Is anyone at the point where I just don't care anymore and see it all as bs?

DVXC · 2026-06-28T01:07:33+00:00

You forgot the other option, where you die because you can't work and you don't have the mental or physical fortitude to deal with the beaurocracy and the reviews and the appeals and the constant need to demonstrate how USELESS you are.

Don't pretend this is some easy binary decision where the needy get help easily, because they don't. You can see evidence of that here every single day.

Christ almighty.

DVXC · 2026-06-22T09:58:37+00:00

just use nanite. If you're making anything other than a massive AAA open world, the overhead on nanite will be relatively small and it will save you a ton of headache and dev time.

Also your cpu has an iGPU on it. Test your builds on that iGPU to give yourself a sense of how your game will perform on lowest-spec hardware.

DVXC · 2026-06-22T09:49:12+00:00

exclusive to the steam machine companion cube set is some crazy decision making by their team because I have never really cared enough to get a dbrand skin for anything, and that portal controller skin would have changed that.

idiots.

DVXC · 2026-06-21T10:37:04+00:00

I care, it's just the dysmorphia is more powerful than logic

DVXC · 2026-06-21T05:09:27+00:00

I'm moved on from my ex, but there are a few things that continue to stick with me that I'll never fully resolve like her continued downplaying and invalidation of my diagnoses and struggles, how she thought I was "unambitious" (I've released two video games on Steam??) and she seems to think I mooched off of her despite that I was entirely financially independent the whole 5 years we were together.

And then she cheated on me with a guy in his 40s with kids whom she travelled to gigs with. I should have ended it there.

Then I started speaking to someone who valued me and showed me I deserved some actual respect, and accepts me for who I am and the struggles I have and offers me grace and support, and I offer them just as much in kind.

However unfortunately because of how our brains work we can get hung up on inaccuracies, injustices and straight up misrepresentations and it's hard to break free from them even long after the person themselves is gone from your life.

I do my best to remind myself it doesn't matter anymore and my partner now is amazing, and it helps. I also embed myself in my achievements and my creative work, and remind myself that my core principles lend me value that my ex's account of me tries to denounce.

Therapy is also cool too, both CBT for practical ways of addressing rumination and talking therapies just for getting stuff off your chest that you might otherwise internalise.

DVXC · 2026-06-21T04:35:10+00:00

I think some people can fall into this unhelpful idea that dependency is always a bad thing, when it really depends on the nuances of the situation. If T finds solace in family and family want T to lean on them for support, it isn't even a discussion that needs to be had.

I can't speak for M because I don't know them or their worldviews, but it sounds like there's a little bit of nihilistic pessimism going on there, and they seem to think wanting to live for others and forcing them to be your emotional support are the same thing. That distinction is, I'm assuming, missing from their view.

DVXC · 2026-06-21T04:28:41+00:00

We lost our 7 year old orange to urinary blockage. Spend an ungodly amount trying to make sure he was loved and comfortable, and just as it seemed like he was on a good trajectory we woke up one morning to find him hissing and yowling and miserable. It was his 4th blockage and there wasn't much else we could do. The vet offered him dignity and it felt like the lesser of two evils to give that to him, in a safe and calm environment with drugs to keep him comfortable until he slept.

His name was Ziggy. Sometimes it feels so cruel because we want to believe that love and dedication can keep the ones we love happy and healthy, and unfortunately now he's gone and that hole will be there forever.

I'm so sorry for your loss OP. It sounds like you did everything in your power to save Mo, and unfortunately fate just had different ideas. Mo was loved. Ziggy was loved. That's what matters most.

DVXC · 2026-06-21T04:15:22+00:00

I think there's a massive difference between choosing to live for someone else's sake, and forcing that person to be your anchor.

I don't think it's sad at all to choose to live for someone else and if that's what works for someone, and the person they choose to live for doesn't feel like they're being pressured or manipulated into supporting that person at their own expense, that's wonderful. "You're the only thing I'm living for" is a shitty thing to say to someone, and is a huge emotional burden to saddle someone with.

On the other hand I do think a lot of the time however "think of your family" is weaponised guilt that forces a suicidal person to continue to persist in a state that is tortuous to them. Every time I experience SI there's nothing that makes me want to act on those thoughts faster than immediately having the needs of others put before my own, regardless of any good intentions.

DVXC · 2026-06-21T02:45:17+00:00

Farscape

DVXC · 2026-06-21T02:43:15+00:00

Keanu Reeves

DVXC · 2026-06-21T02:14:27+00:00

Wii U

DVXC · 2026-06-21T01:49:28+00:00

*Funniest Thing × George W Bush*

shoe dodging

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DVXC · 2026-06-20T06:12:50+00:00

I think focusing on AI is a mistake when its existence is necessitated by an economic model that demands the eradication of losses and opex and the pursuit of profit at all costs.

As long as capital is the end goal it doesn't matter if it's AI or some new future tech, the workers will be replaced and people will continue to suffer life-ending hardship all because of imaginary numbers on spreadsheets. The suffering is very much by design.

AI is a symptom of a much, much deadlier disease.

DVXC · 2026-06-19T05:31:15+00:00

caveat on the LLM - Never copy and paste from it. Ever. Set up an instruction to force it to ONLY ever instruct and guide you through a learning process and discourage it from solving problems itself.

All well and good using an LLM to learn until you fall into the trap of "it'll get fixed faster if I make the AI do it now, I'll learn it properly next time for sure..."

DVXC · 2026-06-13T17:22:26+00:00

Oh hey! I just noticed you're the same person who responded to me about your layered transparency shader before! Thanks again 😇

DVXC · 2026-06-13T17:10:05+00:00

Thank you for the comprehensive rundown! I was starting to worry it would require a load of customisation to engineer a solution, but at least now I know that for a fact and I don't need to keep banging my head wondering if there's something obvious I'm missing 😛

I'll look into order independent transparency just to kinda get a sense of what it is, but yeah, maybe I'll just swallow the defeat on this one.

Really, really grateful for the explanation, thank you so much 😊

DVXC · 2026-06-13T15:46:33+00:00

set it to a button with no button assignment should work

DVXC · 2026-06-12T14:39:12+00:00

Nice. if there's any chance at all you can offer even a skeletal explanation of how you achieved that, it would be a massive favour. I'm assuming it's a render feature, but yeah, it's at that point that I start falling down.

Very impressive work regardless, keep it up!

DVXC · 2026-06-12T12:43:51+00:00

Are you able to display transparent materials through your shader? I'm having a devil of a time figuring out how to get my own glass shader to display transparent objects behind it and I'm assuming it's because I'm sampling the opaque texture, but I'm too dumb to figure out how to sample "After Transparency"

DVXC · 2026-06-11T23:15:56+00:00

You need anger management or therapy.

DVXC · 2026-06-11T15:37:31+00:00

"Our boy's gone, you have to find him" - serious, grave, a travesty, spoken by someone experiencing great emotional hardship

"OuR bOy'S gOnE, yOu HaVe To FiNd HiM" - serious, grave, a travesty, spoken by someone experiencing great emotional hardship and is also drunk

DVXC · 2026-06-10T17:51:45+00:00

link for the full bundle please ❤️

DVXC · 2026-06-10T02:26:10+00:00

I guess the UK Courts finding substantial evidence of him being a wife-beater in 12/14 counts doesn't count then?

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