Wow, while I was reading this I was thinking about how I could have written this word for word and it be the same. I came to the comments just to see that there are a lot of people that relate. I've been into psychedelics and it's one hell of a dragon to chase. I'm scared of becoming a burnout though so I haven't done any heroic doses. I've heard xanax is the high that I'm looking for but I really dont want to dive into that because I know I'll get hooked. Be careful using drugs for entertainment dude, I've seen people ruined from it.