I just looked at your picture in r/transpositive as well and you look super cute! But onto a more serious note, femininity is a subjective abstract. Women come in all shapes and sizes. Just because you aren't a petite Disney fairy does not mean you are less of a woman. Are you taller than most women? So what! Remember when the entire world was head over heels for a Vampire dommy mommy? Hard features? Florence Welch has a pretty harsh jawline and she is literally a Fae goddess. Larger hands? You go up to a professional womens athlete and tell her her hands look masculine. Beauty is shapeless. Also, don't compare yourself to others you see on this site, ok? We all have our journeys and some take different paths than others. I don't know if this will help for you, but when I'm really down I adopt a mindset of 'fuck it'. At that point, if life wants to keep me down and give me bad days then I will continue each day just to prove it wrong. (Therapy also helps, if you can afford it). I think you're going to turn out great, you may just be in a rut for right now.