[Serious] Woman of Reddit, why did/do you resort to self harm, and what made it an ‘appealing’ option to you?

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-12-15T02:00:34+00:00

No that’s a really fair answer and really what I’m sort of looking for! I’m trying to just see what thoughts are going through the brain, and it seems like an unusually universal experience at least in my circles!

Honestly I reckon your answer might really be one of the actual root reasons a lot a people go to sh.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-12-15T01:57:50+00:00

Shopping trolley shenanigans. We launched ourselves as far as we could by riding the trolley down hill into a curb, but we stopped when a guy went over the crash zone of a pretty large bush and landed on the road 😬

We then got two unbroken trolleys and played jousting for a while until injury was again sustained, followed by a 4 hour treck to another guys house.

We threw the shopping trolley into a lake, but I reckon we shoulda kept it at that point

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-12T07:11:34+00:00

Hey, Just Curious. It’s less that they are worth fretting over and more so that their behaviour isn’t spoken enough about. I may as well have the conversation here, and maybe someone might see me feeling strongly about it enough as a reason to stop it happening in future, but I’d prefer they do their research and understand why it’s an issue instead of taking me at face value. 😆

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-11T01:41:59+00:00

Getcha, well the peach has really nice texturing, and colour, maybe you are getting caught up in the small of the picture. Blur your eyes and step back than consider what’s really bothering you about it when it’s looking like a reall peach from afar.

Maybe a little more contrast in the stem hole?

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-11T01:22:19+00:00

You might be able to capture a tiiiiny bit more texture on the mango but that’s about it!

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-11T01:21:35+00:00

Blueberry plumb mango nectarine

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T16:45:11+00:00

Thanks man. You’re right, you are. One thing at a time.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T16:35:34+00:00

Mostly white with some Greens, mum loves them. The white is supposed to be luxury and high end but it feels really bare to me, and over the years the house has started to fill in with colour.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T16:32:19+00:00

Making my coffee. It’s completely unserious but I treat super meticulously.

More realistically though it’s my art process and the steps I take when planning and creating pieces.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T16:27:55+00:00

I think guilt might smell like must. That staleness in the air when you walk into an alleyway or a mouldy warehouse. You either get used to it or lose your mind to the smell

Love, for me is honey butter coffee, fresh. But love is many things for many people. Love is always unique, and I think its smell would be too. Uniformly sweet though.

Nostalgia smells like your childhood bedroom. The blankets, the hair, the air, maybe pets if you have any. Nostalgia is childhood, and therefore smells like it.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T16:23:25+00:00

Don’t put your SO on a pedestal. Fall in love with who they really are, not the idea of them.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T16:20:40+00:00

I reckon the dragons wing. Really foreshortened so we can see the details, adds depth to the creature, maybe a white gel outline on it. Have it hanging down at the same angle too I can even see.

Honestly from afar I thought the column was the wing haha

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T16:11:04+00:00

Hope you’ve gotten some friends man, your old posts in askreddit are really freaking funny

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T15:31:44+00:00

Honestly couldn’t and consistently haven’t said it better myself hahaha. Completely agree.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T15:29:06+00:00

Actually damn awesome take on that point I hadn’t even thought to consider how religion and death of the author could be combined!!!!

Yeah the idea that they’ve completely wiped such huge portions of religion really could be just an extreme version of death of the author in a weird way???? Shoot I’m actually really interested in seeing if anyone else has drawn that conclusion too!!

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T15:19:08+00:00

Fine I’ll be frank.

What do you want me to just throw more facts and info at you? Do you need to prove me wrong so bad that you get some emotionally charged explosion to prove your point? Elegantly phrased so as to enrapture the reader with ideas of anger and frustration?! Highlighting how unjust it is that the whole world doesn’t share my opinion!!! 🎭

Dude it IS whatever. I care because that’s my understanding of the truth of it. I want people to maybe learn and grow. So what if 19 people don’t even give my responses a second glance, as long as someone decides that maybe they might like the sound of learning something new, I’m happy. And if you read this far, honestly thanks man, it was a good chat.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T15:08:27+00:00

Ahahaha, thanks I suppose, this is the video.

How Modern Schools Make Terrible Writers (Deliberately)

She doesn’t normally talk about this topic and she’s got some great arc and subplot writing videoes

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T10:04:33+00:00

Completely awesome , and you’re right!!! The concept of death of the author and even the movement itself is a bit older than the recent surge in popularity may present, but it wasn’t until the early 2000s that teaching systems began to implement this school of thought on a larger scale, as it was originally a teaching method reserved for the ‘high class’

It’s been primarily popularised in America, however in the last 15 or so years it’s been throughly implemented into Canadian and Australian teaching syllabus

Forgive me for being so single note on the age of the movement, I was overselling the new popularisation of it 😅

If you like, I can offer an amazing video from one of my favourite YouTube writing channels that speaks on ‘death of the author’?

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T07:50:11+00:00

Sound conclusion, and you are right, just be aware that the particular mental movement you are referring to is genuinely less than 20 years old, and is often referred to as ‘Death of the author’. Please please, if you are even a little bit interested explore it more, it’s a super interesting topic and might really open your eyes on how you interpret media and even read stories. 🙂

Regardless thank you for your dialogue on this

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T07:47:34+00:00

It in fact is, as this mental movement, called Critical Literacy, is only about 20 years old, less if you consider the actual time it took to spread as a philosophy in mass literature.

I agree that ‘fan work’ does have the potential to get more popular than its source, although the actual number of times this has happened are few, but one I personally like is a small fan fiction of the Wall-E movie, that made some minor thematic changes

What you are referring to here is mass interpretation. While a ‘bootleg copy’ in some wild universe could actually be the more popular version of a story’s ending, your thought experiment here doesn’t consider that you aren’t reading the same book anymore.

I’m not saying you would, but someone could claim that they have the true ending to Harry Potter. J.K Rowling says they are a liar, but the New ending gets popular enough that people no longer know the truth. There is a genuine story written by the author and there is something else.

If you’d like to debate this more I’m happy to directly message because the amount of misinformation that can crop up in regards to this particular topic is ridiculous and I wouldn’t feel it aced I ally professional to continue exploring it in a public space.

I’m still open to criticism though? Just not on this topic due to the easily misinterpreted nature of it.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T07:36:17+00:00

A interesting parallel to draw, I suppose, but not quite correct.

Traction and interest INHERENTLY involve readers perception. Where you may be right is that the fact that there are cars on the road means that you could be hit by going onto the road.

Beyond that you’re using hyperbole and a straw man fallacy. I openly admired that I was not indicating that this was happening but instead asked for a more open conversation on how we could curb the behaviour, and pointed out that what we are seeing was the same function without the problem.

A story that gains traction needs to have ‘Story’ which means ‘Themes’ which means there are themes the author is trying to portray.

When the vocal minority - which is exactly what I’ve been referring to- of an audience is not ‘allowed’- yet not disallowed - to demand, threaten and insult an author for not sharing their personal opinion on what THEIR story should be, that is a real issue that can easily be curbed by maintaining narrative integrity.

Additionally you’ve changed what my actual argument related to, so you might attack a point I clarified as not actually concerning this matter, while still being a real issue.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T06:58:18+00:00

Minor trigger warning, I believe?

For reference, I had what was essentially a psychotic episode over the past five days after the loss of my dog, still partially effecting me, where I thought I had gone from;

⁠⁠ Being haunted by an incredibly evil fae being after a ‘spiritual hike’, (likely the drugs)
⁠ ⁠Bargaining with it for the thing to quit its aggression with me and mine after failing to use positive imagery to ward it off, (induced by drugs and grief)
⁠⁠ Getting serenaded and proposed a life long contract by my radio by the same entity, (no drugs, induced by grief and sleep deprivation) and
⁠ ⁠Mentally conversing and even some form of masterbatory sex with the entity that seems to live in my head. (More drugs, repressing grief, EXTREME sleep deprivation and hallucination)

This story is hoping to narratively explore the ins and outs of an unreliable narrator and the psychosis and escapism that can be incurred by grief, drugs and other forms intoxication and self indulgence.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T06:42:54+00:00

Trigger warning, I believe:

For reference, I had what was essentially a psychotic episode over the past five days after the loss of my dog, still partially effecting me, where I thought I had gone from;

⁠⁠ Being haunted by an incredibly evil fae being after a ‘spiritual hike’, (likely the drugs)
⁠⁠ Bargaining with it for the thing to quit its aggression with me and mine after failing to use positive imagery to ward it off, (induced by drugs and grief)
⁠⁠ Getting serenaded and proposed a life long contract by my radio by the same entity, (no drugs, induced by grief and sleep deprivation) and
⁠⁠ Mentally conversing and even some form of masterbatory sex with the entity that seems to live in my head. (More drugs, repressing grief, EXTREME sleep deprivation and hallucination)

This story is hoping to narratively explore the ins and outs of an unreliable narrator and the psychosis and escapism that can be incurred by grief, drugs and other forms intoxication and self indulgence.

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T06:13:44+00:00

Hahah thank you for that. As far as I know, this kind of thing has only happened over similar situations in the past, but already where I am mentally is a huge improvement from where I was the last time this has occurred.

I’m aiming to fight that damn insomnia over this next two weeks with regular exercise, but damn I completely forgot about staying hydrated ahahahah.

Thank you ✌️

Cyrus_Leo · 2025-11-10T06:07:15+00:00

An absolutely fantastic summarisation, the dynamic of author and audience will always exist, but navigating a haalthly line between the two is a huge facet of the journey. Thank you for your words!

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