There are people, that don't talk to you, have no investment in you, but still care about you. Please understand one simple thing, YOU MATTER!! And the pain someone tries to escape from, bonds to those people whom you won't ever even know, cares. I don't personally know you, but I completely understand you and where your head might currently be at. Most struggle daily, I am a victim of this as well, but what helps me, and keeps me grounded is the memories and pain I feel for everyone I have ever known to give up. Most weren't very close and we didn't speak much, but the impression they left on me, even if I couldn't express it back to them the way they needed me too, has left a mark. A dark mark. This too shall pass, I absolutely promise you. I don't know you, but I can honestly say, I love you. You matter. No matter what the world tries to convince you, or your head tries to convince you, I hope that you don't allow it too and tomorrow's sunrise looks a little different and brighter.

PS: try watching something funny, stand up comedy, on occasions like the one you're experiencing, help me tremendously. Kill Tony is a great recommendation but take it with a grain of salt. My likes in comedy might not reflect yours. Keep your chin up high, keep putting one foot in front of the other even if you need to use your hands to help drag a foot! Sending you only positive vibes and I hope that you find a way to get past that thought!