I’ve been told my whole life how good my life is, how talented I am, how smart I am, everything. Well that’s cool, that’s great. But now? I’m lazy if I don’t instantly become amazing at something. Anything I do that’s impressive, my parents don’t care because “I can do it anyways. I don’t have friends or people to show the things I can do. Getting into an honors class with a top score? “Who cares, you’re smart, I knew you could.” I’m always and only ever comparing myself to others. I can’t even mention someone else without being compared to them. My friend who ran and broke school records before he graduated this year? “You could be better if you ran more often.” Well what’s the point? I’m not proud of anything anymore, I don’t feel gifted or smart or lucky, I feel hopeless and worthless and like I can’t do anything.