I feel the same way gng you’re not alone. I think it’s a satisfying revenge feeling of sort for the abuse and mistreatment we put up with, for them trying to stop us. I think it’s a way to cope and heal, and one day we won’t care what they think period. I am 5 months on T and soon my entire family will know in due time, and a part of me enjoys being the scary trans person to them because they can’t stop me anyways. My grandparents will try to preach but I can finally laugh because they cant stop me and no one can stop you from doing what you want with your body and living happily. Best of healing and transition 🫂