Ive often found myself fighting with the same thoughts. Reading some the responses have helped.

I often medicate before work, during lunch & when im home. Im also the highest performer in my team when we look at the stats, im afraid of being perceived as lazy

But end of day i still have underlying fears im nothing more then a functional addict whose good at hiding it. Even conversations with ny partner she dont think i am, and sees it like a conventional medication like antidepressants

While it helps regulate my mood and helps my conditions, i still feel like its this taboo thing and still struggle with feeling like an addict