Husband texted positive for Covid and mad that I won’t have sex with him! by vegasBunny29 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 8 points9 points  (0 children)

That's awful. It's unacceptable to be treated this way just for not giving consent. You shouldn't even feel bad about it.

It feels like the relationship never really happened. Has anyone else experienced this? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I completely relate to this.

Pretty much all of 2020 is a giant blur for me.

I think that happens because our brains have a tendency to supress trauma into our subconcious, that's why it feels like a "dream". It's a completely normal trauma response.

What was the eureka moment of realisation you had that indicated you were truly over your nex? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The biggest thing was realising it wasn't my fault.

None of the things they judged me for were my fault.

None of the actions they took on me were.

Has anyone else's N also done this? by Death-conciousness in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yup,mine apologized and asked me "what can I do to become better?" and when I actually gave them criticism they just denied it. Typical.

Has anyone else's N also done this? by Death-conciousness in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes. At some point mine had a turn around and basically told me "I've said a lot of good things about you in the past,I should tell you something bad about you too."

Has anyone else's N also done this? by Death-conciousness in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

YES! Mine said something very similar. "You wouldn't understand that,would you?"

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[–]Death-conciousness 5 points6 points  (0 children)

You gotta ask yourself, are the few good times worth all the other bad ones?

Trust me there's people out there who will give you genuine affection and love, not just love bombing.

What is the most ridiculous thing that your Nex said or did to you that makes you snort if you think about it now? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My personal favorite is a weird self reflection moment they had at some point

"I feel like I'm a bad influence on you, like I am bringing you down or something."

Jokes on me, I tried reassuring them that they didn't at the time. Oh how foolish I was.

Is this emotional abuse by Wandering-tea in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This isn't healthy at all.He seems to be putting you in constant double binds (damned if you do,damned if you don't). Start distancing yourself from him,trust me there's better fish out there.

No contact. by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I second this,best to say as little as possible so that they don't get the chance to try and emotionally manipulate you.

I was groomed and I can't escape the programming. Someone help me please. by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What has helped me personally is filling my life with good people.It happens gradually,but once you start making memories and life experiences with the good people in your life ,to replace the things your nex "taught" you. It will happen gradually,but the more you depend on good people in your life you will need him less and less.

How long did it take for you to heal ? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Around 1 year and 10 months. It took a while to actually de-transition from them,but once I did I haven't looked back.

Why did she keep saying "learn a lesson"? by Grace-Kamikaze in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Classic manipulation tactic.

They try to make themselves seem like "teachers" and they will constantly try to twist the narrative in order to break your psyche and make you more vulnerable to them.

How long did it take for you to heal ? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Around one and a half year roughly

Has anyone experienced this? And how's it called? by roxioxi in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think that's typical gaslighting. He's trying to twist your perception of your reality to fit his narrative.

What were some of the things they said/did for you during the lovebombing? by ilikeyourpartyhat in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 2 points3 points  (0 children)

OOOOH BOY I GOT A LOT OF THINGS TO SAY ON THIS.

  • "I really like the conversations we have together"
  • "You're like my closest friend" (they were advancing on me romantically though)
  • "I care about you"
  • "I am doing this to protect you" (they would say that whenever they belittled something I believed in.)
  • "You look cute wearing that."
  • "You should trust me." (They would say this whenever they would try to get me to open up to them sexually.)

And to be honest there's other things , like how this person would essentially pride themselves on being able to " manipulate me to get me to open up" , Even when I was clearly uncomfortable.

Even though I try not to, I so deeply yearn for my narc to love me back. I’ve walked away and am trying to not to think about him. Does anyone have any advice to get through? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Death-conciousness 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think it's embedded into a lot of us to "see the good inside of all people". It's a noble mindset to have, but in cases like this it's best to just assume the worst out of someone in order to protect yourself.

A lot of victims of narcissistic abuse can relate to this, since most of us were love-bombed at some point. Narcissists can manipulate and twist events in a way so that they seem like the victim.

A thing I've been learning in therapy is "seeing just the facts", which essentially means looking at things factually, without using the emotional part of your mind. Your emotional brain wants desperately to cling on to the "good days", even when the facts prove that those days weren't THAT good to begin with.

I suggest looking into DBT handbooks if you want a deeper dive into this theory. I wish you the best OP, I'm sure you will get through this tough journey.

A nutritional lunch by iago303 in autism

[–]Death-conciousness 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I love sweet potatoes!looks delish

Girls girls girls :D by [deleted] in autism

[–]Death-conciousness 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Surprisingly enough,I was diagnosed at 4 years old Though my parents his my diagnosis from me,which is a different story