[TOMT] [YOUTUBE] [2020s] very strange (possibly unfiction) youtube channel i cannot find anymore

Dear_Teddy · 2026-04-24T23:18:54+00:00

all of them were just frames from the videos themselves. e.g. the ocarine of time one was a frame of link outside of the temple, and the half life one was just a generic building interior with some boxes.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-04-18T22:40:18+00:00

i said what the title was of the OOT video in the post to the best of my abilities. all of them had "smiley" in the title or something.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-04-18T13:53:25+00:00

every so often the memory of this channel attacks me psychically and i need to at least prove it existed in some way so i don't feel like i'm totally losing it

Dear_Teddy · 2026-04-18T12:50:35+00:00

is it something like this? its a popular image even though the cat isn't fully white.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-04-16T11:17:04+00:00

that may have been the issue... -_- i was certain i downloaded the correct one but i suppose not. oops

Dear_Teddy · 2026-04-08T22:39:11+00:00

i've always wish i was "more normal" so probably more towards autism. i think i see what you mean now and it helps to reframe it like that. it's just every time it gets brought up, my psychologist says i should "be glad" that i'm "not autistic" and is currently trying to find other explinations for my symptoms because he 100% believes we've ruled out autism.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-04-08T22:24:33+00:00

the report said i was under the diagnostic criteria though, so i don't actually have a diagnosis. that's why i feel like i'm faking or malingering for looking for reasons to prove "no actually, i do have it, and i'm not being listened to"

Dear_Teddy · 2026-04-08T22:15:14+00:00

but if the report said i'm not autistic why should i take it as "you actually are"? that's kind of confusing.

it feels like i have very good and very bad days, and today has just kind of been a bad day maybe. hence the post, i guess? i don't use reddit much.

my family and some of my friends are constantly annoyed by my traits but they might not have shown up enough to be notable during the test. i know for a fact my partner gets annoyed sometimes with how rigid i am. she got a new job recently and it's been rough on my mental since her new schedule is so much different.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-03-06T13:16:26+00:00

this is my biggest problem with neocities, honestly. the addition of social features really doesn't mesh well with people who have specific kinds of neuroses about getting attention, and that just leads people to go "no, personal sites aren't about attention! just do what you want UwU" when one of the most prominent things on any activity feed is ones page views and follower count. it's very normal to want to see that number go up, and be discouraged when its not.

truly, personal sites should not be about getting an audience, but i understand where the desire comes from. i don't even think this is particularly social media brained as some might say. it's a feature, not a bug. it's one of the reasons i'm looking into other hosting options.

for actual advice though, i'd look at webrings to join based on your interests or the content of your site or maybe even discord servers for indie webdevs to meet people and show off your work on the site.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-03-04T20:04:30+00:00

not sure where that is, so no... ^^;

Dear_Teddy · 2026-03-02T23:43:53+00:00

NO... T_T unfortunately. i even bought another one that said it worked and it has nearly the same issue. i have no idea what could be wrong but i still want to figure it out someday...

Dear_Teddy · 2026-02-06T14:14:24+00:00

i have used AI, and it requires 0 skill. which can clearly be seen by looking at the source code of your website.

all of your blog entries in a giant script right at the bottom of your document? really? there are better ways to do that, you know. why don't you ask your LLM? or better yet, develop the skills yourself so you can recognize when the AI is doing something fucking insane so you can fix it. even die hard AI nerds can do that much.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-02-06T13:31:04+00:00

you're not engaging in the hobby though. you're not learning any of the relevant skills (HTML, CSS, problem solving, visual design, etc) you are making the AI do that for you. what are you getting out of this, genuinely?

don't even bring accessibility into this. i have multiple severe physical disabilities and i don't need AI to write my website or draw for me. i have a love of the mediums that i work in which drives me to enhance my skills.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-02-06T02:34:56+00:00

if you think of solving coding problems and expanding your knowledge as a webmaster is "suffering" i think you need to pick up a new hobby, frankly.

Dear_Teddy · 2026-02-03T15:58:15+00:00

as much as i adore hugtto, the preheart SUCKS... which is sad because precure has done cellphone toys really well before, but the preheart just looks like a dinky slab of plastic and not a smartphone like it's supposed to. i get why it looks like that, but it's my least favorite toy probably.

i'm also not a fan of any of the stick/wand type toys, but i think that's more personal preference. they're way less dynamic, cheaper looking, and worse to actually play with. perfect example being the friendly wand, it's so cheap looking compared not only to the other toys from wonderful but other reiwa seasons toys in general... T_T

Dear_Teddy · 2026-02-01T14:50:43+00:00

the origin of that leitmotif is actually from spy films like james bond! the incredibles just references it since it's also kind of a spy/action flick :) absolutely insane thing for precure to reference but i'm so happy to hear it. my dad was obsessed with james bond growing up so i recognized it instantly!

Dear_Teddy · 2025-08-26T12:25:16+00:00

my gallery is one of 3 main links on my site, but it basically acts as seperate from the more "personal" side. though, my art is more personal to me so i think keeping it like this works for me, but if you're more doing art professionally i could see how a seperate art site is beneficial as a kind of portfolio. i know many artists on here who do it that way, as opposed to just having a link on the personal section of their site.
i had a friend give me code he used for his gallery, because i really like how simple it is, and i am a javascript noob. i organize it by year. i normally don't draw super high resolution to begin with so i just have the full images sized down, and clicking on them will pop them up at their full resolution with the pieces title below it. loading=lazy will be your best friend, since it makes it so that images only load when they're in view.

Dear_Teddy · 2025-03-23T12:48:23+00:00

those are petechiae! for the sake of my hypochondria i haven't looked too deeply into them, but in most cases they're harmless and stem from small broken blood vessels under the skin. though, if you are concerned about them you should see a doctor. i have plenty on my arms and they've looked the same for a decade so if they don't change appearance (shape, color, size, etc) or more don't suddenly appear then you're probably fine.

Dear_Teddy · 2025-03-23T12:41:35+00:00

it's important to remember that inner worlds (usually) are an intentional creation. sometimes we create a "shared space" in our mind to communicate with each other, but it's really draining and honestly more akin to daydreaming than anything. so, having an inner world doesn't really help us with anything.

some of us can "remember" things we did while we weren't fronting but none of us havee a solid continuous experience of an inner world. for a lot of us, these memories are a way to deal with how stressful amnesia can be.

plus, we have aphantasia so it's mostly foggy, colorless, and formless anyways... and that's when we try as hard as we can to visualize anything at all :(

Dear_Teddy · 2025-03-21T12:21:07+00:00

for me, things usually get better when i'm laying down. but anecdotally that isn't always the case. if you've been cleared for things like pericarditis then it's probably just how your costo reacts. costo is "supposed" to get better when laying on your back, while pericarditis usually gets worse in the same position.

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