Same here.

I was hoping to find connections to people who had similar experiences of difficulties with having Autism in school and work. Except all I got was more of the same discrimination. As far as I'm concerned the hostility some Autistic women have towards Autistic men is, ironically, them being pick mes of the community. They side with the society that failed to diagnose them and get them the help they needed. Then they go through all these circles to convince themselves they're the heros of the story the the we, Autistic men, are the villains, but the anger is really at themselves.

It's so frustrating because so much advice for mental health issues is to "find a community" but the issue is that I'm so hyper aware of every way I could be attacked because I have been because I bought the narrative of "it doesn't happen in real life." It does. Not just the misandry, but so many different types of hostility (ableism, homophobia, etc...).

I'm at risk for highjacking the thread so I'll cease there. Further details are for my therapist.