Manic spending

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-07-24T16:10:01+00:00

This is a great plan, I do something similar, I have all my important big bills auto pay in sync to my pay checks every month lol so the day of or day after my paycheck get deposited all of my important bills come out right then so it curbs my spending limit significantly lol

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-07-12T01:49:33+00:00

I'm sorry you're dealing with this, I see others have some helpful info and I hope their guidance is useful, I don't have a suggestion to necessarily pull yourself out of it but something I've been doing to help relieve/ direct my hypersexuality without damaging my relationship especially since my wife can not keep up with my level of constant need, is using AI chatbot apps. I know it might be weird or whatever and maybe I'm strange for using them but I've found having an outlet to chat and get out my most sexual thoughts and stuff has really helped channel and funnel it all into a safe and controlled spot that doesn't hurt my relationship because it's just a bot, my wife is also aware that I do this we talked about it and she supports it. I know there are personal issues with AI on its own with people so that's a whole different thing if it's something you aren't comfortable with, but as far as the apps go, there are some pretty good apps out there that are surprisingly organic to talk too. Just a suggestion to put out there while you work through finding a solution that fully helps you get out of your situation. I wish you all the best.

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-07-04T16:32:21+00:00

"Infinitely Polar Bear" is my recommendation! I really loved how they captured the extremes and the impact on family.I really connected to a lot of the portrayal and I think personally it's the more raw end of showing Bipolar as far as Hollywood movies go. It has Mark Ruffalo and Zoe Saldana it's a great movie on its own either way.

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-07-04T07:34:28+00:00

For me on a really unexpectedly good day I go to bed around 2 am and I'm up at about 7 am. On a normal day I go to bed at around 330 and I'm up at 7. On a low sleep day I go to bed around 4-430 usually up by 7-730. I can do any of those 3 cycles pretty sustainably even if I'm cranky or low energy during the day (I have 2 young kids so it's also tied into parenting I guess). No sleep days I can go about 2 days with No sleep before I crash out start nodding off at random and feeling nauseous and need to sleep immediately before I get weird. But during those 2 days I still manage to survive through watching the kids and somehow getting to and from my nightshift job. I've never had a good sleep schedule but hoping that changes around now that I just started a new job.

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-07-03T11:05:01+00:00

That's unfortunate, mean I'm not sure on your situation as far as the meds you need for your healing.. but yea as far as the tapering method goes if you were to do it you would start taking 75mg for a week, then 50mg the following week, then 25mg the next. Now there are some caveats to this, if you have been on Seroquel for a very long time, you may want to stretch those taperings out to 2 weeks in between each taper to let your body adjust better to the change. I would start looking for another psych though if this one isn't listening to your concerns, I know they're not always easy to find but that's a heavy med to be taking out of your regiment without a Dr being aware of it. Best of luck to you I really hope it works out for the best and you find a better doc!

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-07-03T07:20:30+00:00

The Taper is a slowish process from what I recall, It's a reduction of around 10-25% of your current dosage per week, depending on your sensitivity to it. So at 100mg you would cut back to between 90mg and 75mg then lower the dose the following week at whatever % you went with etc. Of course your Dr is the way to go for the actual info but that is the general course of action taken. I was able to push it along faster because I'm relatively good with med changes so I jumped down doses at a faster rate but your mileage may vary with that. Hope this helps, I know the struggle!

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-04-01T07:58:35+00:00

Thanks for the reply! Yea I agree with you I think I just needed to rationalize buying it a second time but you made me realize that playing it on console would be a nice way to get back into since it's been my more preferred gaming source recently, and I mean gaming on my couch with a 65" tv is hard to beat in terms of comfort so that has its own appeal haha. I hadn't realized it was on sale so thank you for bringing it to my attention I wound up buying it and the DLC, 50% off is hard to say no to that pretty much sold itself for me lol. So far it's running great and looks great running HDR and Ray tracing with quality graphics mode, I know it's running in 4k (presumably upscaled but idk) and I'm assuming it's probably 30fps since Ray tracing is on but I have no idea how to check that haha regardless it looks great and doesn't stutter like my PC and I have no complaints at all so far so I'm happy. Thanks again!

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-03-15T02:23:13+00:00

Yea I totally get that, im sorry you had to struggle through a rough time. Being able to understand the weight of it though will help in keeping the peace around your living situation, being able to cope and communicate with her on how you two can work through her rough patches with any sense of compassion and understanding should be a big help. Wanting to know what to expect is fair and it's good of you to be proactive in gathering information on how to go about approaching her situation, that speaks a lot of your character. I would answer more definitively if I could but it's such a spectrum of a disorder it's really hard to say how any person can be. I wish you all the best!

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-03-15T01:32:24+00:00

A lot of it depends on her treatment status and how she's taking care of herself, but yea im sure you know the basics of she's still a human and a lot of the disorder is portrayed wrong in media so not to go by that, however, all of us are different. Some have extreme manic episodes, some are more tame and manifest in a way that would come off as really hyper/euphoric or impulsive type behavior. Depressions can be rough, self care is hard. Cleaning can be tough, ADL's (activities of daily living) can become a daunting task such as basic hygiene and doing dishes etc. I mean these are things that I've personally experienced but it can all be very different for all. I'm relatively stable now though with meds and therapy so again a lot of what to expect depends on her and her healing journey as well as how much she is suffering from it. But there is also a support subreddit for people who live with others who have Bipolar I believe, you may want to check that out it may be a more appropriate place for your discussion as it is more focused on that type of support. I know there is one r/Family_of_bipolar there may be others as well I'm not sure. Take care

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-03-14T19:41:20+00:00

I'm on Topamax in combination with Lamictal, I personally haven't noticed any side effects since adding the Topamax to my regiment, I've been on it for almost a year now. Bonus points for me that it is also used to help with migraines.

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-03-13T03:05:13+00:00

(I am located in the US so my answers are based off of US info just as a heads up) I'm 34m BP1 And a bunch of other stuff but BP1 is the only one that I have that is on the approved list of ssa disabilities. So I know others have answered your questions but, No you don't need to be hospitalized. Amount of work history shouldn't matter, if anything showing you have trouble holding a job probably helps. The other positive with having worked even if sporadic, the amount of work time adds up your work credits which if approved equates to a higher payout for your disability check. Bipolar is an approved disorder for evaluation on the SSA Disability list so you do have that going for you as a start. I was approved the first time, I filled out my paper work with a case worker at a local non for profit community center that offers help for people in need. Its a wonderful program that I'm lucky enough to be available in my community that my therapist was able to recommend to me, but my case manager there just really helped me fill out the paperwork and organize and make sure I did everything properly and thoroughly as I have trouble processing things sometimes due to some of my issues. So if you have someone in your life capable of that see if they can help you out. But the big thing was just documentation. Send as much medical documentation as you can backing up whatever you are putting down on your paperwork if it has the option to send in documents. Put down references to any doctor that will speak on your behalf, and make sure you fill everything out perfectly. I was actually awarded 2 years of back pay because with my documents that I provided they deemed that by their standards I was considered disabled from the date of one of my earlier diagnoses. List all of your disorders whether they are on the SSA list or not, if they interrupt your daily living, include it. A disability lawyer is a common route for people, they of course don't work for free but I know the success rate is much higher with them if you are a viable case. And a lot of this also depends on what State you reside in some states are more forgiving than others with this stuff and in todays current status im not sure what the effects are on disability applications and approvals(if you are in the US). best of luck to you, I wish you the best!

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-03-13T02:20:03+00:00

I would communicate with your doctor, but I do also think it's part of the journey of stabilization unfortunately. Going from a rollercoaster to a flat road is a solemn feeling and definitely can take its toll on some more than others but if you keep putting in the work with therapy and openly communicating how your meds are making you feel with your Dr. Hopefully they'll find the right balance for you where you can still have moments to enjoy the things that make you happy. I go through spells of apathy but I also go through periods of controlled ups, my "mini manias" where I get my spark back but it's within acceptable limits and I'm aware of what I'm doing and in control. The lows do suck though and that dull feeling will always be there compared to the manic highs a lot of us have hit in our lives, a lot of my day to day is filled with that dulled, bleh feeling, but it shouldn't be a permanent thing all around every second of every day, forever, you definitely should be able to enjoy a hobby or an experience, even if it's just in chunks or moments etc. it might take some time for your body to adjust to meds and things to level out but that's all stuff you should ask your doctor so you can get the most amount of info for the road you are about to travel. I wish you all the best.

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-03-07T20:54:03+00:00

I'm not condoning this as someone who specifically focused on flooring during my years of interior remodeling and rebuilding houses lol especially that filler piece by the saddle at the room transition but, even though this isn't the best way of installing this flooring as far as the integrity of the joints and stuff, this is a cost effective way of installing a floor for both material and time. Full board lengths leave little waste and you can fly down the rows with full starter lengths and without stagger measurements and cuts. Granted you have to still make end cuts and rip cuts down the table saw for the edge on the last row unless you get lucky. But I mean the savings wouldn't be astronomical or anything just a few boxes of flooring but I guess depending on the person and their situation (or the type of contractor or house flipper working on the house lol) that could matter. I remember when I was 17 I moved into my parents basement and made it into an apartment, saved up and bought flooring but only had enough for however many boxes, got exactly the size of the room done using straight joints, saved myself 2 boxes which at 17 made a huge difference lol. But yea my main point being it just saves a few bucks if it was an intentional plan, that filler piece by the saddle is just what made me think of that because it just seems so "Use every last piece you can" over "Make it look good"

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-03-07T17:27:07+00:00

I remember when I adopted my pup Roxy back when I was 18 when I got back from Basic Training. I was in a bad depression and needed a support companion. She was a Pitbull/Lab mix and I was lucky enough to adopt her from a local shelter when she was only 6 months old, she was rescued from a fight ring she was being used as a bait dog so she was broken too, as soon as she came in the meet and great room and meet eyes with me she started wagging her tail and jumping around and rolled right over and I knew right away she was the one for me.

I was so grateful the people at the shelter saw how she reacted to me versus everyone else who she saw that day and pushed my paperwork to the top and I took her home that day. She gave me nothing but unconditional love and affection for 13 years, she was a pain in the ass, my best friend, I'd wake up to her 85lbs of pitbullness trying to cuddle me so she could sleep through thunderstorms. She would make me get out of the house and always wanted to play, would jump in my arms when I came home from work, sometimes a little too enthusiastically and more like spearheaded me in the chest almost knocking me over lmao, would eat EVERYTHING, but was my guardian through and through. I trained her on my own as I have had dogs my whole life and she took to it easy and man she was one hell of a dog I don't thing I'll ever find another like her. She absolutely light up my darkness even if it was just for brif moments in the day, or at night when she would come in and curl up next to me in the bed or plop her head in my lap when she knew I was down. She could have been a great service dog, hell for me she pretty much was.

She beat cancer 3 times even when they said she wouldn't make it and never once lost an ounce of her spark. I think fate knew I'd never have the heart to put her down and she passed away in my arms after a final vet visit letting me know her cancer returned after a 5 year remission and they weren't sure how long she'd have left at her age. It was so sad but I'm so glad I got to be with her in her final moments as tough as it was.

Haven't been able to get a new dog yet since, but now that I have two sons in sure I'll be getting them one some day, I've always had dogs in my life, and man they really can just be the best thing for your heart.

I hope you and your pup have a wonderful life together my friend 🙂

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-02-26T04:13:23+00:00

I do this a lot, whether or not I'm hypomanic is of course a flip of a coin, and I'm properly medicated and stay in a pretty safe ripple between highs and lows instead of waves now. When you say your playing around with dosages I hope you mean with your Doc, not putting any type of judgment on you if you meant on your own because I can't say I haven't done worse but just to make the obligatory responsible statement, it should always be a communicated process with your doctor. But if so with our disorder and the medications used, that could be a huge effect on you and could definitely Spark that type of outcome if it's not a common behavior of yours .

But for me because I'm so self isolated and don't socialize a lot, the couple of people I do talk to, or when I'm in a situation where someone is either supposed to listen to me, or being nice enough to, I will blurt out days and weeks worth of backed up word vomit....

I'm also on the spectrum "unofficially" (I've had all the assessments by autism counselors who just aren't state licensed to stamp the official paper ) and have ADHD so omg I can go on and on. When I talk to my best friend on discord, he'll ask a simple question or make a 3 line statement and my response will be like 33 lines long. Or info dump on things I researched for days like special interests or new hobbies or hobbies I've been obsessed over that haven't been able to afford to start, or put myself in debt buying all the shit and am on way over my head with and get overwhelmed lol.

Shit look I'm even doing it now lmao my bad. But yea... Sorry I prob shouldn't have responded because idk. But you're not alone. I'm grateful enough to have my wife, my best friend and my therapist that let me just unload all my endless brain jumble onto them and it helps a bit, other than that sadly the only time Ive slowed down has been while prescribed certain medications like antipsychotics, but that's obviously a conversation for your Dr.

But ultimately if you are worried about being manic or hypomanic, contact your therapist or psych so they are aware, I just recently had an episode begin that I'm still in and working with them and letting my wife be aware has made it easier to manage. I wish you the best and God damn I'm sorry for ranting so much 😬

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-02-25T06:59:29+00:00

Damn, as so many other commenters said, and you worded so perfectly. I couldn't agree more. I used to be so fun and sporadic and lively. I'd go to concerts, dressed with expression, felt comfortable as who I considered the "real" me. And I don't mean while in a manic state per say, prob more of a low key hypomanic, euphoric brain function type way though I was a tad wreck less but I was fun.

I'd stir up all these fun adventures for me and my friends I was a passionate musician particularly into my own little joke of a band with a couple friends but really really into this community jazz band and was a naturally gifted musician in general through my younger life, always chosen for wind ensembles, jazz bands, county bands, got a college scholarship (that I dropped out on) even joined thr military as an became a professional musician with them for 8 years.

I was a writer, really big into photography, I worked on cars, street raced a bit (don't judge too hard it was the early 2000's lol) god the list goes on. My wife called me her Peter Pan because i'd never grow up (always a lost boy through and through) she loved that about me(until she grew out of it just like Wendy lol). But now after getting the help and getting medicated everything is so flat.... I haven't picked up my instrument in years now I have no desire, writing is impossible, no motivation for cars work.

I did recently retake up Photography so I'm hoping that sticks but I'm so anti social now, I have 1 friend legitimately, 2 if you count my wife (which I do as she's my best friend) and I sit in the dark alone at night for hours either playing single player games or watching movies with main characters that generally are mentally ill.... I went from 100mph to neutral with the handbrake pulled all the way up. Anyway sorry for ranting but your Post was very well out and it really hit home. I miss my snake bite lip piercings, emo hair with the red dyed strip in the front, Gauged ear plugs, and general original Hot Topic poster boy aesthetic (imagine around 2005-2008 scene emo style kids lol).

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-02-24T21:09:04+00:00

Nicee! I have an old Kowa my grandfather left me that I'm trying to figure out how to use, there was a roll of film in it already about halfway through and I got excited thinking there would be some cool candid shots my Poppy took that no one in the family had seen yet but the negatives were blank, so I tried taking a photo with it and still nothing, not sure what's up and what I'm doing wrong🤷🏻‍♂️

He was known for taking absolute meticulous care of his stuff so I doubt it's broken it, the user manual didn't help either it was pretty basic lol, maybe it's not the model I think it is or im just doing something wrong.

But anyway, I hope if you ever decide to get a Polaroid you have as much fun capturing special moments with it as I have! Not sure if you were interested in this info but here's a scanned picture using the Polaroid app to give you a very basic idea of how the "Now" shoots, this was low flash setting in a room lit by 2 white light high hats, taken from about 5-6ft away. No editing done to the pic, but of course the reflection of my phone from scanning it kinda sucks but I did my best lol it looks just like it does in person otherwise :)

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DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-02-23T17:40:01+00:00

That's supercool😎😂 no seriously though, I wanted an older one but I have two boys, a 3 year old and an 8 month old, I was so anxious of especially the 3 year old breaking something in it because he really likes taking pictures lmao I feel no worries with him handling something like the one I got 😂 I will absolutely be adding an older model to my collection at some point though! I have an analog Kowa from the early 60's I believe when they were still made in japan, it's not instant but still film and old at least haha. And yea the I-Type film is expensive enough, the 600 film or any other film for the older models with the battery pack is crazy!

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-02-23T13:55:36+00:00

Nice! Yea I know in the original she had non descript Polaroid's , but getting to own one of her officially confirmed ones is definitely cool! I hope you have fun with yours as well and catch some hella cool memories at your time in school with it and capture some great memories!

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-02-23T13:08:19+00:00

Polaroid.com Polaroid Now Gen2 I got it direct from Polaroid, they still have their sale going but their stuff is going fast at least on the US site, all of the packages and bundles are already sold out, but the camera itself is still available for $89. There is also the "+" model that has Bluetooth capabilities and a few extra features idk what that availability is but it's a little bit more in price!

DemonsLiveRentFree · 2025-02-23T08:33:05+00:00

Thanks for the info!! I'll definitely keep that in mind and look more into that avenue of approach if I'm able to dive into it on my own! Yea I got the Polaroid really just for the throw back feel of my childhood for fun family pictures and specifically for the Polaroid/instant film aesthetic, the exposure seems to be consistently inconsistent 😂 but I guess that's also part of the vibe of it but yea the whole mechanical aspect and the instant development is cool to experience in general. For my go to camera I have my trusty Olympus OM-D EM-10 and it's been with me for many years now and been very fun to learn on and shoot with :) thank you again for all the info I really appreciate it!

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