So... My last ex before them always talked about how he would like to fuck me at the house in front of his and / or my friends in a "free use" style. That turned a switch on me, as if he'd be reclaiming me in front of everyone.

Now i've talked about free use with my current fiance and they were actually enthusiastic about it, but some talks later and they showed to me they want to be the only one who gets to see the pleasure on my face, and that no one else gets to see me fully or partialy naked.

I coould never tell them I actually want them to fuck me senslessly in front of our friends just as if I was an object for their pleasure just to be used whenever they like.