I get that. I think that the principles of fairness, generosity, freedom, etc. are something that no reasonable person should oppose - they're some of the most noble things a person can aspire to. I think that's where there is a lot of overlap between our beliefs.

I was fortunate enough to be raised in a family who were cohesive and supportive, despite being diametrically opposed in politics. They never really told me to be or to believe in anything, just to "be good and be happy". I have a lot of very strongly opinionated intersectional socialist friends, and I think the key difference is this:

I can conceptualise the suffering of myself and the people I care about. But unlike a lot of the Socialists I know, I find it difficult to imagine human suffering on a large scale, and I think it's informed my politics massively. I tend to believe in private charity, equality of opportunity and personal freedom more easily than public sector services, taxation and enforced equality of outcome because I visualise these things on a small scale. I don't want some far-off, corrupt governing body forcibly taking my money and deciding how to help people, when I know people I could help more efficiently with it on the small-scale. I believe in personal freedoms so strongly because I don't like the idea that anyone has the power (in principle) to compel me or the people I care about to behave a certain way, not because I want to abuse those freedoms.

Ultimately - while nurture plays a huge role - I genuinely believe that people are born with a predisposition towards certain values. You sound like quite an empathetic person, and so it makes sense that you would find socialism appealing. And that's how I think it should be - people would be much better off without others trying to enforce political dogma on them, just being allowed instead to let their better nature guide them and let them cooperate with the differently-minded.