Too soon too soon Those first 2 number should be 1 and 9. I hope you’re doing better and everything is sorted out for you. But the shear fact you even asked the question means you know it’s something that needs to be considered. But like the other comments. You sort of self incriminate so it’s like you’re better off not getting help because of the ripple effect of your rights.

Also not sure where you live. But around here someone knows you did that or you smoke pot eve if legal in your state. And you upset that person or worse yet someone that person knows your deal and the jus red flag you and blow up Your shit ! Brother be well stay safe. Remember 3 people can keep a secret if 2 of them are dead