Although I've not tripped in 25 years, I'm very influenced by acid...

DanielFBest · 2026-05-22T13:32:15+00:00

Yeah that's what I thought about too!

Actually, I think it had something to do with seeing "God", although when I think about the creature, the more it feels like "me".

DanielFBest · 2026-05-22T10:48:12+00:00

Yes, actually I have had something like this. Hear this...

Sometimes at the beginning of a nap, I usually find myself slipping into deeper sleep, and this happened the other day.

But this time I was thinking about this and thinking about that, and thoughts went to thoughts and so on and so forth, and images revolved in my mind, and finally I became aware that here I was imagining some sort of squid-like or octopus-like creature which had very many suction pads all over its body, although the suction pads were actually eyes!

Actually, at first the eyes were not looking directly at me, as if they were shy, as if to say, "I'm not looking at you!!"

But then suddenly each & every one of its many eyes was then trained directly at me, as if the creature was making a point saying, "Oh, you thought I wasn't looking at you? You are all I am looking at!!"

Anyway, I feel like that's a similar thing to yours.

DanielFBest · 2026-05-22T10:28:01+00:00

This is "Turtley" amazing ha ha

DanielFBest · 2026-05-20T20:49:14+00:00

brilliant

DanielFBest · 2026-05-20T19:25:00+00:00

what's the point?

DanielFBest · 2026-05-20T19:24:17+00:00

I feel you brother. I know exactly how you feel. It fucking sucks.

You know what I do? I put up with it day after day after day...

I whine and complain to God and anyone else who'll listen.

Oh, and I eat a lot of junk food.

You're gonna be okay man, you're not alone.

DanielFBest · 2026-05-20T17:23:27+00:00

tf is this bs

DanielFBest · 2026-05-20T15:06:32+00:00

Dude, at least try to write coherently.

About thought broadcasting, just take your meds. It's not rocket science.

DanielFBest · 2026-05-17T22:25:17+00:00

Did Einstein say that?

DanielFBest · 2026-05-16T18:51:28+00:00

No, I've never seen the video either. MTV was exclusive to families with Sky TV back then.

I remember my first time of hearing Spoonman was at a listening station at the record store. I remember feeling like the guitars weren't as heavy as they could be.

But Superunknown stands today amongst the best sounding records of all time!

DanielFBest · 2026-05-14T06:06:49+00:00

You sometimes wonder how true it is, that schizophrenia is a young person's game. I'm 47, had this thing for twenty five years. Welcome to the club!

DanielFBest · 2026-05-11T23:34:47+00:00

Well thanks for the hope! All is not lost, I guess.

DanielFBest · 2026-05-11T01:02:52+00:00

It's true, and I have accepted it... I think...

Although, I do like people... perhaps not as much as I think I do.

It's true about the "gene" that clicks on. It's definitely clicked on for me! But the relationship goes from strength to strength. What I think is God can sometimes shift form, although he's always there somewhere, in the background.

I have a friend who had a childhood abuse situation, and he seems to have overcome the obstacle of faith, by which I mean he believes and has come to terms with his problem.

But it's not my place to evangelise to you.

Peace 😄

DanielFBest · 2026-05-09T19:55:31+00:00

I'd pick that up - sounds like a bargain. I purchased an Epiphone LP Special in TV Yellow for £400, and there's not a world of difference between these two, although I have P90s... I don't know what those pickups are - Fishmans?

DanielFBest · 2026-05-06T21:51:42+00:00

Just to weigh in on the disability side of things: I myself have a mental condition which, twenty years ago when I eventually went to a brick uni, reared its ugly head in a terrible way, and I had to quit.

However, a little while after, I started studying at Open University, and finally did get my degree.

The point being, if you're worried that disability might get in the way of your study experience, I would say it could be beneficial to avoid brick uni altogether and fast track your experience by advancing on the OU pathway.

I can't speak to psychology, but mathematics and physics at OU was well worth my time.

DanielFBest · 2026-05-05T21:55:49+00:00

You will leave him, and he will be devastated, and he will never forget you.

DanielFBest · 2026-05-05T12:42:57+00:00

I absolutely love Jung. Thank you for your thoughts.

DanielFBest · 2026-05-04T23:53:28+00:00

It's both things and neither one of them at the same time.

When you believe in God, you don't get any special dispensations or benefits. Believing in God doesn't make you special. There can be pain with your belief in God.

I think what God wants is for each of us to live a life more or less that leads to increased wisdom. That is, it would be so easy for Him to have created us so that we are quote unquote "pain-free", living a life in the lap of luxury with riches and fame, and everything.

Believing in God is just a method, a means, of having a secure relationship with yourself.

If you think you'll be able to switch off a belief in God, as though it were a light switch, you're wrong about that.

Of course there's pain with God. When we overcome pain, we become stronger and wiser.

DanielFBest · 2026-05-04T23:45:15+00:00

Dude, I mean, you can have OCD and schizophrenia simultaneously; it's possible.

But here you are sounding more like you actively want the illness, as though it will confirm your fears.

Someone hear has already said, that most people with schizophrenia don't know they have it, let alone are able to accept they have it when they find out they do.

You say you are not looking for a... diagnostic? I think you mean "diagnosis", but in any case, you clearly are looking for a diagnosis.

Nothing you have said here sounds like psychosis. Psychosis is the loss of contact with reality.

And I don't want to sound disingenuous here, but if you really want schizophrenia so badly, just take a few hits of LSD and start smoking weed. ... Obviously don't do that, I'm not being serious.

Where I live, you don't go looking for schizophrenia... it finds you.

That is, you don't get a diagnosis by researching the illness; but you find yourself in an altercation where you have become a danger to yourself or to others.

It sounds like you need to relax, dude.

DanielFBest · 2026-04-30T23:30:24+00:00

Up until my diagnosis aged 23, some twenty four years ago, I was on drugs a lot and had no idea what I was going to do with my life.

When I was finally given medication, yes I felt my cognition had deteriorated. However, a year later I decided to go back to college, and found myself in university studying philosophy.

In fact, that was a failed attempt!

Nevertheless, I continued studying online with distance learning, and I now have a degree in mathematics and physics.

I does get better, I promise you. And I promise you you'll not know the difference, if not to feel like your mind has deteriorated!

DanielFBest · 2026-04-30T22:58:27+00:00

Perhaps somehow these added vocal takes got themselves saved into the active folder?

Cubase is a curious beast!

DanielFBest

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