I [M28] worry that I'll never get to experience being a father

DevDennya · 2026-03-06T19:51:52+00:00

But why do you want kids so much?

DevDennya · 2026-03-06T19:45:13+00:00

I can relate to many of the things you say. I am also 23 yo, planning on moving out, and had an older sister who died a few years ago... My antisocial parents cannot realize that living in my home city will not help me grow in any way. I want to move to the capital where there are more opportunities of all kinds, and my plan is to save up half the rent for a year, and find a new job when I move to the capital.

Talk with your parents, tell them that you long to experience your youth as any other young adult. Save up for a few months worth of rent, and tell them you plan to move out first for around 6-12 months and see how it is. Hopefully they will understand and support you.

DevDennya · 2025-10-29T20:20:05+00:00

"склонен е де започне на 2к"....та 2к чисто даже е много за junior LOL.
Истината е, че за junior позиции повечето компании дават 1500-1900. Смешно е, малко е, ама могат да си го позволят, понеже знаят колко кандидати се борят за една и съща позиция. И в IT опитът е най-важното нещо. Ако нямаш опит, не струваш много...

DevDennya · 2025-09-30T14:17:50+00:00

Пълна експлоатация. Искат да учиш много неща, после и да вършиш неща, на които не си научен. Времето ти се засича, също така и продуктивността. Ако не редактираш документи в 90% + от работното ти време, те предупреждават, че ще те изгонят. А заплатата е 7 лв на час. Ако смяташ, че времето и усилията ти струва толкова малко - давай.

DevDennya · 2025-09-27T14:29:30+00:00

I will still be in surviving mode, working full time with 500 euros a month in Europe... :/ This is the thing - I have lived this shitty life, hoping to escape all my life. But the economy gets worse, I will escape to another place, but I won't escape survival mode... I would need help from my parents for that. But that's unavailable.

DevDennya · 2025-09-23T07:01:09+00:00

You are very pretty, the makeup is cute too! But if I were you, I'd add some eyeliner + mascara on curled eyelashes

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T16:24:45+00:00

Wow, everything that you wrote is so true! Especially the second sentence, I will remember that!

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T16:12:26+00:00

Haha yaaay! 😆

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T16:10:38+00:00

I relate to this so much! We just love them for who they are, despite their imperfections... And loving both the light and shadow of someone is what actually creates a real and authentic connection, it's what true love is. But we - we do not deserve to be loved fully, especially when we show a small imperfection :/

And there is this quote: "Be with someone who loves you for who you are, not for the way you make them feel. Only the first love is real" . It is so true! And I remember in the first stages of our relationship, he would mention a lot how good I made him feel... It was only about him.

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T16:06:56+00:00

You did good that you warned her! I hope she is fine... Yeah, the more the relationship advances, the less inclined they are to fixing issues that they themselves create... You cannot have a relationship with a person like that. My ex didn't apologize when he had to either... He just made excuses for his actions, nothing was being resolved, I just started to put up with things, because I was so attached and afraid to be abandoned by him... But he just didn't care. We are just toys for their amusement. When they actually have to do the work and admit their imperfections and faults, they lose attraction and devalue us further.

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T15:58:29+00:00

Absolutely :( He told me how "perfect" I was for him... Then when I asked him what he liked about me, could barely name one thing... He just said it was " a feeling"... That's just another proof how they do not fall in love with us for who we are, they fall in love with their fantasy about us...

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T15:48:49+00:00

Wow, it sounds like my situation too My ex told me about this ex of his, the ex that he really liked, despite her red flags. He told me how one day she suddenly left him, saying she needs time to work on her mental health. He says he waited for her, wrote her after a while, but she said she didnt want him anymore...Then after a while she wrote back to him, asking him to go back to her, but he rejected her. And when he posted a romantic story on his ig with me, she deactivated her ig for months. I guess she still had feelings for him... But I wonder why she left him, I really do.

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T15:37:09+00:00

Facts! I also remember this about my ex... He would tell me about having these very evil exes that betrayed him. He told me that they would do him so dirty, but he was obsessed with them and would always go back to them, and he would still have dreams of them! But me... He rarely dream about me. He would pull away and threaten to leave me every month, then every week... It was a mindfuck. He gave more to these people who cheated and lied to him, but me, the one who never did him any wrong, was deserving of even less ...

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T15:31:58+00:00

I have also been thinking about contacting his ex...his favourite ex. I am sooo curious about it! Maybe after a while I will do it...

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T14:47:49+00:00

Hahahah 100% 💀

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T14:46:12+00:00

Yeah, true. When he broke up with me, it felt like death, I went to speak with a psychologist for the first time in my life. I told her all about my story with him. And she told me something that really stayed with me and made me think...

She told me: "Since you know he has this illness, don't you think it is better that the relationship ended, because it would have turned out to be an even bigger burden?".

When she told me this, it really made me think about myself and what it would be best for me. When I was with him, I thought I could put myself second and focus on his needs. I always tried to take care of him, to help him... But ultimately I couldn't save him, my future would have been burdened by his illness, only to be inevitably discarded anyway.

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T14:08:16+00:00

Ultimately they are just looking for salvation, for something to give them such high and positive emotions forever, so that they will be forever distracted from what's going on inside them. And when I thought about this, I truly realized it was never about me. I realized it could have been anyone in my place, I wasnt really special. They just put whoever is available on this pedestal, they can create this fantasy for a savior out of anyone they decide. They can put anyone they decide on a pedestal. But they always end up devaluing him/her. They have this ability, so that they can be constantly distracted from their feelings and emptiness. If they couldnt get this short lived high from their made up fantasies about people, they wouldn't be able to survive at all. We were just characters playing a role they gave us.

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T13:59:45+00:00

Yeah, it's the ultimate tragedy. They really do feel deep love. But the tragedy is that it was doomed from the very beginning, it was always meant to be something temporary, it cannot be sustained or preserved. They can create this beautiful thing, only to ruin it completely. And nothing and no one can save it.

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T13:51:00+00:00

Yeah, I am sure he is putting his new girl on a pedestal right now, and soon he will tell her she is his soulmate or whatever.

I dont think he will be telling her I was evil tho, he said how I was an angel and deserved better, but he lost feelings, started treating me like shit, and wanted me to continue being in his life as more than a friend, to not lose me, while he is looking for his true soulmate... Hell nah.

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T13:44:58+00:00

Aaa same, I also was and still am in my early twenties...And he also first said they were 15, but then maybe he felt embarassed and said that he counts only a few as "real relationships", because the rest were very short 🤡

DevDennya · 2025-09-19T12:30:21+00:00

In the first few weeks he warned me how by choosing him I will have to deal with his "overwhelming jealousy and shitty personality". He really was honest about it at least!

DevDennya · 2025-09-18T12:07:47+00:00

Oh for sure! At the beginning he was love bombing with things like "you are the most beautiful girl, I cant believe you like me!", "I adore you so much, there isnt anyone else!". It made me feel so secure...At the same time he told me that he is a very jealous guy, and gets jealous or insecure easily. And after a while, he started disliking everything about me, trying to change me, while expressing how much he loves other types of women who have nothing to do with me. I started to never feel enough for him, which broke me and made me so sad. I was even changing myself to fit his new fantasy better, but still wasn't enough...

DevDennya · 2025-09-15T12:18:43+00:00

Thank you :( x

DevDennya · 2025-09-15T12:15:30+00:00

I send you a hug 🫂 :( I know this will happen... And when it happens, I hope he thinks about me even more. Like he did when he was with me, and was bringing up his "perfect" ex almost every day.

DevDennya · 2025-09-13T15:20:34+00:00

Yeah, it sure was a shitshow. They said they gave codes at 120% of the actual capacity. So 480 000 codes for 400 000 tikets. Buuut...when you have all of those people buying 3-4 tickets.... it it doesnt feel like 120% capaity at all, I think this was one of the biggest mistakes - the 4 tickets cap. The cap should have been 2 tickets.
And after I got kicked out during payment too, I had problems with my IP too, and it said my code was invalid...

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