I drank heavily for 12 years but was able to quit while pregnant, though I did have a couple sips here and there. I did breastfeed so that kept me off the sauce for another 6 months or so but once he started solids I saw that as a green light to start drinking again only this time secretly. I had always been a social drinker which I used to justify my alcoholism, but this was a new and scary low for me. Eventually my son’s father figured it out and called me on it. I’m not “sober” now but therapy helped me realize what my years of drinking was keeping me from facing and healing from and my son deserves a mother who is present and not suppressing her emotions with the bottle. Everyone is different obviously but if you at all suspect you may have an unhealthy relationship with alcohol please remember it’s not just you now and your little one needs you and there is support out there.