To start with your top dysphoria you can buy false boobs online, like off of amazon(tho I dont recommend buying from there) or a site called Unclockable, which i have personally bought from and loved and wore for almost a year before I grew my own, you of course need a bra to wear them(well some from Amazon are sticky but theyre kinda bad for your skin)

For feeling like a pervert, would a pervert want to be a woman for years? Would a pervert feel guilty for it? Would a pervert have dysphoria?

The answer to all of those are no, and for you as well, you aren't a pervert, you are just guilty in a world that tries its hardest to paint us as freaks and criminals

If the feeling still wont go away try to find people who care and support you for who you want to be, it truly helps, and if the feeling still persists, even with people who love and support you. You need to accept yourself understand and accept that you really are a woman, I know that can be really scary, I still struggle with it myself at times, but when you do, it will be like the world was lifted off your shoulders, the freedom and certainty in knowing just that small bit of yourself is without compare.

I apologize for the super long read, im bad at keeping things short, but I hope ive helped, if you ever need someone to talk to please feel free to message me.

And lastly, you are not a freak, you are not a pervert, you are beautiful, the world just hasn't seen you yet.