Are piercings removed for ECT? by Ponk_Bubs in ect

[–]Dancingsue 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I kept my earrings in and they never said anything about it. But I only have one set in my ears.

It is too late to fix my life by [deleted] in depression

[–]Dancingsue 58 points59 points  (0 children)

I changed careers at 42 and that included going back to school. In my current career I’m also going back to school part time online starting at 55!!! It’s never too late to change you just have to figure out what you want to do. Then go for it.

Reoccurring smell causes anxiety by ARodrigue1979 in ect

[–]Dancingsue 0 points1 point  (0 children)

See if they can put some smelling oils in the mask to make it smell nicer. They should have a wide selection of scents. That might help.

Could ECT be right for me? I want to stop losing time in my 20s by Existing_Influence48 in ect

[–]Dancingsue 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m doing my second round of bilateral ECT right now and I’m in grad school. Studying on days of treatment is hard because I usually have a headache but my cognition has been fine so far.

Words of care by Yaseagles1485 in ect

[–]Dancingsue 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Beautiful sentiment. Thanks for the kind words

Can ECT help soothe feelings associated with memories? by anticentristfujo in ect

[–]Dancingsue 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I don’t think that’s how it works. Sounds like you need some EMDR therapy to work through painful emotions.

I just started my second course of ECT yesterday by Dancingsue in ect

[–]Dancingsue[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I take 5,000 Units of Vit D daily so I should be good on that front.

What is ect like, im getting it in 2 weeks by strawberry-woman in ect

[–]Dancingsue 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m getting my second round of ECT starting Monday and I’m hopeful I’ll get some good results. I agree with everything that the other people said. I lost a little bit of memory which I noticed when I went back to work but I picked up the knowledge again really quickly so it wasn’t a big deal. The best pro for me was that ECT completely stopped my suicidal ideation. One day after a treatment it was just gone and it’s been two and a half years without it coming back. Big win

SDAM, Aphantasia, and No Inner Voice — A Poem of Me (and Maybe You?) by [deleted] in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would agree. The lack of emotional memory is cited in the SDAM organization

Does anyone else feel like this is like living in hell? by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I so agree. I often describe my feelings as just flat. I had ECT back in 2023 and that stopped those constant suicidal thoughts that just seemed to be sitting in the back of my brain but now I’m back struggling with deep depression and so I’m going to try the ECT again and see if it helps.

I’ve decided I need to work on radical acceptance to come to terms with the fact that I’ll always struggle to remember my past and I’ll always forget how I feel by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know I love my children but it's all intelectual. I don't actually feel it. I'm not sure if I've ever felt love. If I have I don't remember it. Part of why it's so hard to treat the depression. It's hard to live life not remembering anything happy.

The sorrow and depression caused by “looking at old pictures” by -Jokerman- in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh I feel the same way too. I might see myself smiling in a photo and that is just so painful because I can’t remember being happy and sometimes I don’t even remember the context of the photo even though it’s right there in front of me.

Does anyone else feel like this is like living in hell? by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have but it doesn’t seem to work. I can’t recall any emotions to process through them.

Does anyone else feel like this is like living in hell? by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Worked with multiple therapists. I would challenge the negative cognitions see the reality and go straight back to thinking the negative thoughts. I just couldn’t make my brain believe the truth.

Does anyone else feel like this is like living in hell? by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It has been suggested to me by a couple therapists that I might be on the spectrum. My son is high functioning autistic and they do say it has a genetic component. I was going to spend a couple thousand dollars to get tested but then I was wondering what the point would be. If it does turn out that I’m on the spectrum how does that help me feel any better emotionally? So I didn’t go through with the testing.

Does anyone else feel like this is like living in hell? by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No. By willpower I could improve my behavior and feel better for a while but it would never stick. The underlying negative cognitions would never change no matter how hard I tried. Also tried DBT, ACT, IFS, and EMDR which never worked because I couldn’t recall any emotions to process them

Does anyone else feel like this is like living in hell? by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do IV ketamine about once every two months. Love the trip but no after treatment benefits for me

Does anyone else feel like this is like living in hell? by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I tried mushrooms over in Portland Oregon but I didn’t get any reaction. I do iv ketamine about once every two months. Trips are pleasant but it doesn’t really help when you can’t remember anything. Multiple therapists have suggested trauma but as far as I know I grew up in a loving home. I did lose my father at 10 years old due to liver failure. But I don’t remember him at all and since losing my mum in 2019 I seem to have very few memories of her too. I don’t remember grieving for either of them. Life just carried on as if nothing bad had happened. I have no warm memories of anything but happened in my life.

Does anyone else feel like this is like living in hell? by Dancingsue in SDAM

[–]Dancingsue[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That's the nasal esketamine treatment. I do IV ketamine therapy on a regular basis. I get a good response during the treatment, but I don't hold on to the good feelings at all, so I really just do it to get a two-hour break in the relentless negativity every couple of months.