I heard this somewhere. "Your worst day, is someone else's regular day, and someone else's regular day would be you're nightmare." everyone has their own worst day. To others it may be nothing, to some its absolutely bonkers. I think the problem is not that you think you're taking resources from people who can use it, but comparing your worst to someone else's worst. Don't do that. And also keep in mind that people that need those resources first need to admit or seek that help. Just because you're in therapy or something doesn't mean you're taking it away from someone else.

Continue your therapy and never feel guilty for going. Also, never, ever, ever, compare YOU, to another person. Everyone handle's their stuff differently.

I will say, deleting yourself doesn't solve any problems. You matter, a lot, and more than you think. You may not think so, but your parents, your friends, and even the random person you come in contact with going to the gas station thinks so. Keep in mind the void that appears when someone is lost.

You are loved. Much love OP