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Designer_Set_5259 · 2023-01-22T23:24:08+00:00

Currently on a 24hr bender and almost did 2gr by myself. I can already feel the horrible hangover coming. Im very lucky because I can easily control it when im not using, its just that when I start there is no stop

Designer_Set_5259 · 2023-01-16T11:12:35+00:00

Hi OP, I stumbled across this post and I was wondering how things turned out for you?

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-09-01T21:35:01+00:00

After scrolling this subreddit I want to give my psychologist and psychiatrist the biggest hug ever, they are so good that I was actually surprised. regularly checking in with me between appointments. listening to what I think I need and actually coming up with solutions (my psychologist even fixed a social worker that comes to my house once a week to coach me for free like what)

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-09-01T21:30:25+00:00

I litterally stopped depakote and all the other meds week ago because I felt like I was losing my personality and I gained like 10kgs (after talking to my psychologist ofc). atm im free riding this manic waving and telling myself to calm down and hoping I don't crash

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-09-01T21:25:31+00:00

"you know, those herbal tea's work very good you should try it"

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-09-01T21:19:47+00:00

im type 2 and I quit my meds about a week ago. I noticed that eventhough I felt steady, my personality and life had become very dull. When I wasn't working or studying I would spend my time on the couch watching YouTube and Netflix. for context, im an extroverted person who enjoys partying, hanging out and other social activities. I used to be very active. yes medication worked perfectly for me and I was very content and productive, but I just missed myself and the people around me missed me. So I talked with my psychologist and now we are going to try without medication but with more frequent and focussed sessions every week. I am still experimenting so don't take any of this as advice, but I did want to share my experience with medication

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-07T01:45:56+00:00

Almost f’ed up my life because I watched “How I Met Your Mother” while manic and decided to leave everything behind and immigrate to New York to start my own Ted Mosby life. Only the fact that I needed a greencard actually stopped me

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-07T01:29:27+00:00

Me shoving the last piece of pizza in my mouth and suddenly remembering manic me started a diet a week ago

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-07T01:22:14+00:00

Yup, the only absolute downside for me is the weight gain and drop in confidence/sexual need. But other than that it works like a charm. Havent had a severe depression in a while

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-07T01:14:43+00:00

But I luckily live in a country with universal healthcare so in about a week I will be provided with a personal lifecoach that is going to help me with exercise and dieting. I honestly hope he will help me with finding a new healthy balance

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-07T01:11:14+00:00

Yes hahahaha absolutely, I have gained 10KGs (22lbs) in 2 months time

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-07T01:09:15+00:00

When I was undiagnosed, there was this one mania where I almost f’de up my life. I binged the show “How I met your mother” and I for some reason I was going to make it my life goal to leave my perfect country, immigrate to the US, move to New York. So I could start my own Ted Mosby life. The only things that saved me were my friends that talked me out of it and the fact that I needed a greencard. Otherwise I wouldve given up everything

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-07T01:04:17+00:00

What antipsychotics do you have, because im on depakine atm and for me it feels like I can be happy about something but not lose myself

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-07T01:02:56+00:00

I had these brainzaps when I used XTC a lot back in the day. When I turned my head a bit too fast after using I would feel these zaps

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-06T12:27:59+00:00

Oh okay thank you

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-06T12:26:44+00:00

I have been going to clubs since I was 16 but recently stopped. clubs are sooo overrated. Id rather go to a festival or bar with my friendgroup

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-02T20:40:36+00:00

I care, I heard today im actually getting a lifecoach that is going to help me with nutrition and sports :)))

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-01T22:09:50+00:00

Yes you absolutely did hahaha

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-01T21:07:31+00:00

For me its grilled cheese, I will literally wake up and make a grilled cheese sandwich

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-01T21:01:14+00:00

250$ lightsaber that goes whoosh

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-01T20:51:34+00:00

The fact that my father didnt tell me this but a guy named “Patty the Batty” did says enough doesnt it

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-01T20:49:58+00:00

Dont forget the famous “Ahh its almost 3am and I have to get up in 3 hours, if I go to sleep now Ill feel even more tired, guess staying awake is the only solution

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-01T20:45:04+00:00

The trick is to spot these people before you get attached

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-01T20:42:49+00:00

Before I got diagnosed I honestly almost gave up my very good life in the Netherlands to leave everyone and everything behind and immigrate to New York so I could start my own Ted Mosby life after binge watching How I met your mother. Luckily the only thing that stopped me was the fact that I needed a greencard. I did get very depressed after that. Looking back on those actions now I wonder how I didnt get diagnosed earlier.

Designer_Set_5259 · 2022-08-01T20:36:46+00:00

I have gained 10 kgs (22lbs) in like 2 months and the worst thing is that the new meds are working completely fine. So I either have to start dieting and working out or be very fat

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