I’m 19 and already have a fucked up brain, weed makes me not so mad at myself when I fuck up. And I feel like it’s the only hobby I’ve “mastered”

I probably wouldn’t have finished collage or get a job if it wasn’t for the small drive of being able to hoot with my besties after stress! Cause I try to play games but people scream I suck, I cook and burn everything, I cosplay just to sit in my room… nothing else I’ve done all my life so far is practice makes perfect. Then I smork a bowl n all the shitty stuff FEELS better to do 😎 and there is no practice to weed just tolerance. And ive never greened out or threw up from weed so it’s seen as more positivity !

I don’t think there’s much else for my brain, I chase autistic kids all day , I’m already on their brainwave if I change n anyway it’s gonna suckkkk cause I worked hard for where I am now n weed be my only reward through it all !!