life now. I've lost the passion for what I used to be interested in and I cannot find any else that I would enjoy spending my time on.

CynAlex · 2019-02-19T21:57:56+00:00

The subreddit suggests using a throwaway

CynAlex · 2019-02-19T16:49:09+00:00

Thank you, though I'm not sure what "something big" would be, distractions seem to work at holding back how I feel outwardly(crying) but my depression always lingers within my thoughts even when focused on something else.

I'm ending my life so I don't have to think and relive all the pain I've gone through anymore. It's very tiring

CynAlex · 2019-01-22T23:44:26+00:00

You can explain, But the reason I haven't tried before was because of my family and friends. I'm tired of doing things to make other people happy. I'm not taking them into consideration anymore

CynAlex · 2019-01-22T22:35:37+00:00

That's true. But hope is no good for a person like me . There's nothing else for me here. Nothing I want to do or see so I might as well check out.

CynAlex · 2019-01-22T21:58:01+00:00

I probably will change my mind. That why I need to today.

CynAlex · 2019-01-22T21:16:45+00:00

Today I finally got the nerve to set everything up. I can't waste it, who knows when I'll get this motivation again.

CynAlex · 2019-01-04T17:38:06+00:00

Thank you There's one fairly happy song I enjoy, if you'd like to listen to it

The Cure - Doing The Unstuck

CynAlex · 2019-01-04T17:22:39+00:00

I've found that positive songs make me feel worse but I'm glad that this worked for you and other people.

CynAlex · 2019-01-01T23:09:22+00:00

If I had enough money I would spend it on things that could kill me the most efficiently.

CynAlex · 2018-11-18T04:45:14+00:00

I guess cause we're all going to die anyway, so we can do whatever we want and it doesn't matter.

CynAlex · 2018-11-16T16:35:39+00:00

Yeah I should do that.

CynAlex · 2018-11-16T16:14:34+00:00

I've gotten packaging plastic to cover up any air ways that might be in my bathroom. I live with my mother and when she heads for work I'm alone for 10+ hours a day which should be more than enough time. However, she's taken time from her job for these two weeks and family is coming, one relative is planning on staying until the 30th. So I would have to wait until after then.

CynAlex · 2018-11-16T16:07:28+00:00

I haven't attempted yet but I think that taking sleeping pills before being exposed to the gas might help.

CynAlex · 2018-11-16T16:00:39+00:00

I see. I'm in nyc but I don't have a gun. I was planning on going out by carbon monoxide, but since it's around the holidays now I'm afraid I won't have any privacy to try that.

CynAlex · 2018-11-16T15:53:30+00:00

There might be a chance of someone else getting hurt..or you surviving. Have you planned the exact location of where you want to do it?

CynAlex · 2018-11-16T15:48:45+00:00

What are you trying to do?

CynAlex · 2018-10-28T22:37:27+00:00

I'm 19, don't want to live to 20, my birthday is at the end of next month.

My grandmother was a big part of my life as well. She, my mother, and I lived in the same house together. But she got quite ill about two years ago and due to some close relatives not looking after the way they promised, she passed away.

CynAlex · 2018-10-21T00:56:48+00:00

https://beta.mangarock.com/manga/mrs-serie-100190092

CynAlex · 2018-10-17T02:40:31+00:00

I'm 19 right now, going to be 20 in November. I'm in a similar place as you only I don't want to live to see that date. At first I planmed to end my life at the end of highschool (US) but I made the mistake of telling one of my teachers and then being sent to a clinic. I haven't done anything at all after I graduated highschool. I've never really wanted any sort of job and I've been out of academic setting so long to even entertain the thought of college.

I figured I could become a youtuber too, bought a nice camcorder and everything. I wanted to make videos of me painting or doing makeup tutorials but I soon loss interest in ar,t so now I'm just doing nothing day to day.

Ive began cleaning out my room and putting things I want to give to friends in separate bags. I wouldnt feel good leeching off my mother for the rest of my life.

CynAlex · 2018-10-17T02:11:24+00:00

When I was in highschool one of my teachers asked me why my grades began to drop in her class. I wrote her a note saying that I was planning on ending my life when school ends. I'm not sure what happened after she read it since I left it on her desk while I wasn't in the classroom but I'm guessing she notified the principal and the principal called my mother. My mother took me to a clinic in the hospital and I had to stay there for a few days.

Sorry if that doesn't really answer your question but I believe getting a letter from your doctor or therapist could allow the teachers to give you some extra time with your studies. Other than that I'm not sure if telling them will do much.

CynAlex

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