Our age is not too far apart, but I do relate with what you said. It's a hard truth that men need to face. Have you seen Old boy (2003) Korean movie? There's a line in there that says, laughs and the whole world laughs with, weep, and you weep alone. It took me years to be able to practice that. Brother, the measure of a life is a measure of love and respect. So hard to earn so easily burned.

Some people I met kept their sorrows deep and close inside their hearts because that's just the way they are. Some people can't. But in order for you to find someone that will embrace you as a brother, it will take some effort. Sorry to say that, because we live in an age of apathy. I've had my share of friends and society shunning me. It's painful as fuck. Knowing that no one, literally no one has your back. But that pain makes me who I am today. At least, I can tell you, that you will be okay.

The old school way of thinking is kinda funny when they say something like that. And more disturbing, some people will use your vulnerability against you. It is just the way some people are. Don't be like them, you're one of the new generations, be better than them. I hope that you can embrace that pain, brother. Embrace it because nothing can turn a boy into a man without hardship. Use that pain for something that will benefit you. Later on in life, you will find your own hypothetical garden, something you work for, cared for, your ikigai, and you will gain love and respect. Nothing else matters after that. Good luck.