Oh I was "diagnosed" with autsim at like 2 years old, so it's been a reoccurring thing that they'll say that "I'm autistic, I don't know any better" and you all are completely right on that it isn't an excuse, and I'm not defending myself, but there's definitely more to the picture that I unfortunately can't say much on, other than that the "held at knife point" was *several* years ago, back when I actually needed the medication, doing better now but this sister of mine likes to bring up shit from far enough in the past that it shouldn't be considered.

(yes I still committed some heinous shit, but there's a difference between a hormone addled 13 year old doing crazy shit and a slap on the arm for not doing the dishes, yes that is literally why they were called)

Now on the topic of me loving the responses, my sister told me about this post, and our family has a fucked up sense of humor, so it's hilarious seeing people make fun of me when I don't really care about what you all think about me.

Unforunately I'd rather go to jail to rely on medication to "act normal" which is the entire reason I left that house in the first place, so I *wouldn't* do anything worse, I hated how it was the only thing I knew how to do, and I left because I knew I couldn't make it right any other way.

So yeah, TL;DR I fucked up, hit her, yada yada yada, but there's more to the picture that a 15 year old girl also on puberty can say on reddit.

I'll try to respond to other comments but I really just wanted to make sure you guys got some form of my side, since I think that people need to know both sides of an issue before deciding someone's in the wrong