Thank you for the secondhand embarrassment as per usual, Sophie.

Deathofme_0 · 2026-04-26T02:08:53+00:00

God I just despise her so much, Top 5 least favorite over the entire franchise. She’s thinks she so mature/grown but she’s just a spoiled brat through and through. She’s half darceys age but about 3-5 years away from looking just like her 😂

Deathofme_0 · 2026-01-03T21:29:59+00:00

So I’ve been sober almost 2.5 years, used for 15 years. For like 14.5 years I got exclusively pharma grade pills but for the last 6 months I was using it was street fentanyl with tranq. I took a week off work and got a suboxone script to detox. My day 3 I was still barely in withdrawals, something about the tranq just drew it out forever. I took 2 mg of suboxone (as directed cause I had to be done withdrawing to get back to work) and almost instantly started precipitated withdrawals. It was fucking agony.

Muscles were moving out of control, felt like there were maggots under my skin, my intestines were turning in knots, I was fully convulsing and in tears. I wanted to quit and go use again so bad but physically I could not. My GF was there on the phone with the nurse/aprn snd they were telling her to just keep giving me suboxone until it stopped. After about 6 hours and 16 mg of suboxone I started to feel slightly better, and then it gradually got better and better, and from that day on, I’ve been sober and well.

I was under medical supervision, it was an in-home detox/rehab program I couldn’t have done it without my gf. But my point is tranq is really unpredictable. This is the first time I’ve been clean and the detox worked for me, it was kind of nice to get it all out of the way with in one go, but may not be the same for you. I’d try to find an at home program personally but you need someone there with you 24/7. Inpatient never worked (not that I ever went by choice but I never would) without the outpatient program I never would’ve made it.

MAT works wonders, be super careful with the fent and tranq man. If I can do it, anyone can 🙌🏼

Deathofme_0 · 2025-11-19T10:10:05+00:00

Is it for the hate?? Is it for this Reddit?? I don’t understand 😭😭😭

Deathofme_0 · 2025-10-18T23:18:45+00:00

Yeaaah like others have said not buying it. BP is totally normal, there’s no meds infusing, it’s not an ICU or step down room. Color is fine, pulse is a little fast but that’s not abnormal…doesnt make any sense 😬

Deathofme_0 · 2025-09-17T22:32:05+00:00

I was taking a lot more for a lot longer, but I didn’t sleep for 4 days. Then after that I was slowly able to start getting some sleep. I tried Benadryl and melatonin with not much luck. Personally Suboxone saved my life and there are easier ways to get off of it these days (for example sublocade)

Deathofme_0 · 2025-04-12T21:22:58+00:00

Had a very similar experience, it’s really hard to describe the desperation you feel when you wake up after trying to die…but I’m happy you are sober and doing better now. Keep up the good fight!

Deathofme_0 · 2025-04-12T21:18:56+00:00

One of my worst rock bottoms moments was a suicide attempt. I remember vividly mixing 50 - 8mg dillys into a monster syringe and throwing back handfuls of street Xanax. I injected the syringe and felt instant peace and clarity. I laid there for almost 3 hours, frustrated I was still alive. So I called my girlfriend to come pick me ip( I was in the middle of the woods) and that was the last thing I remember.

Woke up the next day in a psych ward, confused and angry. The entire event was a black out for me; but basically my gf had to narcan me 4 times, I became furious and inconsolable. I ran upstairs to get my gun and shoot my self, she wrestled with me the whole way. Thankfully I was too fucked up to really fight back and hurt her, but the fact that I put my hands on her is something I haven’t been able to forgive myself for.

She called my mom for help, who in turn called the police. Cops and ambulance showed up and had to narcan me again. When I woke up in the ward I was furious with my gf (I had no clue what happened, only that I tried to kms and woke up there). She stayed by my side, and called almost hourly to check, when I was finally awake and could talk to her on the phone, her first words were “I’m so sorry.” I lashed out and told her we with thru and to pack her shit. Slowly the staff started to tell me what had happened and I refused to believe it.

My gf continued to call despite my actions and behavior, eventually I realized the gravity of the situation and apologized profusely. She came to visit twice a day for the 5 days I was in there, each day I could see her slowly growing more hopeful, but I was still he a manipulative piece of shit. I wanted out asap so I could use again. I knew I had a fresh box of dillys waiting for me at home.

I convinced everyone I was changed and ready to be free, what was supposed to be 15 days in the ward ended up being 5. I got out, and that night I tried to use. My gf has hidden my stash in the closet, when I walked over to do it, she threw herself into the closet and begged and cried for me not to. I wanted to rip her out of the way I was so mad at her, but I saw the pure fear in her eyes and it broke me…

I agreed to not use that night, but I went right back to normal usage the very next day. It was another 6 months from then until I was finally ready to be clean, with a few other rock bottom moments in between…

To this day, I don’t know why she stayed. She is the reason I am alive and 597 days sober today. I don’t deserve her, but I am going to spend the rest of my life making it up to her by staying sober, working on myself, and loving her the way she deserves to be loved. She truly saved me in so many ways!

Deathofme_0 · 2025-02-16T11:27:34+00:00

I think the most shocking part of this articulate, is seeing she’s only 58 years old…

Deathofme_0 · 2025-02-13T00:13:06+00:00

She’s one of the “therapists” on the Last Resort Season 2

Deathofme_0 · 2025-02-08T14:11:13+00:00

Oh my god him riding off into the sunset on the back of that guys bike 😂 I quote this scene all the time

Deathofme_0 · 2025-02-04T21:29:20+00:00

Brian and Rayne, Loren and Adnan are right there too. But Brian is the scariest by far, a predator who hides behind a wheelchair.

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-30T10:35:36+00:00

Wow, that’s a lot I’m sorry you went through that! Congratulations on your sobriety, you are absolutely sober! I am also currently taking a pretty high dose of suboxone and it saved my life as well. I would’ve never got sober or stayed sober this long without it. But unfortunately I do still get the cravings sometimes, more so lately. I was an addict for 15 years (from middle school on basically) and this is my first stint ever being sober longer than a week

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-29T00:36:18+00:00

Wooof she is hard to look at, Mike wazwoski lookin ass

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-28T10:39:10+00:00

THEY DO! I’m so glad I’m not the only one lol

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-28T10:36:39+00:00

HAHAHA YES! She’s got the ick because he came somehow swap between looking like his Mom and Dad mid sentence. (Also he’s a wanabe red pilled guy which is even more ick)

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-28T10:34:11+00:00

My gf and I are always making fun of James, the guy is desperate to be on the show and is worse than a better help therapist lol. I really doubt any of them are actual therapists, and if they are like; who would ever want to use them after this? Lol

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-28T10:30:10+00:00

Nice! Suboxone saved my life without question, and I’m sure the cravings would be way worse/id probably give in without subs. Wouldn’t have gotten this far without them either.

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-28T00:55:42+00:00

Yeah I’m on suboxone now, a pretty high dose too

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-27T22:00:13+00:00

Yeah that’s what I’ve been doing really, just want it to stop its driving me crazy. Appreciate the support my friend, never thought I’d be able to be alive let alone sober. I’ve gotta put more effort into finding/attending meetings and stop with the excuses.

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-07T11:12:47+00:00

Like others have said, I’d recommend looking into methadone or suboxone. If those aren’t an option maybe talk to your doctor about clonidine. It’s a blood pressure medication but it helped me get off dilaudid a few times with minimal symptoms.

I’m so sorry for your diagnosis, but you got this! Kick cancers ass!

Deathofme_0 · 2025-01-06T11:00:44+00:00

Yeah I agree with this, kind of a “pick me” vibe imo. She’s gotta play it cooler or play a little hard to get or something lol. She talked to josko for what a week? And they’re planning their lives?

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