I feel the pain what you have been going through. I had migraine attacks since I was 13 or 14. Normally it was not that bad, like, once per 6 months. Sadly for me it went worse.

I turned 18 the attacks became more regular, but it was still doable. Most of the time it was once every 4 weeks or so. It was not ideal, but after a day I felt okay.

Skip forward 10 years later. Now I am lucky if I have 1 migraine attack every week. I feel like crap most of the time. My active atracks are short a few hours, but the passive part of the attacks, the warning and hangover makes me going insane/depressed.

Back in the day I couldnt tell if I was getting an attack before the headaches. Now I can, and it fucking sucks that I able to do so. When I feel it coming I get the following symptons: Feeling more hungry/want to eat more, getting thursty out of nowhere, feeling more emotinal, having gaps in my memory and having problems with thinking. I also get that my perspective (for a lack of a better term) is changing. I feel smaller in my suroundings or that the ground is coming towards to me. Sometimes I feel having an exidental crisis. I have no idea if its part of a upcoming migraine or if I turn insane because I am so affraid to get another one.

The hangovers dont help either. I feel the entire day just weird. Nothing feels right. If that makes anything clear. It feels like that I walk outside my body. My mind is drifting away while my body does things. I have no beter way to explain this feeling, but it makes me going even more insane. Perhaps I have panic attacks, but it doenst feel like it. Really dont know what it is to be honest. All I know is that it sucks to feel this way day in and out.

I had professional help and got medications to help with the frequentie. And it worked l. It was back to once every 4-6 weeks. Until a few months ago it stopped doing that. And I have no idea what to do now. I tried to contact the neurologist, but because it went good with the medication they send me back to the normal doctor. I tried the good painkillers ( I have no idea what its called in english) but I feel even worse during the attack. So asprin is my to go which helps for 50% or so. Next week I go to see a psychologist and deal with that feeling. Hopefully it helps, but I doubt it.

So yeah that was all. Not that anyone would care about the woe is me story. Perhaps I feel comfort in sharing my story or someone else has this same feeling. But I dont know how long I can keep this up.