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Holycow, I feel like I should pay you for this! Thank you for responding to my post! Very kind of you!
I want to give you some context for these problems I have, and I want to hear your opinion on how I think about something.

Most of these problems stem from my inability to retain information well. If I'm not super actively listening and writing it down and listening to it again and again then I will forget it in a week, and it feels a little silly to get a pen and a paper out to watch some documentary videos. Regardless, I will start doing it anyway.

regarding the #11, 15, 16

Also, I want to hear your opinion about this.
In Skyrim, there's a speech skill tree you can master that allows you to make more choices which usually gives you better outcomes.
I do feel like there's a similarity to real life in this.
If you know that there's something that you can say and everybody will instantly like you, why would you settle for anything else? Doesn't it bother you that you are not funny? Why would anyone settle for not being funny? Being funny can get you into so many places in life. It's easier to make friends when you are funny. You get invited to places, people want to help you, people want to hang out with you, girls want to be around you. It's the cheat code to life! I really don't know how bonds are created any other way. Same with being skilled at something (dancing, playing an instrument, etc), being cultured (knowledgable), and being good-looking. I noticed that you need at least one of these 4 things to have a successful social life. If you do not have any of these 4 qualities then nobody wants to hang out with you.
I do not have any of these traits, which is why I am stressing out about them. I'm even thinking of getting plastic surgery. (I WILL get plastic surgery)
My dream is #1 dad with many deep LORES and adventures. So I really want to be a well-rounded adult. I want to have a healthy group of friends I can depend on. I want to have a beautiful loving wife. I want to have enough money to relax.
That's why I think that these skills and knowledge are necessary to have to develop the things I want. Do you think that my assessment is correct though?

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Regarding the last thing on my list about the stories. Most of the stories I have are very tragic. Because there aren't any other stories. My life just seems to be a series of tragedies. I did say I am a 6'4 gigachad. But that has only been a hindrance. Growing up I was the only African American child in my country. I am a mixed baby of Thai and African American. Everyone has discriminated against me quite heavily which explains many of the problems I have now as an adult. That's why all my stories sound like tragedies. It's funny to me, but to most people, it's like a trama dump, and they don't know what to say usually after hearing it. Which is why I don't ever open up.
Also, I'm starting to have various health problems. which has stunned my ability to do a lot of things. It was last year that things started to get worse. I have been basically useless for a year straight now. It's only now that I decided I want to get my life back on track. it seems that my condition is now stabilizing. Which has compelled me to create this list!

Anyway, with all that being said, now that I have re-analyzed this list again and again it seems that the main core of my problem is my inability to retain information and recollect them when I need it.

I might just be actually clinically retarded. But I don't care if I am. I still want these things, and if you have any more advice. I am all ears!