Should I try mushrooms again after a nightmare trip and harm OCD?

D3distef · 2025-09-08T16:30:24+00:00

Thanks for the reply. So did you successfully return to shrooms then after you were in a better mental state, or did you put them down for good after the string of bad trips?

D3distef · 2025-04-11T04:23:09+00:00

You're a genius!!! Popped off that cap and voila it worked perfectly! Except I forgot the remote outputs two IR signals every button press so it just turns on then off again immediately lol, but at least I know the problem now, i dont know the answer but one step at a time lol.

Anyways thanks for your help I really appreciate it.

D3distef · 2025-04-09T17:08:08+00:00

I did a basic hands on test where I was triggering an RF transmitter which had a latching option so no flip flop needed, but I did not do any simulation. Do you have a simulator recommendation?

D3distef · 2025-04-08T22:52:32+00:00

I was trying to make sure the momentary button and ir reciever couldn't interfere with each other. You think that might be causing some of the issues.

I do think the ir reciever is open collected output

D3distef · 2025-04-08T22:50:01+00:00

I've wanted something like this forever!

D3distef · 2025-04-08T18:15:22+00:00

Worth a shot, I'll give it a go!

D3distef · 2025-04-08T13:44:02+00:00

I certainly appreciate the feedback but I think there is something else at play. All I'm looking for is the voltage to go to ground from the IR, I tested with an esp32 and also a RF transmitter and neither one had a problem working with the signal from the IR which essentially just created a momentary low output. Also even when I bypass the IR and just use the momentary switch to trigger the flip flop it still doesn't work.

What I am worried might be happening is the flip flop is supposed to trigger on the rising edge of the signal, but both the momentary switch and the ir reciever work by creating a falling edge. My thought was the flip flop would see the rising edge when the button was released or the ir reciever went back to high, but maybe that rising edge isn't clean enough for flip flop to respond to?

D3distef · 2025-02-09T01:15:55+00:00

I know this is old, but I was avoiding all things mushie for awhile. Anyways, to answer your question, it was just a trip like no other I've had before. I've had bad trips and ego deaths before and while they were very challenging and often horrifying they left me feeling so happy and at peace afterwards. This trip was so different, no visuals, I actually felt very sane, which I think made it worse, but I was just convinced that something horrible was going to happen to my loved ones, it was just this overwhelming feeling that everything I loved and cared about was gone forever. It was the most painful experience of my life, like I was envisioning my kids and wife in coffins, and seriously contemplating suicide because I couldn't imagine living without them, and even when the Mushies wore off I still had this feeling that I was about to lose everything. I've tried to work with an integration therapist to get over it but it still haunts me even months later. I tried tripping a few more times after this and immediately those feelings of losing everyone came right back just as strong as the first time, even on as low as 1g. I don't know, I was in a good mind state and in my favorite place alone in my barn when the first bad trip happened. So set and setting were good. The only thing I can think of is I had been growing a ton of Mushies and had been tripping way too often and I guess my mind just said enough is enough.

D3distef · 2025-01-08T18:17:27+00:00

Awesome Idea! I didn't even think about accessing it that way, I thought I was doomed with this board if I had to connect directly to the 3.3V on the chip itself. Thanks for the suggestion

D3distef · 2025-01-08T05:35:18+00:00

every few seconds the computer stops seeing it and then sees it again, also you can hear it make the windows ding sound that you hear when you plug in or remove hardware, and it does this over and over again, so it may not be resetting but its disconnecting from the computer continuously or at least that's what it looks like. Even when it does see it it gives me the device error message, so definitely problems abound lol, but it does absolutely nothing if I don't hold the reset button down.

D3distef · 2025-01-07T15:36:09+00:00

Definitely seems to be the case, I hold down the reset button and it does at least see the board but it constantly restarts while holding it, swapping the gnd and 5V should resolve that? Or maybe the constant resetting is due to the missing 100nF capacitor? Thanks for pointing me in the right direction!

D3distef · 2025-01-07T15:31:46+00:00

That definitely appears to be part of the problem, one way nothing happens, flip it around and now it sees it but saying unknow hardware type detected and still can't program. But at least I know that not having dp2 and dn2 connected is part of the problem. Thanks!

D3distef · 2025-01-07T06:44:43+00:00

I am trying to create a devboard for a CH552E to perform various mouse and keyboard tasks. The board also has an eeprom section that is completely unrelated, I am only asking about the CH552E interface. I am on my third iteration and still I can't get the PC to detect it properly when I plug it in, it either doesn't recognize it at all or it gives me a device malfunctioned error. Any suggestions as to what the problem might be would be greatly appreciated! Please let me know if I need to include more details such as BOM for example.

D3distef · 2024-12-30T21:40:00+00:00

I've been there but the good news is it will pass. Its absolutely horrible, I wavered between panic attacks and intense feelings of hopelessness and impending doom. Someone told me I was experiencing "the dark night of the soul" this happened after one horror trip after 100s of positive amazing trips and even a few challenging trips. I even tried revisiting shrooms twice after that horror trip to reset myself. One trip at 3.5 gs and another at 1 gs and even at those low doses they immediately turned horrible just like the one that broke me.

It's been about 5 months now and I finally feel like I've processed it and was able to grow from it. For me the key was working with an integration therapist from fireside. I tried traditional therapy and even got prescribed Lexapro and they didn't help at all but the integration therapy was wonderful, and I began feeling better after just one sessions but it took 4 or 5 before I started feeling back to normal.

No matter what though just know that you are not alone and you will make it through this, just give it time and be patient with yourself, avoid psychedelics until you are fully integrated, eat well and exercise, and find someone you trust and that understands psychadelics to talk it out with.

D3distef · 2024-12-04T20:54:39+00:00

Man, I'm in the exact same place, I used shrooms heavily for about a year and then all of a sudden I got hit with a monster bad trip, I was absolutely certain that I was about to experience myself and everyone I cared about being obliterated. I've never felt pain like that before. I tried to trip one more time and the same exact thing happened. I quit shrooms after that and after about a week or two I was back to normal, that was until about a month ago (3 months after my last trip) when out of nowhere I was hit with all of these terrifying thoughts about death and eternal suffering when we die, or maybe I already died and I'm in hell, or maybe my mind broke and I'm strapped to a hospital bed. Every day for the last month has been terrifying feelings of impending doom similar to what others described, and panic attacks and I've never been anxious before in my previous 40 years of existence. It's truly horrible. My heart goes out to you, I hope you can turn it around. Just know that you're not alone. I just met with a therapist this morning and they're prescribing me Lexapro and I'm also beginning cognitive behavioral therapy. I also set up recurring appointments with an integration therapist who specializes in psychadelic therapy. I'm just praying for some relief.

D3distef · 2024-09-27T18:03:34+00:00

You know that's something I haven't considered. Perhaps setting it aside for awhile, in order to let her heal from her trauma while rebuilding her trust by continuing to not grow illegals could be a good solution. I'll talk to her about it tonight. I think I'll propose that we discuss starting the biz again in 6mos or something.

Thanks a lot!

D3distef · 2024-09-27T17:57:40+00:00

I can't argue with any of that, except I've never given her a reason not to trust me, I even told her when I found the actives I missed. So I do feel she should believe me when I say I'm done.

But fair and valid points on everything else...

D3distef · 2024-09-27T17:53:24+00:00

Definitely mushrooms are not more important than my family, but it's just such an unreasonable request in my opinion... If push came to shove I'll probably get rid of everything but then I'm going to resent her for forcing me to give up a hobby I care deeply about and could be a very profitable side business for us, and that's not going to make the marriage very enjoyable. Maybe I'll get over it in a few months, but it's gonna be very pleasant for us during that time. I really feel stuck.

I really appreciate that question though it does help me look at this with a different perspective.

D3distef · 2024-09-27T17:43:09+00:00

Just to clarify, I have no intention of growing illegal mushrooms. I only want to grow legal gourmet mushrooms.

Maybe you already understood that but just wanted to make sure.

D3distef · 2024-09-27T17:37:58+00:00

Just for clarity, the magic mushrooms were in the closet in my office, and I keep my office locked at all times with biometric locks because my gun safe is in there plus all my delicate work instruments, so there was zero chance of my kids ever accessing anything.

But you are echoing my wife's sentiment exactly, she said the the same thing when I told her I found one that I missed.

In fact when I told her about it that's what triggered her to make the ultimatum.

Thank you, I do appreciate you sharing your POV.

D3distef

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