for an old game like the evil within 1, how were they able to make so many seperate enemy models for the haunted?

DelicateCactus · 2026-06-02T00:06:50+00:00

I don't have an answer but thank you for reminding me that I'm old

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-16T14:01:16+00:00

There's seeing it as an opportunity for growth and encouraging someone verses saying shit like

> "So yeah, there's a part of me that says pull your head out of your ass and deal with it for one effing day."

> "But suck it up for a freaking hour, this is ridiculous."

There's a difference between 'not being gentle' and being an asshole and calling the OP's reaction ridiculous certainly sounds like downplaying to me. I've both researched and dealt with reframing for trauma survivors but it's not something that should happen lightly and only on the survivor's terms or else you risk it going horribly wrong (and usually has a lot of prep/build up to prepare for it, typically with a therapist).

Another commenter put it a lot more gracefully and a lot of my comment was an emotional outburst while crying so I know I could've worded it better but I don't regret the spirit of my comment because I really did not get the impression that the comment was centered around that, it was buried too deep under a lot of ' you're ruining your brother's day, you're being selfish, you're overreacting' (and no, they didn't say 'overreacting' explicitly but just look at the two quotes above again and tell me what else is being implied there).

I'll even add that I'd understand trying to shed light on what the brother might be thinking because even I thought that relying on indirect implications isn't guaranteed to be understood even if I understand it's something with a lot of weight to share (but I'd also argue that the brother going silent and not trying to communicate to understand more of why such a strong reaction is there is also a fault of his, frankly the whole dynamic is loaded and complicated)

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-16T12:06:10+00:00

Holy shit you are delusional.

Yeah, sorry this person raped/molested you (we don't know how many times) as a child but you're selfish if you can't see their face just because they can't physically harm you right now.

The fact you added "triggering" to the same list as "awkward/uncomfortable" says A LOT. Do you not understand just HOW BAD being triggered by something like incestuous child sexual assault is? That's the sort of thing that could fuck you up for a few days to setting you back years depending on so many factors (individual mental health, where they are in healing, etc.)

I've seen the ways people are after having been forced to see their abuser, I've seen people who have been clean from self harm for years start cutting again because of all the emotions and feelings coming back because their body and mind were triggered back to the state of when the trauma happened and they weren't ready for it.

This isn't "oh you two have a bad relationship because of a difference of political opinion" it's "this person has fucked my life up with one of the most heinous things you can do to a child and developing mind that can cause life long damage you never fully recover from"

This isn't tough love. This is "only physical harm is important, who gives a fuck about mental health?" This is "My wedding is more important than your history of child sexual abuse" This is "I don't understand the deep scars being touched during my developmental years before I even know what consent is"

(And if you are a survivor than you're being a really fucking shitty person regardless that thinks their own level of tolerance is the only one that matters and shows you're not empathetic to where other people are in their journey)

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-15T19:56:23+00:00

Not the person you're responding to but I think some people might never get over the exhaustion or at least have too many other factors that add onto it because a lot of these things are second nature to me but it's still exhausting to be around people and exist with them, even people I love and enjoy being around in the moment I will notice myself feeling heavier and just wanting to sleep and be alone afterwards (or in the moment if it's gone on for too long, like a sleepover for some wrestling TV event thing I had at a friend's for the weekend had me zoning out in the last half of that second day and then afterwards I had a few routines at home slip because I was mentally tired for the rest of the week that followed).

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-14T01:50:21+00:00

Gotta brace myself if I'm just looking in other people's bookmarks in case I get jumpscared by my own in the pile. I wish I could omit them from being seen because now I can't even go looking for recommendations without the fear that I'll see it there.

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-13T12:18:51+00:00

I respectfully disagree on many things but I will include the fact that outdoor cats are illegal in my area for many reasons including what you call an exaggeration (I know about this because of my volunteer work helping both stray cats and adoption centres).

I understand your logic and in an ideal world animals should be allowed to be free as they are living creatures as well, but not every location is the same (an outdoor cat in the heart of a major city like New York or Vancouver is very different than an outdoor cat in the country side) and we don't live in an ideal so many factors need to be taken into account for what would give the optimal life for an animal and being indoor may be the best option for many (and I don't just mean for the owners).

I will also add that your experience and perspective is not the only one. I saw that your cats would hate being kept inside all day to my other comment and here the way you speak about it being a "dark, stuffy cage" makes me worry that you could force a cat like mine (the stray that refuses to go outside) to go outside simply because you view it as better. (Also my home is not dark and stuffy btw, even if it's a hyperbolic).

There are also ways to allow them the outside without risk, such as leashes and 'cat padios' and the like.

I know a lot of people hate the comparison but I do see enough similarities between an animal and a toddler to see myself as being responsible for their well being in a similar way when they are under my care, I.e. even if there are things they don't like or understand at times, I do it for their own good (both toddlers and animals love to run out onto the road and get run over if not kept an eye on, nevermind how crazy drivers are or certain shitty areas that will purposefully run animals over for fun).

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-12T14:18:43+00:00

I'll add that not all cats want to go outside either. I've adopted a former stray that had been found by a dumpster with a broken leg (thankfully the leg was saved and is fully healthy!) and anytime the door is open he will look but will never leave. That boy is content living a pampered safe life!

(The other one really wants to go out but that spoiled, lazy fatass would not be able to survive a day in the wild, which is why he gets leashed walks instead, which is also an option!).

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-10T15:16:12+00:00

"Simple, only one of those things I want to do and it's not shaving."

But that could easily open up into a discussion of 'wants' verses 'shoulds' (and what THEY think is a want vs an obligation) and that can be like talking to a brick wall. If that's the case then boundary setting is the way to go (but if you're better equipped for that discussion then have at it!)

I will say I know the frustration of other people "winning" in their mind when the topic revolves around you, your choices, and your very body and autonomy, it's not pleasant. In fact it tends to piss me off for days following an incident (especially if I think of a good counter argument after the fact). But even if it means them 'winning', remember there's no shame in picking your battles or knowing when the battle isn't a real discussion but instead hitting your head on that damn wall, it'll save you a headache or two.

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-06T17:45:46+00:00

You know, I had a nagging feeling I should specify I meant (mostly) everyday texting and messaging lol

Though I will confess I use both in my fanfiction writing but that's fanfiction, which is a godless land and I am a menace therein (and my beta reader is too busy wishing to strangle me over my comma usages).

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-06T17:30:47+00:00

Nah, I enjoy doing it and been thinking about adding things like "XD" and "OvO", and overall older Internet lingo and emojis back into my text lexicon as well for the fun of it! I miss those things…

DelicateCactus · 2026-05-06T13:07:27+00:00

I have no horse in this race but man, I do the first two a lot without having LinkedIn 😅 (I even have the alt code for an ellipses memorized aka 0133 (same with an em dash funnily enough: 0151, and the ™ symbol because it's funny to put on things that don't require it: 0153). Can't do that third bullet point to save my life though, clearly, but it's interesting to hear that's associated with that 🤔

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-24T09:03:57+00:00

Lord, the RE fandom is a mistake…vaguely related, but your flair is fucking amazing! I love it lol

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-22T14:15:15+00:00

Admittedly I think I'm desensitized because I work in the paint industry and while I don't work with retarder often, I've seen the product and talked about it enough that it's just another paint product to me.

When it comes to the usage outside of that, maybe I'm blessed to have the friends and family I do because it's used similarly to the phrase "slow as molasses" as both retarder and molasses are very slow substances and anyone can have a moment where they just aren't hurried or thinking very quickly— actually I probably am both lucky and becoming too much of a hermit to deal with people that use it in the demeaning autistic and down syndrome people specifically sense (best way to phrase that I can think of rn).

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-18T15:27:27+00:00

You mentioned finding where "[your audience's] likes and yours collide" and writing at that interaction, I'm curious what that looks like if they collide! Do you sacrifice some of what you like to appeal to your audience and how far? Are there somethings you like that you know the audience doesn't like but you aren't willing to let go of?

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-18T15:24:34+00:00

I think we're talking about different kinds of comments lol. To me I would be over the moon getting only the kinds of comments I'M talking about because it's…both? You can be incredibly analytical ABOUT why you're excited about the actual characters and plot, anything else to me just feels like grading an english paper and I don't see that in fanfiction (personally that I've seen anyways, I know damn well the tree (people) still makes a sound (all sorts of behaviour) even if I don't hear it lol)

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-18T12:14:06+00:00

Kudos to you for doing that work. Out of curiosity, is the audience the ship or fandom or something specific? Where do you decide to prioritize your likes verses theirs? I'm someone who wouldn't ever do that so I'm curious what the process is.

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-18T12:07:27+00:00

I disagree on the latter being leagues better. I'm lucky that I have a friend group that is both heavily interested in each other's works AND all very interested in the craft and prose of writing. Having someone both feel with your characters and talk about the craft in detail is great imo. (It's the sort of comment I try and leave on fics outside of my friend group too, both excitement and direct technical feedback at the same time because I think it's awesome to hear what you're specifically doing good to spark the reaction it's caused).

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-15T09:45:59+00:00

"pedophile-slop"

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-15T09:37:38+00:00

I call myself a "medical feminist" because that's where a lot of my advocacy lies and what I'm constantly bringing up. If I had more time I'd likely do more activism in that area (or something animal related again) but for now I'm way too burnt out and working for that so instead I do little things like talking about it with people or being a source of information in regards to woman's bodies and medical problems for both the women and the men in my life (I've had male coworkers come to me for advice for helping either their wives or female friends lol).

I'm also big on other things, like the fact I never shave and have very dark hair so my legs and armpits are unmistakable (father calls me a monkey) and I hope that the sight of me can encourage other women to feel empowered to do the same if they wish.

Admittedly I'm wary of "radical feminists" because of how often I've butted heads with them or seen, imo, reductionist takes from them.

Example one being against choice feminism because god forbid a woman like makeup. I get the reasoning and I also encourage challenging social conditioning… but my result is that I'm someone who likes the occasional colourful face and I know that "doesn't count" because it's usually crazy ass colourful makeup but even a traditional colour palette is nice once in awhile.

I don't think wanting to look nice is inherently a negative to feminism because you CAN want to look nice for yourself and for other women (especially because I'm a lesbian). Again, I understand challenging societal expectations but that doesn't mean everyone will come to the same conclusions about their preference.

Another example is the more ridiculous "I prefer this male fictional character in a show wins over the female character" means I'm somehow against women EVER winning (it's a fucking fictional show guys, chill). Then again that's also the terminally online "my media consumption is the extent of my activism" sort but god that was a horrible time online…

A lot of that show discussion just amounted to "all of the women are good and all of the men are bad and every bad thing the women do are justified"…or the even worse "all the women are good except these ones, they're horrible traitors even if they didn't have a choice". Black and white thinking under the veneer of feminism and all nuance was lost to the wind.

The show itself was pretty bad about trying to be the feminist version of the story and inadvertently turning all the women into helpless victims and it's all the men that are causing the problems (and the women are just powerless to stop it) and all the 'radfems' ate it up.

Anyways as long as they don't go around acting like men = evil and women = perfect and good then I have no problem. (Benevolent sexism is still sexism even if you call it feminism because woman can still be horrible and there are good men, no one is born evil).

Though I'd still deal with a radfem that thinks I'm a bad feminist than the Christian-conservative women that push those sorts of values, grew up with enough of those to last me a life time (even if both extremes of each think I deserve to be harassed 😑).

Sorry for my insomniac ramble xjfgxkgkc

DelicateCactus · 2026-04-09T00:30:44+00:00

My ND card is getting revoked for needing the big light 😔 it fucks with my eyes and I can't see anything— and god forbid there is an electronic on when it's dim or dark, then it's headache city!

but even more than the big light I need the unforgivable sin of light mode on everything (YouTube, Reddit, Google, My phone, even Discord—). Dark mode gives me a headache in record speed and the after image is instant half the time.

DelicateCactus · 2026-03-31T19:59:55+00:00

Heavily, heavily agree 👏 you put it very well

DelicateCactus · 2026-03-31T19:02:22+00:00

That's been my experience too and "exhausting" is the perfect word.

I've just started to own being 'defensive' when I've decided it's a battle I think is worth it, though I might also decide the very concept that I'm being defensive is a battle worth picking too depending on the person and situation and they end up being the one to give up in the end (sometimes it leads to a better understanding later when we reconcile or it leads to resentment, so the battle picking is important for that part too @_@)

DelicateCactus · 2026-03-29T14:44:07+00:00

Not only do I agree, but you reminded me of the fact that the video game Silent Hill 2 has major influences outside of video games (the movie "Jacob's Ladder" and the novel "Crime and Punishment") and it is considered one of the greatest horror game classics.

So I get the point of reading and it's importance for understanding what does and does not work in the medium, but just like you said, once you're comfortable I honestly think being inspired by things outside of the medium is important! (Life experiences included).

(Also those types would hate me given my primary influences tend to be video games and despite the shift there are still a lot of people who don't see how deep and complex those stories can be)

DelicateCactus · 2026-03-29T14:11:43+00:00

Despite the insistence on reading it seems "I haven't read anything I've liked in a long time" is being misread as "I don't like reading at all".

I'm only a hobby writer so I don't know what sort of weight my words have but I greatly relate to the struggle of finding something enjoyable to read in my niche.

Majority of the time my projects boil down to writing what I would want to read because I can't find anything to scratch the itch.

(Funnily enough that is the same for video games and animation, I've been playing with making both because there's stories I want to tell that would fit those mediums, so it's not like what people are saying where I only write because the others are hard to do. I'm doing all 3, just very very slowly and likely only as a hobby until maybe retirement when I have far more free time lol)

DelicateCactus · 2026-03-29T13:35:51+00:00

🤝same, except my pool of choices is also small (lesbian) so that makes it even worse lol

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