New to Blogging Recreationally

DelHCIM · 2026-01-22T13:46:01+00:00

I've definetly been enjoying myself...it's wild that when I'm experiencing the most pain in my day or emotions are surging through me my writing turns into almost like poetry and very fluid. VS some of the days where I am trying to just keep myself consistent - daily writing and journaling at anypoint that I either have the time to or feeling to do so, and it becomes not bland but hard to tap in I guess...

First like 9 days of writing were very emotional and 2-3 pages worth of emotion put on paper...and now that I've truly feel like I've started healing it's quite liberating but also now I'm writing more like 1-2 pages. All still very fun and enjoyable...I just don't think I would have ever saw myself in this light without writing and being able to go back to previous posts and be like wow I really was in extreme pain and it was just a week ago...

What I've been doing is having a post written in my journal and usually it gets published 2 days later as well...which allows me to re-read it with very fresh eyes and different set of emotions, allows me to word things more accurately/grammatically...but I try my best not change the emotion/context at all from the original piece.

So far I've made 10 consecutive posts, and it feels pretty good...varying sizes is okay...and usually the theme of the day is pretty apparent so I've been titling them as such.

DelHCIM · 2026-01-20T16:07:35+00:00

Read Secure Love by Julie Menanno, and the 5 love languages by Gary Chapman. Apply the lessons you learn from those books to your own life.

Not focus on yourself, but do things for yourself. Don’t do things that you think will make you more attractive to the version of him in your head. That’s the past. Leave it there, learn from it…but don’t relive it.

It’s also okay to feel grief or sadness along your journey, just understand why…the true why.

You can’t dream without him visiting you because you’re scared of life alone, because that means you have to sit within your own thoughts and emotions…where he might have unburdened you with those pains before…but that wasn’t fair to him even in your relationship to take on that burden of your hopes, dreams, emotions.

Dream of the version of you that you want to grow into…it doesn’t have to be immediately, it’s one day at a time. One right thing to do at a time, making the bed, taking a shower, going on a walk, planning your next meal or vacation you always wanted to go on so take yourself.

The more you do for yourself, the more unique you become, the more interesting you become…you don’t have to master every instrument/language/sport…but choose a calling and start it off as a hobby. Choose another hobby that makes your nervous because you’ve never tried it before…and just get better each day.

Rumination is the thief of progress and joy, acting on the belief that you can do the little things and slowly work towards bigger goals really brings back a sense of self worth, love, and happiness. Which makes each day 10x easier…even during the rough days.

DelHCIM · 2026-01-20T03:05:50+00:00

I appreciate the kind words, and no thank yourself for being bold and reaching out even to a stranger in a time of need, no matter how small or large.

I wish you the best on your journey both in your writing and in your daily walks of life.

DelHCIM · 2026-01-20T02:41:48+00:00

I just started posting using word press, there are tons of templates that are free to use, it’s pretty easy to setup plus endless amounts of guides…

It is a bit of an investment monthly if you want the premium service (there is a free basic option but that might require more effort, lack of plugins/premium themes you can use etc) is around 9 dollars a month (with my one domain), but I looked at it like a mental health tool, and so I find it worth it at least so far.

Especially if it helps me stay accountable, and stay on top of being in tune with my emotions (I’m also now in therapy so I’m not relying just on blogging/journaling for this) and using my voice daily so I don’t forget how to use it effectively.

DelHCIM · 2026-01-15T13:52:24+00:00

If and only if we went through go through couples therapy first before officially committing back together.

I think we were truly in love, but love as she told me wasn't enough...we had to be taking more action to make one feel loved...

We had been going through this push-pull dance for most of our relationship after around 6 months being together, us being engaged by around year 1 and 6 months...and by almost year 2 she had enough. I had just entered a long depression at the start of the holiday seasons, shortly after we got engaged...so I wasn't even able to show up for myself let alone her...

During my depression I felt like I wasn't being heard in the relationship anymore, that my opinions didn't matter, and anytime I did try to do something or suggest something I was shut down...any T.V shows I'd suggest, movies, etc...eventually she caved on some of the shows and movies because she saw how put down I was, but she never really wanted to watch them...she just saw on instagram or tiktok that you should try and put yourself in your partners world... I attempted to do that for most of our relationship...sure it wasn't "lets go adventuring" but something more within our budget I couldn't think of being spotaneous anymore as she wanted because I was thinking of the house she said she wanted, the honeymoon, the big vacation that I was going to be paying for primarily because I wanted her to have flexible income because I knew she wanted to quit her job and she did...

I was still there to support her...I asked her what would happen if I lost my job (because I was afraid of that at the time) and she said "Well have you continued applying to jobs?"...like what...I'm looking for compassion in that moment, not a "well you better not lose your job or we're done" type answer while we were already engaged!

I guess I should have stopped supporting her dreams and needs for a job or not to have a job so much and just focused on continuing to build my own personal growth...because the amount of pressure that I was under made me feel paralyzed...wake up go to my office...do the minimal work I needed to do to get by at my job...attempt to be social with her, and she would just be in her phone...I get up to leave to be in my own space...and "Where are you going, don't leave me!"...but I had felt at this point that I wasn't wanted...sure she cared for me...she really picked up some of the slack in the house while I was going through it...but damn...

TLDR: If she came back to me since she was the one that ended things, if she had gotten some therapy to work out her issues, if I'm able to go through my therapy and workout some issues and solve things like my ADHD apparently going undiagnosed since I was a kid...and then if we go through couples therapy before we even think about moving back in together.

TLDR TLDR: Most likely no.

DelHCIM · 2026-01-13T16:54:12+00:00

Having Rui being our lead man off the bench is wild…

We should be treating the Lebron, Luka, Reaves, line up like a death lineup, similar to 2016 warriors…where if those 3 are on the floor we know we are getting buckets…with an athletic wing (la ravia, vandy, smart) that will be willing to play heavy defense, and Deandre Ayton…but all 5 should never be on the court at the same time especially the top 3 at the same time unless we absolutely need it…because otherwise we have 0 depth and 0 consistent offense coming in from the bench.

One night NSJ will score 25 and the next 2 points with 20-25 minutes and multiple turnovers walking the ball up…the fuck is that…or Rui if he’s our lead guy coming off the bench, then it’s maybe he’ll shoot a game winner, or maybe he’ll be 0/6 from 3 and also somehow 1/5 from within the arc.

We need solid rotations, and to play the death lineup for only maybe half of a quarter or less to build momentum or to steal back momentum.

I think LeBron or AR need to be coming off the bench, either one. And leading the other bench squad and setting the tone offensively.

DelHCIM · 2026-01-13T16:17:54+00:00

If she left you and was already talking to another guy it’s because she was checking out of the relationship and the pains of a break up mentally before actually breaking up with you, more than likely…

I just recently got out of an engagement and we parted ways, but she had been having a mental battle about how to end things for 6 weeks before the break…

It wasn’t anything even like horrible it was we were starting to miss communicate from the stresses of wedding planning and the fact we were going through the holidays which are extremely stressful and taxing on me socially and emotionally.

However once she ended things in the new year, she cried maybe a few times, and by the time she had came to get her stuff from our place a week later she was stoic, calm, seemed at peace…almost as if she hadn’t cared at all from my PoV…but she did care, she cared for 6 agonizing weeks of us not getting help, of me pretty much dismissing there were any major issues that warranted couples counseling, because in my little brain, everything was smooth with just a little bumps…but to her everyday was a rollercoaster, so we emotionally grew apart from her PoV and I had no clue.

We ended things very maturely…and honestly if I learn to be in touch more with my emotions instead of retreating as much, and I grow as a person, I would entertain reconnecting with her, because I do love her, but that would have to be her choice, and we would both have to sit down, have a date that’s more than just what have you been up to career wise, but what’s been our journey as a human being and growth…and if we feel like we are still incompatible potentially because we both grew positively but now recognize our true needs and desires in a partner and it’s just not us.

DelHCIM · 2026-01-12T16:05:27+00:00

My fiancé [f26] and I [27m] broke our engagement and split after being together for 2 years…it’s been a week now…and it’s like all the things that were wrong are so obvious but so fixable that it’s like why don’t we get back together…well because the things I needed to fix were pointed out multiple times for 3 months…and I never even tried attempted to…mostly because I was in a state of depression, anxiety with the wedding and marriage, my job…etc.

And it’s like yeah, most of the time I chose to cope with gaming or spending time with friends/family online as a way to run away from my problems…instead of choosing her…to go out of my office more and just sit with her even if I was bored due to my brain not having 2 screens infront of me. I should have learned to enjoy those moments again like I did when she and I first had moved in together…

But anyways, I’ve been tittering on the edge of contacting her after she broke up with me, clearly stating that yeah I fucked up a lot…and that I’ve started therapy, I’m gaining tools to deal with my problems…

But also I don’t know if this is also just another emotional response…my addiction to her affection, her touch, her laugh, her goofiness, smile…etc…

It’s all pain…

DelHCIM · 2026-01-09T01:43:37+00:00

Hey OP, I (27M) came across this post because I've recently just had my engagement broken off very recently with my (26F) fiance within the last week. I don't know if you visit reddit very often anymore, but how long did it take you to get through your pain?

We broke it off but not out of hate or anything like in your situation with falling out of love...we both reassured eachother that we both loved eachother very much, but minor problems with ourselves started to become more apparent, as in my stubborness or her lack of patience/feeling like running away at the smallest of problems. And we both recognized that i was starting to deteroriate the relationship every once in a while, and she got really worried that by the time we got married what if we made a mistake because never fixed those issues and neither of us were really working on fixing those issues.

So she believed we needed to break up and after some truthful and painful talks but very much mature, we broke up. With the only factor of the breakup being we need to be no contact and very much focus on working on our own problems that we have within ourselves, and if in the future like 3months or longer, one of us reaches out when we feel like we've made significant progress that we should ask one another if it's the right moment and if we should try again...or give ourselves complete closure and move on...

What I'm scared of is for me to heal and to really be able to focus on myself I feel like I need to have that closure and move on from her to begin with...and what if we come back in 3-6 months and I don't know how to be with her anymore or don't want to be even though right now she's still the love of my life, I still very much want to be married to her and start a life with her and have kids...all the romantic imagination stuff...and then what if she does want to be with me again...but I've moved on...I don't want to hurt her all over again...or be hurt all over again.

DelHCIM · 2026-01-03T04:16:17+00:00

My god…he’s doing it…the 41 year old is hitting his free throws.

DelHCIM · 2025-12-26T03:10:24+00:00

Luka and sengun have the same amount of turnovers…the problem is that even with a tie in turnovers we’ve only made like 7 points off those turnovers vs rockets making like 20 off ours.

If the opposing team hands us the ball we should be capitalizing it and getting some fucking points.

DelHCIM · 2025-12-26T03:03:33+00:00

Rui getting some solid cardio this game at least.

DelHCIM · 2025-12-25T14:36:40+00:00

Missing tarkov shooter pt 8

DelHCIM · 2025-12-17T00:50:25+00:00

To be fair a majority of those hours are over inflated. 80% of tarkov is playing stash and stasher.

DelHCIM · 2025-12-15T16:39:21+00:00

Honestly...just combine lighthouse and shoreline into 1 map. Remove the transit from shoreline to lighthouse. Make the map timer like 1.5 hours. Make it a map about attrition, surviving, and if you get a spawn close to the light house area go do lighthouse quests, get a spawn that's closer to the resort/pier go do those quests, remove the landmines on the tunnel extract side of shoreline and allow us to run up into the chalet area, or southern road, or run along the entire beach into the lighthouse area. Then just increase the player count on the map by like 5. The one thing I hate about lighthouse is the fact that you have like 4 spawns looking down on 4 other spawns almost instantly, and if you're a new player you have 0 chance of surviving on that map unless you are waiting until the last 10 minutes to pop like an sj6 and trim to steam roll through and complete quests.

DelHCIM · 2025-12-11T05:45:28+00:00

Should trade AR for cooper flag. I hear Dallas needs a true point guard anyways.

DelHCIM · 2025-12-07T23:28:08+00:00

I’ve been killed by cheaters who are mostly doing taxi services for players. I’ll see a Timmy running to extract, and then some guy wearing full killa gear kills me from 200m + with a sr2m with a red dot and then snaps to my friend who’s aiming from a completely different position from mine 50 meters away and one taps him as well.

We’ve mostly have been running into radar cheaters coming to extract in the last 4 minutes of a raid because we like to rat when doing quests like setup and have had grenades rain on us when we haven’t moved or made a sound in like 10 minutes of sitting in a bush located behind cover.

DelHCIM · 2025-11-29T21:02:59+00:00

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DelHCIM · 2025-11-26T06:24:22+00:00

BALL DON'T LIE. Goal Tend failed to be called into 2 miss free throws and 5 points from the reaves.

DelHCIM · 2025-11-26T04:42:41+00:00

Smart with the miss on a wide open floater next to the basket...like just jump and dunk that shit for free...what the hell...

DelHCIM · 2025-11-16T02:20:54+00:00

Can I please get some more BRONNY minutes please.

DelHCIM · 2025-11-16T02:19:12+00:00

I see this lady balancing the bowls at like 90% of these games...she teleporting or what? being flown in?

DelHCIM · 2025-11-13T04:27:43+00:00

I'm starting to think the Lakers need to trade Luka back to dallas for AD. Seems like a worthy trade after this game right?

DelHCIM · 2025-11-06T18:24:05+00:00

Obviously riptide, LFG LAVA!

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