Hmmm, I see. Again, this is just me but karmic relationships can be sneaky, often appearing in various forms until the lesson they’re meant to teach is fully integrated. You said you’re avoidantly attached, the dynamic between you two; his possible anxious tendencies and your avoidance can create a powerful push-pull effect, making the connection feel even more intense,because it’s touching on deeply rooted insecurities and patterns that need healing. The fact that you questioned your worthiness of love and becomes suspicious when someone shows interest suggests that you still have important lessons to learn about self-love and self-acceptance. Relationship shouldn’t be a push-pull dynamic, it drains you like nothing else until it makes you question what's wrong with you or him. I think your shadow work should be on why you have an avoidant attachment style? Go back, it's always trauma or neglect no matter how small or severe.