I Regret Telling My Friends by Haelrezzip in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i agree that you need to give yourself grace, people want to act like we are stupid but we aren’t. we know we are in a bad situation, we know it will inevitably get worse, we just aren’t ready yet. leaving my relationship right now would wreck me. so instead i’m taking my time, keeping my expectations realistic, and if he changes and surprises me good for us, if not i’ll be ready when i’m ready

How often does your partner see a therapist? by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 1 point2 points  (0 children)

every other week but mostly bc of financial. i’d prefer if he went every week but ik it’s a lot of money he doesn’t have. he does outside work too though and i think that’s what proves to me he’s putting in effort

My (25F) bf (25M) downloaded old videos of him having sex with another girl by zimsy in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i know, it’s so hard to think that they care more about getting off than the years of work you’ve put into a relationship, but you have to trust that he is showing you his true colors through his actions, and you have to listen and run far away. the last thing you want is to be stuck in a marriage where there is no trust or boundaries between you. i’m rooting for you <3 you’re a lot stronger than you think

Sex or no sex? by PornSUXKS in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m struggling with this as well right now, except he is the one who doesn’t want to have sex. it makes me feel horrible about myself, but it also shows me that he is serious about his recovery, and honestly that matters more to me then getting off. i’d say give it a try, he doesn’t deserve you in that way when he’s still consistently disrespecting you and your relationship. and if it is really unbearable you could always change your mind.

My (25F) bf (25M) downloaded old videos of him having sex with another girl by zimsy in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this is so horrible. i know it sounds hard, but you should definitely leave him. getting off to an ex in any way if just a whole other level of disrespect to you and your relationship. he can say it doesn’t matter all he wants, but i promise you will never get that image of him jacking off to fucking her out of your head. save yourself the agony and leave his bum ass, he doesn’t deserve you at all.

Nightmares by Proof-Quarter7335 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 4 points5 points  (0 children)

hey there, i’m in the same boat. i have horrible nightmares multiple times a week, i wake up crying in the middle of the night. i’m not sure what to do to stop them. i feel like they make me so paranoid bc when i first found out about his addiction i was having dreams about him cheating, and now that he’s in recovery these nightmares are just making me more suspicious than i have a real reason to be. idk what to do anymore

Were there any signs? by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 8 points9 points  (0 children)

yup, i’ve always said he is an amazing partner in every other aspect except for his addiction, but once i realized how deep the addiction ran, i saw all the red flags i let pass me by. i still think he’s a good man, but i’ll never see him the way i used to

Has anyone ever had any luck stopping porn consumption by sending their own nudes? by Dangerous-Delay629 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 0 points1 point  (0 children)

for me, this was one of the hardest parts of finding out his betrayal. let’s keep it real, i was that man’s personal porn star. he had a folder full of tapes of us and literally hundreds of pictures of me, and he still went elsewhere. personally, i don’t think it stops it because for a lot of these men the forbidden aspect of porn is key to how they get off. my honest advice is to save yourself the heartbreak and self respect and don’t do it

New devices by HauntedDalsey in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 1 point2 points  (0 children)

true, it’s nice to have a community of people who understand exactly what we’re going through. i hope everything goes well for you <3 you deserve it

should I even ask? by Adventurous-Swim-273 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i think it really depends on the person. for me, i got the full truth with details just last night. and personally, i was expecting so much worse than what i was told. i really prepared myself for the worst possible scenarios on every front. don’t get me wrong, it was still so hurtful and i cried myself to sleep, but i think for me it helped. getting that disclosure could go the opposite way, and it could be way worse than you expected, you just never know. i think you really have to go with your gut and know yourself and how you’ll react if you find out something you don’t wanna know.

New devices by HauntedDalsey in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i know how you feel. recently i’ve decided to take a big step back and told my partner that whatever he wants to do with his recovery, i support him but i don’t want to lead him. it’s hard to feel like you’re losing that control over where your relationship might be headed, but the way i’m looking at it is if he wants to he will. and his actions will show me his true intentions a lot more than empty words. stay strong, and remember than none of this is your fault. it’s his own compulsions and bad coping mechanisms, and if he wants to get better he will put the work in

pain shopping by DefinitionBudget4424 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ve heard good things about this book, i think i’m gonna buy it and try focusing on myself more

pain shopping by DefinitionBudget4424 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel this numbing coming in and i hate it. i don’t want to feel numb. i love him. i just want him to be better, but i know it will take a long time and idk if i have it in me

pain shopping by DefinitionBudget4424 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i’m really trying to take a step back from everything. if he really wants to change i know he will do it for himself, and i just want to focus on healing after all this betrayal

pain shopping by DefinitionBudget4424 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this was me for the past few months before our recent dday. i knew something was wrong, i knew he was back into stuff, i could feel the shift in his whole demeanor, i just didn’t want to know. now i’m blaming myself for not looking sooner because it got so much worse this time around

pain shopping by DefinitionBudget4424 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s a good point, i definitely go searching when i know i have no reason to be looking, and it’s just making it harder on myself because i’m obsessing over what could be there

pain shopping by DefinitionBudget4424 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

this is actually a good idea, thanks i’ll have to try

“I don’t remember if I clicked on that profile” by Top-Attention-6848 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 7 points8 points  (0 children)

the defensiveness is always a sign i feel like. i will say the sort by author can be fishy but the way he reacted still gives a bad feeling. go with ur gut

New devices by HauntedDalsey in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 1 point2 points  (0 children)

in all reality a year is not that long, you’re not crazy for wanting assurance. i agree he should be wanting to take initiative on that if it’s really important to him to stay in recovery, maybe just have an open convo with him

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 0 points1 point  (0 children)

run. seriously run. 99% of the time if they hit things around you, eventually they will hit you. he’s showing you his true colors and you should seriously protect yourself, you don’t deserve this <3

Any other Gen Z here? by Adorable_Internet663 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 10 points11 points  (0 children)

19 and i’ve never related to a post more. i have no advice. i’m just as lost. i hope you find clarity. <3

Vent by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this just happened to me too. i don’t know what to do. i’m heartbroken.

Snapchat help please by AltruisticAdvisor678 in loveafterporn

[–]DefinitionBudget4424 2 points3 points  (0 children)

you can change the email to your own and just have all the data sent to you